Not quite a recent photo...but one that i at least dont mind! LOL
I"m here to gain the knowledge i need to make some changes in my life! I've got a long road to haul, but at least this time i'm hoping to see changes in my life that can make me smile, instead of slowly taking that smile away. :-) I hope to meet lots of new people along the way and look forward to learning about one another!
I'm 45 years old, and starting out this week, a newbie on here, I feel like i'm an easy 90! My grandmother can walk further than i can, (of course, she walks 3 miles a day and she is 89!!) So she can make a toddler feel old in that sense!! LOL
I was a CNA and got injured very severly 8 years ago, almost to the date. It took many years of fighting to get to where i could get some real help, and in that time, i'd gone from a severe injury, to a massive one, and a lotttt of extra weight in the process. Finally, the sky opened up for me, and a couple years ago i had my back surgery. By that time, i needed 6 screws in my lower spine and nerve damage so severe that some days i almost cry to have to step on my feet. BUT......
I know that i have good days as well, depending on the weather (I live in Montana so i get all 4 seasons, just not equally!! LOL ) Those are the days i'm going to hold on to right now! Those are the days that i'm going to walk in place here in my little apt. ! I know that if i were to need to sit real fast, i can do it here! So my biggest goal is to be able to get out of this house, without needing a loved one to go with me, without needing to of made sure i took enough pain pills, without needing to make sure its a "good enough " day physically, to be able to do anything! Just the thought of that alone is enough to bring a huge smile to my face! THAT is my motivation!!
I was always such a strong women, i had to be after i lost my husband at such a young age and having 3 little boys. I was determined, self reliant and very energetic. I know that she is still in there somewhere, i get a glimps of her every now and again.
So here I am today, although its late in the afternoon, early evening i suppose, i've not been up long (was up all night) so I'm on day 2 really of this program, and i've already managed to squeeze my 5 minute walk of going around my little circle that i have in here. I set the timer on my stove (its not just for baking ya know! LOL ) and I go for 5 minutes! Yesterday I walked 3.5 minutes, then i had to just hold the countertop and keep pace with my feet. Today, i didnt need that counter for support!! I will try to do another 5 minutes tonight, but my effort is what is important at this point. I'm following the meal plans and swapping out what i dont have at home for other options given to me. I will need to go shopping tonight with my son and pick up a few things to keep me going strong for a few more days.
I am excited and motivated! When i signed up for this, i set my time table for a year i believe. ok..really?? I've got 98 lbs to lose, and I shoot for a year??? lol Wishful thinking never hurt anyone i suppose, but i really have to be honest in saying that, I'd love to be at 180 by Christmas! thats where i was in this profile pic...If i make that, than i will post the pic i had taken 4-5 months ago when i was with my youngest and his lovely bride and baby when they got married. I was so horrified by that picture of myself that I just really can't look at it right now. So instead, I'm looking at the picture that i tell with that , " if that is the lowest i could get down to, I'd be grateful". I was around 180 in this pic here. My first concern isnt so much the tiniest of waists as it is the freedom in getting my body stronger, healthier, and a better frame of mind, both spiritually and mentally.
I saw my Doctor on the 9th of this month, right after i signed up for this site. It was the first time she had ever mentioned the gastric bypass to me, and it was shattering to me to hear that her faith in me was so low. (at least, thats how i perceived it) When in reality it is probably a little of that, and a lot of the fact that its NOT healthy to basically have a completely sedatary life style. the more weight that comes on, the less i move..So i get the pleasure of seeing her in 2 months...this time, it will her that will be so suprised!!!!
This is where I'm at, the begining of a new start. I'm looking forward to reading this over as change happens, seeing where my mind WAS at, compared to where it is at!
Here is to Today!! (As I gulp more water!! LOL )
To learn to truely live life. Eating is just a portion of the bigger picture I think.
I want to build my spiritual, physical and mental, as well as make new friendships.
I've got plans to want to return to school and get the most out of life that i can, in all areas.
I am 45 years young, I have 3 awesome sons who are fully grown now, and a beautiful little granddaughter, who's the apple of my eye!
I've been a widow since my youngest was just weeks old, going on 21 years now.
Several years ago I was severly injured in my lower spine which resulted with me getting lots of nerve damage down to my feet, as well as 6 screws in my lower back. And a lottt of extra weight gain!
I love to paint, crochet, cook, watch tv (crime shows mostly), and read. I"m hoping to be able to add some physical activities to that soon! Sometimes, its just 30 seconds at a time!! lol
| current weight: 226.0