Shared Food & Fitness Trackers
I wrote a blog a while ago- 2:00 AM Turbo infomercial saved my life. It was wonderful the support I received from Spark People friends, but it was the first time I'd really shared that much about that time of my life. Part of me I guess really hadn't dealt with it enough. I'm on another leg of my wellness journey- this time working every aspect of my life.
To those who reached out to me, I'm sorry I've pulled away, and I will get back to each of you over the next week. It's been difficult, but I'm strong enough and ready to be TRULY well :-)
It happened so much like that 2:00 AM Turbo infomercial. I was in my car, listening to Car Smart- every day more and more the Chalene Johnson fan- hanging on every word of the priorities CD. I feel GREAT about the work I do at the Center, but definitely NOT GREAT at all about scrambling to be at my daughters' events, and then being preoccupied. I heard the Julie Voris' story (she's actually the woman who gave my Turbo Kick certification), and literally broke into tears. I wanted that courage. I needed to be able to say I couldn't do this now. My girls are too important. I'll never get this time back.
I thought long and hard about it, replaying and replaying it. The same voice that had pulled me from my stupor all those years ago was calling me to a better life yet again. I wanted to be present and engaged with my family. That's what prompted me to take that first step so long ago. And while I was now physically able to keep up with my girls, maybe I had replaced food with another "drug"- work. I still didn't have to confront any of my demons, and now I was of good physical health, but hadn't dealt with many of my issues. I knew I had to do something.
I'm still helping the community center, but I never put it before my girls, and so I've cut the hours I'm actually there at the center. Most of my work I can do at home when my girls are asleep. I purchased the Everything You Need to Know about Personal Training from turbokick.com to see how I can do at home fitness while my daughters are in school to earn extra money to be able to take vacations with them, etc. I took the AFAA training, and am awaiting the results. I'm realizing I'd thrown myself so much into the community work, I'd ignored the financial crisis my own family is in, and haven't taken my girls on a real vacation ever.
I do think sometimes there's a "plan" or when you open yourself up to something, it's there for you. I walked into Borders looking for a book for my daughter, and it hit me like a punch in the stomach. I saw "The Courage To Heal", a book a therapist had tried to get to work through when I was 17. It was time. To be present and engaged, I had to finally deal with this. Getting healthier, working in the community- positive steps, but band-aids. My spirit needed to get fit! I bought the book, and Partners in Healing, so I could make my husband part of this journey.
Together we've reevaluated our priorities, and are taking all the steps this time to become truly healthy, and create the life we need to be living. We both make To Do lists, and my family is happier than ever!
It's been a long journey, and likely one that will span years, but you've made a world of difference to point me toward the better path :-)
It's funny how everything really is a JOURNEY. Fitness has become WELLNESS, and I'm looking to change my perspective on everything in life to something positive and that will make me a better person :-)
I'm a TURBO KICK and HIP HOP HUSTLE instructor, and have a blast teaching class. I just lack the discipline in the diet area :-D I'm really hoping this accountability of tracking what I am eating will help!
I have two wonderful daughters, an amazing husband and the three cutest chihuahuas in the world!! I'm realizing I'm a life long student and LOVING it. I would LOVE to connect with you on Facebook www.facebook.com/guadalupe.ramirez and Twitter www.twitter.com/LupeERamirez
My favorite book is In the Time of the Butterflies, but I hated the movie. I love ALL kinds of music, stuff that gets you going and stuff to calm you down :-D
| current weight: 120.0