Hey Trixie-welcome! I noticed that you're feeling a little overwhelmed and confused. I've been using this site for a few years (and when I stick to a plan it works pretty well!) I would love to help you through the first few steps-both of using the site and getting on a path to healthy habits. I'm definitely not an expert, and I'm still working on myself, but I think I have a few things I can help you with. Good Luck and YOU CAN DO IT!!!