40,000-49,999 SparkPoints 41,587

HAL 9000



Happy Birthday

Spiritual Awake...

TRILLIANTOO is a SparkPeople Motivator!

See All SparkPeople Motivators
Interact with TRILLIANTOO
Add as SparkFriend Send Private Message Leave Comment

Before my work related injury several years ago, I was fit, trim, active, healthy, and happy (well, reasonably so!). I had just discovered my Life Purpose and was starting to pursue it.

But I was injured on the job, my doctors called me permanently disabled, and my life has been one of surviving, not living, ever since. Keeping weight off has been a struggle, as has been holding on to my sanity.

For many years now I have simply been surviving from one day to the next. But it's time to live again.

I'm now in that in-between place of better than I was, but not as good as I could be. Each great day is magnificient, making each bad day harder to endure than before.

Each day is about small steps, and keeping the long-term in focus. I can't let myself get into emotional chaos from the natural highs and lows (good days and bad days) that come from living with chronic pain. I have to stay focused on the question "Am I better now overall than I was last week, last month, last year?" If yes, then I have to hold on to that - which isn't that much different from all of us struggling with weight loss. It's a long term view.

Having been an "unproductive" member of society (unable to work, earn my own way), I know now how decimating it is to one's self-esteem, spirit and psyche. I long for the day when I can be all the way back - and better than ever - with all that I've learned in my journey.

Member Since: 1/9/2007

Fitness Minutes: 30,218

My Goals:
Goals are so hard to set, and change frequently.

I won't put a date on anything, but I want to be fully functional (aka "normal"), pain free, fit, trim, healthy and financially self-sustaining.

When this all will happen I will no longer try to pre-determine. But it will happen!

My Program:
I have switched to a pimarily raw vegan diet.

Understanding the principles of Atkins, I now pay attention to the glycemic index of foods - and as a result I lose weight with less effort, and feel full, energetic and satisfied!

Exercise has been redefined in terms of things that are challenging to me.

My daily exercise routine is to be sure to shower, put on street clothes, get all my own meals, tend the garden and tend the cats daily.

I am now trying to incorporate "traditional" exercise as best I can. It's a day to day thing to find out what, and how much, I can do. But overall, this year is more active than last!

Personal Information:

Other Information:

Read More About TRILLIANTOO - Profile Information moved here. (Updated April 1)

Shown if member clicks "Read More"
My Goals:

My Program:

Personal Information:

Other Information:

Personal Signature: (Shown after Message Board Posts)
Add a Link
Save Changes
My Ticker:
 current weight: 114.5 
Login to Leave Comment
    And to think I was changing that quote while your message wended its way to my SparkPage - of all the awful coincidences! But, I'm glad to see here that you had pain that's apparently relented after a long bout of it. YEAH!!! May you have many more pain-free times in 2011 (and even before then!) emoticon
    2656 days ago
  • v JAZZYONE53
    Hey thanks for stopping by.

    Sorry for the miss impression.

    I didn't think you were cutting them off. From your very precise description I was certain that you were not cutting them off.

    I did also envision you traveling in the adjacent lane not in the same lane.

    My son was home for my grandaughter's (his niece's) 10th Birthday and I asked him about this.

    He also thinks it is not about your passing technique (and hopefull not about your legs) but about your following proceedures.

    Please be certain that you are not following too closely.

    Short of going to the website (for truckers) and asking there; we have no clue.

    emoticon emoticon
    2696 days ago
  • v DIANE929
    emoticon emoticon
    emoticon emoticon emoticon

    Stoppin in to tell you your thought of more often than you know...

    Keep in touch,Biggest hug....Diane...

    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    emoticon emoticon

    2706 days ago
  • v DEBSZOO74
    I read your post on the message boards about doing your first 5K.
    How did it go? I'm considering doing my first one next month, but not sure that I'm ready yet.
    2710 days ago
  • v JAZZYONE53

    I posted to your message on the message boards.

    I saw that no one else had answered you, perhaps they were concerned about offending you.

    I am concerned about the possibility that you may be in danger.

    My son drives 18 wheeler over the road for living. In most states it is against the law for truckers to blow their horns unless there is imminent danger.

    Usually, the scenario you described means that the car was so close behind them they could not see the car until they were being passed.

    If you cannot see the rear view mirrors of the truck the truck driver cannot see you.

    I know this because when he was taking classes I told him,
    "I hope you will be a friendly trucker. I miss the days when you could pump your fist at a trucker and he would toot his horn twice at you. It always gave me such a thrill as a child."

    He said, " Mom that's against the law in most states."
    I asked why and he replied, "That's the signal for imminent danger. We use it mostly when we are being passed by cars that we didn't even know were behind us because we could not see
    them in our review mirror."

    I was like, "What."

    And he said, "Yeah, that's why trucks have warnings posted on them that say: If you can't see my review mirrors; I can't see you."

    Well, duh. I said feeling like a dunnderhead.

    Be blessed and much success.

    Jazz emoticon
    2713 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/16/2010 3:14:11 PM
Member Comments (344):  << First< Previous34567Next >Last >>