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Pregnant and LOCO Roller Derby president - weight unknown, thought about 247 or so. My son was born Sept 5 2010 and as of Sept 24 I am down to 228 or so.





Me and Georgia W Tush put the cheese squeeze on a jammer - 210





Daiquiri by the pool in Las Vegas in a swimsuit... WONDERFUL.. April 19, 2007 - 215



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Update Jan 2012
Fat Girl has moved to home office. No gym membership since birth of the baby 16 months ago. No more roller derby since rotator cuff injury and baby became toddler Summer 2012. Post Holidays.... with no treatment to shoulder injury, and a very old bed causing back damages.

WEIGHT: 249.5 lbs
Morning Jan 13 on digital scale in Las Vegas Hotel room.
Emotions: verge of tears. Reflections being avoided, mirrors avoided. When seeing myself in a ...
Update Jan 2012
Fat Girl has moved to home office. No gym membership since birth of the baby 16 months ago. No more roller derby since rotator cuff injury and baby became toddler Summer 2012. Post Holidays.... with no treatment to shoulder injury, and a very old bed causing back damages.

WEIGHT: 249.5 lbs
Morning Jan 13 on digital scale in Las Vegas Hotel room.
Emotions: verge of tears. Reflections being avoided, mirrors avoided. When seeing myself in a mirror, I no longer see myself in the image. It looks like someone else's body. It is so disgusting I can't believe it is me.

Yes I know, Don't be so hard on yourself, be kind to yourself, accept that a 37 year old fat body post C section and baby delivery is not going to be the skinny 17 year old with skin elasticity and toned feelings that it once was. Ignore the air brushing and know we all have body issues.

Yes, but you don't understand.... I literally cannot see myself anymore. I still feel like at worst, the photos you see here. Rollergirl, pregnant and happy, fat and all, Rollergirl tough, relaxed and smiling, ---- then I see myself and I look, OLD. Dry. FAT, Cellulite-covered, droopy, bulgy, and I feel complete disgust, revulsion, collapse. The only reason I don't er-atempt suicide right now is that when my baby crawls onto my lap to hug me, I know that he loves me, and he does not know what I look like compared to others yet. I fear that when he realizes how I am different he will hate me too.

I am operating with a very thin shield between me and my madness, and am fighting to concentrate on HEALTH and WELLNESS and not flip sides back in to complete pro-anorexia. "The only thing that ever worked was not eating, so why did I give it up?", screams my thinner self from within, with a hysteria-edged vocal screetch in my head, dark eyes and zombie-stare in a panicked face.
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Member Since: 9/26/2006

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My Goals:
To get in shape and look great ! Oh and be a tough competitor on the derby rink.

My Program:
Weight in pounds X 6 or X 7 cal limits. Protein at every meal, snacks, and protein with all carbs.

Exercise - 2 hours per day, cardio and strength - intensity variation, cross-training focus.

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I am a movie and TV on DVD lover, Sci-FI and Horror is best.

Oh! and I gave up cable this year. Yay! NO over-marketing! I HATE access hollywood/etalk, Entertainment tonight, tmz shows. they grate on my nerves SO bad.

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USE2BWILD
11/19/2012 12:42:02 AM

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2011 is sneaking in the back door. Let's make it the best ever! Happy New Year!



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Happy Thansgiving!!!



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