Before: 326lbs / Sept. 2013: 243lbs.
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My name is Alethea and my journey to better health began back in May 2009. I joined, got active, and got off to an amazing start, but lost focus a few months in and regained the little bit of weight that I did manage to lose. In the few years following my regain, I was sporadically active, one moment gung ho, then the next, a no show. I kept asking myself: "What GIVES?! Why is this weight not FLYING off? Like, TODAY already??" Little did I know that that was not the most important factor in this journey....
Disappointed with my rate of progress, I once again broke my commitment. Needless to say, I got bigger. Not only did I get bigger, I became more dissatisfied with life than ever. They always say that some people are their own worst critic, but I would take it further than that. Not only did I criticize, I (mentally) beat up, kicked around, then yelled at myself for not following through with the numerous plans, workouts, etc. that I had tried. I ended up spiraling into a deep depression. I no longer wanted to participate socially, had no interest in living life, none existent self worth, zero self esteem...you get my drift.
For quite a while books and internet research became my source of comfort, in addition to eating. During the process of reading/studying/analyzing just about every health and wellness topic imaginable, I began to realize the critical role my mental health played in my personal growth and development.
It then became clear: I needed to clear out the hoarded negativity and baggage from my (mental) attic before moving forward and settling into a new home (body). I attempted going to a traditional therapist...but for some reason it felt off. So, I decided to take matters into my own hands. I began treating my mind like a subject at school. The more I dug up and studied about my inner self, the more I was able to release and come to terms with suppressed issues. From frequent early childhood sexual abuse, to failed relationships, overwhelming guilt, crippling fears and programmed self-doubts, there was nothing that I didn't face head on. The work was hard...I'm sorry, excruciating...and honestly I didn't think I would make it through. But I did. I did because I took it one step at a time and released things in my own way.
At this point in my life, I feel I have finally gotten back in touch with my true self. I now understand that my purpose in this life is to help others to break free from the mental prison I was once in, so that we all may blossom and come into who we were truly meant to be. =) I am here to love, help, teach and guide everyone I come into contact with back to the peace and inner tranquility we were all born with, and with things the way they are in the world today, I feel there is no better time than now to make things right!
I love to motivate and be motivated so buddies are always welcome, the more the merrier! LET'S GO!!!
1st: 235 lbs. [down 91 lbs.] ((MET))
2nd: 200 lbs. [down 126 lbs. ]
3rd: 180 lbs. [down 146 lbs.]
I want to get down to my pre-baby weight, gain cardiovascular strength and endurance, create good eating habits, and deal with my emotions effectively, without turning to food. I also want to help others do the same.
I am focusing on eating only when I'm hungry, and not just to put something in my mouth. I drink mostly water, but I sometimes enjoy tea sweetened with Truvia, or my favorite, Sweet Leaf tea (peach!)
*flax oil pills: 2/ meal
*B Complex: 2/day
"Even in total silence there is something to hear"
| current weight: 214.4