5/8/10--from Edgefest concert, about 230 lbs
the pic that started it all. Nov '09. I actually didn't recognize myself when i first saw it.
1/21/11, I can finally zip up my favorite fleece jacket again! size XL!!! woot woot!!!!
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*****IF NOT NOW......WHEN??*****
Short version: I don't wanna be fat anymore. I'm tired of it. So, I'm gonna change it.
Read on for the long version:
Hi there:) My name is Talia, and I'm sooooooooo SO done. Seriously. I just can't take it anymore. I've lost track of how many times I've lost and gained the same 50 lbs over and over again. My highest ever non-pregnant weight was somewhere around 270, but I can't be sure. Honestly, it was probably more than that. With both of my kids I gained 95 lbs, getting me up to around 305 lbs on delivery day (again, probably more. That was the weight from my last doc appt for each pregnancy). Each time I got pregnant I had JUST gotten back on track, and had worked my weight down to around 210 lbs. Now, I'm terrified that that weight equates to pregnant. Illogical, I know. But have no doubt that I will be celibate between the weights of 215 and 205. Im done making babies, and I'm not taking any chances;-)
I first found SP a few years ago, and had some success then. But a divorce, a subsequent custody battle, a gall bladder surgery, a long painful bout of kidney stones, a stretch of unemployment, and then the foreclosure on my house derailed me. I gave up on life for awhile, I'm not ashamed to admit it. But then i saw a picture in November 2009 taken of me at a party for my boyfriend's charity organization ....and I couldn't believe what I had let myself get too. I didn't even recognize myself. Soon after that I got on a scale, dusted off my Sparkpage, and got to work. Its been a bumpy ride, but this chick ain't stopping. Ever.
So join me in this journey. Add me, leave comments, push me. I need your support, and I promise to support you too. We can all do this, because we deserve it. Never let anyone convince you otherwise.
You can also find me on www. tallycat.tumblr.com :-)
I just want to focus on being healthy and comfortable and confident. Of course I'd like for it to happen quickly (like, yesterday), but I know it takes work. I'm not aiming to be "skinny". I'm 5'7" and am very comfortable and confident at around 180-190lbs. I enjoy having curves:) But i do want to be healthy, active, strong, confident, and basically just un-ashamed of my reflection. I don't want to be soft and flabby. There is a right way to rock your curves, and a wrong way. I aim to do it right:)
I tend to rebel against super structured programs, but I also know the importance of having a clearly mapped out plan. I'm just going to try to make each day a little better than the one before it, and then ride that snowball all the way in:)
Yes, i want to be healthy. Yes i want to live a long and happy life. Yes i want to be a good example for my children. BUT.....
Most of my reasons are vanity related... for example, i've always wanted to wear one of those totally hot little halloween costumes:) I want heads to turn when i walk by. I wanna have sex with the lights on. I'd like to play twister without ending up in the ER. I wanna shake my ass and not have it shake back;)
i'm basically a nerd. think of a bunch of nerdy things to do and that pretty much covers it. I also read, write, and paint. but on the flip side of that (i am a gemini after all), i love going out dancing and I go to just about every concert i can un-earth. Even the really crappy ones, because i love music that much:).(i'm seriously a concert-whore). In my head, i'm a rock star, and no one can convince me otherwise:)
| current weight: 240.0
552 days ago
Comment edited on: 11/23/2014 12:11:12 PM
Hey, just wanted to stop by and say hello, Ive been gone for a while. But I am back recommited to this new and healthy lifestyle. So glad that you are still here. Good luck on reaching your goals, and have a great day. Much success on your journey!
1101 days ago
Have an awesome November!!! Remember, you can do it and you are so worth it!!!
1302 days ago
Wanted to stop in and say hello to all of my amazing Spark Friends.... Thank you for your support and Encouragement as I try to get back on track!!!! You are amazing... We can do this!!!!
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¸.♥´ .´¨¨ ¸´¸.´¨Hi SparkFriend,
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(¸.´ (¸.´ ♥¸.´¸¸.A Fabulous Week
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(¸.´ (¸.´ ♥¸.´¸¸.Blondie
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1494 days ago
I've added you.... love your sense of humour in your blogs!! Hope you don't mind. Have a great day!!
1569 days ago