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A Lot To Lose

I have retinitis pigmentosa and a little over a year ago I found out I could no longer drive. It was crushing and I went into a long depression where I turned to food for comfort. Not only had I become legally blind, but my shakey relationship with my kids' dad fell apart when I found out he was lying to me about many many things. I had to stay in the heat of Arizona with no alternative but to live in misery that whole year. Food was my friend, companion, the only thing I could count on to ...
I have retinitis pigmentosa and a little over a year ago I found out I could no longer drive. It was crushing and I went into a long depression where I turned to food for comfort. Not only had I become legally blind, but my shakey relationship with my kids' dad fell apart when I found out he was lying to me about many many things. I had to stay in the heat of Arizona with no alternative but to live in misery that whole year. Food was my friend, companion, the only thing I could count on to be there for me.

In March I came back to California to help care for my mother who is very ill. It was blessing and a curse since I got to leave the horrible situation I was in, but it's hard to watch my mom struggling. The silver lining to her poor health is that it inspired me to change. She is and has been morbidly obese the greater part of her adult life which is where I learned my bad habits. I watch her wheelchair bound, going in and out of the hospital with near death experiences and realize that I don't want to be her. More than that, I don't want to cause my children the pain I am experiencing right now.

I know this may seem like too much information and I'm crying as I write it, however I feel like I need to get it out to heal and I don't have anyone in my life to talk to. All the friends I knew here have moved away or are too busy, so I'm stuck taking care of everyone and have no one to turn to for help. I don't know that anyone will ever read this anyway, but if you got this far in the message, thank you for caring.

So far I've done pretty well using the tools on sparkpeople, but would love to make some friends so that we could help keep each other motivated. I have well over a hundred pounds to lose and would love to meet people who are also here on a long journey.




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SAIDTHEFAE
4/25/2011 10:38:56 PM

Welcome to the East Bay Sparkies!

We are trying to start up monthly hikes in the area, so stay posted for that. Whatever else you would like from the team - let us know!





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