now.. where did i hide that candy?
Teek makes a great pillow
Beware. I'm 'kinky' ...
And I'm here to take advantage of the growth potential that comes from hard work and the follow through with ANY journey towards change. Bottom line? I need to take off a 'few' pounds. I want the weight that I shed to be about more than a number, or a smaller number on the tag of my pants.... I want to feel energized, healthy and challenged to be an even BETTER me.
I am amazed by wonderful relationships that fill me and give me great joy. Most of all, I am proud to say I am now officially in service to the most fantastic top I have ever come to know. Kim Attica adds great value to my life and I am completely ever aware of how blessed I am to not only know her - but to serve her. I look forward to the continuing journey with her. I am delighted and over the moon.
I’m not a ‘player’. I desire very strongly to serve. Leather history and traditions inspire and interest me. I don’t follow a ‘one true way’, but strive to make myself better for my ‘this way today’ moments.
I’m ever-evolving and often uncertain of bits and pieces of the ‘words’ that describe me. Never having been one for labels, I have had to admit to myself fairly recently that they matter more to me than I wish to agree to.
Mostly, and happily, I am just – ME. I am fat, poly, a bottom who craves service. Sometimes I wonder if ‘slave’ fits me. It’s hot. I like it, so I might use it. Mostly, I will go with whatever someone else chooses to call me – provided that someone else has my respect in a way that justifies slapping a label on.
I am smart and I am beautiful. You don’t have to think so, but I think so, and my opinion of me matters to me more than yours.
I am increasingly attracted to and charmed by women but can’t really say I’m ‘sure’ that the label gay suits me. Not that it matters, but I suppose, it might matter if you randomly decide to inappropriately hit on me via unsolicited fetmail. (and it’s ALWAYS the fellas who do that.. why guys, why?)
My life is real. I am real. And I am happy.
I don’t enjoy large crowds of people. Gatherings make me anxious unless I have a considerable amount of control at said gatherings or am escorted by someone who makes me feel ‘safe’. I haven’t really shared that info – so now you know.
I’m definitely a fun person, and a nice person – but your idea of ‘fun’ and mine could be very different. And your perception of nice might not align with mine if you are unappreciative of being real, honest and clear. I have come to love and appreciate ‘real, honest and clear’ and look for it to be mutual in relationships. It really works much better than ‘fluff to make you feel good’ or ‘tip-toeing around a real answer’
This is real to me. Personal growth and happiness have come in like a flood as I journey on to understand my needs, wants and desires better.
I love brains. I’M ATTRACTED TO SMART PEOPLE. (a special smart person gets that smiles)
I am a diplomat - true to my Libran self, and despite my need for things to be peaceful and orderly, I am learning (the hard way) that I can't fix everyone's shizit and I don't have room for the drama that comes with trying. Kthnxbye.
I don't bite.
Unless of course I must.
I'm keeping my goals little and achievable. Right now, despite the many MORE I could stand to lose, I'm focusing on 20.
THEN I'll choose a new goal. I'm tired of shooting so high I am overwhelmed. And that's not just weight loss goals I'm talking.
One step at a time!
Having a Ma'am to be accountable to HELPS. I offered her access to my SP so she could see for herself what I was doing (or not doing) ... After failing to keep it up to date immediately after making that petition.. I'm hopeful to do a much better job at maintaining it
I'm not following a 'diet' or a program. I'm attempting to eat the right 'formula' of cal/fat/etc for my size and my goals. I don't plan to deprive myself of all that is delicious.. and I can't follow a fad (even if it works...I've tried)
My program consists instead of truthfully tracking what I eat/drink.. and monitoring my weight etc. So when my pants feel tight and the number on the scale seems high..I can SEE how it didn't help to have that binge.
My diet (as in what I eat.. not the book I follow) doesn't include Fast Food (as per a rule of Ma'am's before I reconsidered SP) .. unless she permits me a treat!
I'm a small town girl, living in a bigger town that passes as a city... and a pretty city at that.
I dream of leaving this city to be closer to Ma'am.
I'm turning 33, I'm comfortable in my fat body, I love life, my two kitties and watercolor painting when I have time. I also play World of Warcraft and am soon going to be a student!
I don't do marshmallow enemas, or trampolines. There seems to be a question as to what my safe word REALLY should be.
But then.. I don't do safewords either.
And speaking of marshmallows... Morphine induced hospital visits brought on by trampoline accidents lead to Purple Marshmallow Peep dreams and delusions.
| current weight: 272.5
I totally love your direct description of yourself! :)
And I'd rather be bitten that bite too, so I get that. :) But, ya know...if asked...
2159 days ago
Welcome to the Thyroid community. Good luck on your weight loss journey.
2159 days ago
Hi, Welcome to the GLBT We Are Family team. Sure glad that you've joined.
2159 days ago
Hey thanks for the comment. 8lbs is an awesome start! Your pictures are so cute! I love the candy caption one!
3497 days ago
Hey!!! I totally know what you mean. I was and still am tored of not finding real clothes to wear. I weighed myself this morning and I was down another 1.5 lbs so that's a 49 lb. weight loss. So stoked I am, lol. Well good luck with eveyrthing and if you need support, I am here.
3501 days ago