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I'm a 20-year-old college student. I'm majoring in English with Creative writing and minoring in Psychology, and I hope to write for a magazine one day!
Here are my basic stats:
Height: 5' 3''
Highest weight: 160
I'm so excited about losing weight the healthy way this time! Eating clean, exercising regularly, and doing my best to live and maintain a healthy, active lifestyle.
Losing weight in college is one of the hardest things I have experienced. It requires balancing academics, social (and alcohol), and a healthy lifestyle... but it has been SO worth it, and I'm infinitely happier this way despite some significant setbacks.
As an extended bio, my weight has controlled my life for as long as I can remember. My earliest memory is being 10 years old and self conscious about it, which is just crazy. That's so LITTLE. But being overweight legitimately left a severe mark on how I viewed myself and how I thought others viewed me.
Despite being semi-athletic and loving sports, I slowly gained weight throughout high school once I started spending more time on the computer and going out to eat with friends. Plus, I got curves overnight. I was so self conscious and insecure all throughout high school. I always figured people judged me for my weight, and soon, as that idea became more ingrained into my head, I became more reserved and guarded. I made the best friends, but my weight completely affected who I was and how I perceived myself. It was almost an hourly concern, and I was constantly "dieting."
Then came college, and for my freshman year, things got even worse. For my first two years of college, my weight really didn't get too out of control. most of the time, I stayed at 152-155, which was how much I weighed after high school graduation. However, I was MISERABLE my freshman year. I absolutely hated it, and I struggled making friends, and my self confidence just plummeted even further... and I blamed most of it on my weight. I thought my weight was the main reason no one liked me, and freshman year is when I really began to fully develop binge eating disorder.
It got so bad... I would eat in secret all of the time, and I would eat so much just to try to fix whatever I felt inside. Or fix the fact that I felt nothing. I would eat until it hurt, but that feeling was better than being so depressed, I guess. Gosh.. it sounds really awful writing it out now. But I do think I legitimately had a problem. I had an awful relationship with food, but I was and still am way too embarrassed about it to tell anyone. I didn't know how to handle it, and it's something I'm still dealing with.
Sophomore year was SO much better, and I made an amazing group of friends and grew to love my school, but my binge habits persisted, and I began to rely on food to solve any boredom or emotional problems. My weight went up and down the 150s all of freshman and sophomore year, and even though I'd occasionally lose some of it, I'd gain it right back some how, and I was never truly happy.
I started summer 2012 at my highest weight: 160 lbs. At 5' 3'', that was clearly way too high. On June 27th, I finally decided to make a lifelong change.
Now, everything is different. Eliminating the concept of a "goal date" changed everything for me. I no longer felt rushed to lose as much weight as possible. That always made me heavily restrict, get incredibly frustrated when I wasn't losing a pound every day, and eventually quit and go back to my binge eating habits.
Instead, I now view this as a lifelong journey, and health is my overall goal. Health and happiness. And it is WORKING. I have learned how to truly eat healthy. I've learned that eating healthy doesn't mean only eating grilled chicken and salads every day. And it doesn't mean restricting myself and feeling deprived.
I've also begun to LOVE working out. Whenever I'm in a bad mood, it is usually because I haven't worked out yet, and working out ALWAYS makes me feel better. I love watching my body change. I love the feeling of getting stronger... it's an empowering feeling that I had never felt before. It's amazing knowing that this is something I have total control over, and before I had never thought that I could actually be a strong and fit person. Before, I could do a few "girl" pushups. Now, I can do real push ups, and lots of them. My mile is faster than ever before, I can run longer than before, I can complete Insanity videos regularly, and I push my wall-sit time even farther ever day. It's so great, and I FEEL so great!
That's the best part about all of this-- I'm absolutely loving the journey. It is tough, and I get in really terrible moods, and I get so frustrated, but quitting is never an option. I feel like I'm finally doing this the right way, and it's an amazing feeling. I'm so much happier than I could've imagined, and I'm making progress. It's slow, but that is something I've had to learn to accept. True, lasting weight loss MUST be slow. Everything around us makes us think losing 10 lbs in 2 weeks is a real, plausible thing-- it's NOT. Once I accepted that there does not have to be a set "goal date," I realized that slow progress is still progress, and as long as I keep going, I WILL reach my goals without question.
This was way too long-winded...
BUT if you actually read that (which I'm not expecting anyone to), I wish you SO much luck on this journey!! EVERYONE can do this. And you are all amazing for even starting this winding journey to begin with.
If you need a friend, I am always here! I love spark buddies :)
* Become happy, confident, healthy, and fit
* Weigh 125-130 lbs (so to lose about 30-35 lbs overall)
* completely conquer binge eating.
* run for 30 minutes without stopping (accomplished!!)
* do 20 real push ups (accomplished!!)
* do 50 real pushups
* run a 10k
* complete a half marathon
Health is my overall goal, so I don't really have a strict program. I'm working on mastering intuitive eating, so I do eat if I am ever truly hungry (and not just bored). I view that as a sign from my body that something is missing, but I make sure to stop when I am full! And if I'm really craving something, I'll have a small bite of it. I don't view any food as completely off-limits, but I try to be smart about getting "the best bang for my buck" as far as calories go, meaning choosing foods that will keep me full and benefit my body the most.
In general, I try to eat clean. I typically only eat 100% whole grains and stick to lots of vegetables and lean meats. I am also a huge fan of fruit, but I try not to go TOO crazy just so I can keep an eye on carb levels. But fruit is great for you in general.
My other food staples include: natural nut butters, almonds, Chobani, 2% cottage cheese, oatmeal, almond milk, coffee and tea, apples, Sargento light
See my intro!!
I love people, my friends, music and concerts, great books, soccer, warm weather, going on adventures, electric guitar, learning, college football, Almost Famous, road trips, pictures, California, Arabic, cool bookshelves, cute dresses, Minesweeper, and red velvet cupcakes :)
| current weight: 157.0