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*UPDATE*
After spending several years in an abusive relationship, I've finally left. The abuse not only did a job on my mental health, but on my body too. From the sleep deprivation, attacks on my self esteem, and pure amount of physical stress, I've gained back a lot of my weight.

I'm trying not to get too down on myself, but I'd be lying if I said it was easy. I need support now more than ever. I believe that this time, when it comes off, it will stay off, because now I ...
*UPDATE*
After spending several years in an abusive relationship, I've finally left. The abuse not only did a job on my mental health, but on my body too. From the sleep deprivation, attacks on my self esteem, and pure amount of physical stress, I've gained back a lot of my weight.

I'm trying not to get too down on myself, but I'd be lying if I said it was easy. I need support now more than ever. I believe that this time, when it comes off, it will stay off, because now I have a healthy environment to support my goals. It's just getting back to where I used to be that's the problem. But I've worked too hard to give up now. If anyone out there thinks they can help me, even in the tiniest of ways, please let me know.

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A good chunk of my childhood was spent with doctors, and consequently, a lot of weight-gain-inducing medications. For a long time I was bitter about gaining so much weight that wasn't my fault. Even though I lost my first 20 lbs. just by coming off the medications, I still had a long way to go.

10 lbs. from goal, I feel like my health is in my hands. I've had to work hard to develop good habits and restart my metabolism, but it was worth it, and it was an achievement all my own. I couldn't dream of going back to neglecting my body. Choosing to just settle with the cards I was dealt simply isn't an option anymore.

Of course, that doesn't mean this is suddenly any easier. I know how hard and frustrating this can be, no matter how much weight you're trying to lose. The encouragement of the online community has made a big difference for me. So feel free to drop me a line if you need encouragement too!




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Member Since: 8/8/2007

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My Goals:
Conquer emotional eating by feeling my emotions rather than eating them.

Maintain weight while I recover from abuse.

My Program:
A small portion of food every 3 hours to help fix my metabolism from eating disorders.

8 glasses of water a day.

Yoga every morning. Extra exercise as I'm able to.

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Name: Melissa

Age: 24

For more info about me, my writings, or my art, go ahead and visit my website.

http://www.happygothproductions.com

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I've been all over the USA (military brat), but was born and raised in Alaska.

Graduate student at Goddard University, getting my MFA in fiction writing.

I've got a ton of interests really. RP, music, video games, belly dance, yoga, books, books, books... You'll just have to talk to me to find out more.

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BLESSEDBEING
3/24/2013 10:54:18 PM

emoticon Howdy there, friend! I think I owe you a letter! emoticon I haven't been keeping up with everybody, & have been a bit scattered, but maintaining the weight loss, and plugging away semi-consistently on my Getting Free project (getting organized & shedding clutter). I eventually want to make some changes for the better with career & finances. At least I'm finally devoting some time to getting our Wellness Committee at work off the ground, so that feels positive.

I'm taking part in the current Chopra Center free 21-day meditation challenge; this one is being co-sponsored by Oprah Winfrey. I'm a few days behind, but enjoying the discussions by Deepak on health and balance, and the short meditations. Have you tried them, or done any other meditation? You can check it out at www.chopracenter.com. You can still register, if you are interested.
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Let me know how you are doing when you get a chance, dear. Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon



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BLESSEDBEING
12/25/2012 9:27:29 PM

Hope you are doing well, dear friend! Glad things will be calming down a bit now, and looking forward to making plans for the new year. What are your hopes and dreams for 2013?

Wishing you Joy, Love, Success and Serenity! Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon



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BLESSEDBEING
7/15/2012 1:17:39 PM

emoticon emoticon Hey, honey! Just thinking about you and wishing you well. I know life happens to all of us. I just hope you are taking good care of you!

Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon emoticon



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JOLIVIAH
12/4/2011 9:19:42 AM

Hi there! I'm the new admin for the Recovering Eating Disorders team and just wanted to invite you to come over and share your holiday challenge and goal! So glad to have you on the team!



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11/6/2011 12:53:17 AM

How's life emoticon I haven't seen you emoticon in a little while. Hope all is going well for you! Please check in when you get a minute. What are you reading now? emoticon I'm checking out the early Patricia Briggs books from my library system for my sister, since the waiting list in her system is really long. And of course I'm reading them again, too! Plus I'm working on several non-fiction books in bits and pieces.

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