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I'm back!!!! I was doing really good in 2007 but I got a new job in a new town and I sorta fell off the wagon. Funny thing is is that I only applied for the new job in the new city because I was feeling so good about my weight lose and the way things were going. Once I got the new job in the new city, stress set in, and it all came back and then some. I am afraid to get on teh scale because I know I am over 400 lbs now. I can't stand for more then a minute or two without pain. So, I am back. My daughter just joined the site and the fight to get healthy and she has inspired me to do the same.
I'll update the rest of my profile soon.
I don't feel very good about myself most days but I have a pretty good self image on other days.
I have been told I have a pretty face, a great sense of humor and a winning personality. I am kind and patient and giving. Still, no one wants me because I'm fat.
I'm tired of being alone but the only guys that are interested in me are ones that want to do all sorts of perverted things to me. They seem to think I will go along with it because I'm fat and can't get anyone else.
Well, my standards may be set too high, but I will not lower myself to do something I'd be arrested for if the authorities found out about it.
If I'm going to lose weight, it has to be for me. To live a healthy, longer and more prosperous life.
And yet, I can't help thinking that if I lose the weight, I might actually find someone to be with.
And then I think, if the man of my dreams really loved me, he would love me at any weight. So, what's the point of losing the weight. If I want to find someone to love me for me, then I should just be who I am and what I am and not try to change anything.
Then again, I am back to losing it for myself, for my health, for my own sanity.
Then again, if I did lose weight, would I be the same person that I am now? I have heard that some women that lose weight actually turn into complete witches and think they are all that and a bag of chips. Would I be one of those women?
Then again, I would love to ride a roller coaster again. I would love to ride on a plane and not have to ask for a seatbelt extender. I would love to sit in a movie theater with the arms of the chair down (oh I hate the ones that don't go up!). I would love to go to a restaurant and be able to sit in the chair or booth without having to ask for armless chairs or "does the table move away from the seat or is it stuck to the wall?" I would love to shop at a regular store and wear clothes off the rack and half the price of my fat clothes. I would love to not get stared at for being fat but instead be stared at for being pretty. I would love to go to the beach.
Then again, I would miss being able to eat coffee ice cream.
Then again, I would still be able to eat what I like, just not so much of it.
I also want to say that I've never been a millionaire, but I think I'd be really good at it!
My goal is to be healthier, live long and prosper.
Watch what I eat, when I eat it and why I am eating it.
Well, my name is Peri and I am from Southern California. I don't have a single friend besides my mother because I am so afraid of getting hurt anymore that I don't let people get close enough to be my friend. That is something that HAS TO change. I am going nuts without people to talk to or do things with.
Did you ever stop to think and forget to start again?
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COME BACK TO SP! I love you!
2615 days ago
You look Beautiful!! Remember Love Yourself first all the guys will come around later You Go Girl u can do this!! Good Luck! I got your back!!
2658 days ago
2700 days ago
Mom! Come back to SP and lose weight with me!
2730 days ago
A man worth being with will love you for the person you are inside. Unfortunately, being somewhat overweight makes most people feel less confident, and thus less appealing. I think loving yourself is the most important thing - it is a very challenging thing to do sometimes. I find my emotional and mental worth increases when I am PRO-ACTIVE with how I treat my body. This affects every relationship in my life.
Were all fighting the same battle everyday!!!
Keep up the good work!!!
2736 days ago