SUEKKY   21,871
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March 13, 2012

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Start slow ( taking a pound at a time ), that is what I am doing, I have set a very long term goal and that is to reach my ideal weight by my birthday in 2015 (Nov 25). But What I am actually doing is working my way down pound by pound (even if it is oz by oz). I do weight myself everyday, and just to see the number go down in anyway is my goal.

I have been a member of SparkPeople for a long time. My first year I did really ...
Hi! Welcome to my spark page!!

Start slow ( taking a pound at a time ), that is what I am doing, I have set a very long term goal and that is to reach my ideal weight by my birthday in 2015 (Nov 25). But What I am actually doing is working my way down pound by pound (even if it is oz by oz). I do weight myself everyday, and just to see the number go down in anyway is my goal.

I have been a member of SparkPeople for a long time. My first year I did really good, didnt reach my goal but had a loss of 50 pounds which at the time put me at 160 (I am 5'3"). Then I got myself addicted to an online game and sat infront of a computer and gain it all back! It is now 2014 (6 years later), I have gotten myself back to my orgional starting weight 210 plus some. I starting looking into obese centers near where I live to find help. But before I go on let me tell you about myself.

I am an American Expat living in Italy. I have been here almost 11 years. The reason I came to Italy was for love, my husband is italian. Living an expat life is not easy, expecially when you are raising children in a way that you were raised which sometimes can be different when living in a different culture. I have changed alot, I dont always like who I have become, I find myself questioning myself alot or doubting myself regarding decisions I make in mothering my children. Yes I am quite aware that all mothers sometime or another question themselves, but I dont have my family here to support me and I only return to the states about every year and half. Besides that I am actually living a better live than alot of my family members back in the states.

Anyway, when I went to my appointment for the obese center she thought it would be better for me to start talking to a psycologist before starting the diet. When I moved to Italy I did not speak any Italian, nor did I understand anything. I have learned alot over the years that I have lived here. So since my italian is not perfect I get really nervous and anxious when I go to speak to the doctors. The day I had my appointment with the psycologist it went well, I understood why it was important to do this so I could understand why I have gotten myself where I am. Well the last few sessions I was not doing very well, I was feeling very down, discouraged about who I was, about how heavy I was and not being able to get myself under control. So she decided I should start taking some medicne. They gave me a perscription for Prozac.

Since I have been on the medicne I have noticed some changes. I have much more control of myself in many ways. Before taking Prozac I would not be able to resist eating. I would become so nervous, so anxious. My heart would literaly start beating harder. If I went more than 3 hours without eating I would start to feel like my body would start to get week, like I would faint. Now it does not bother me at all. I am able to walk away from the things I couldnt before. It does not bother me to have a yogurt for breakfast. Sure I do start feeling hungry before lunch but I am able to resist.

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Do create a plan

My plan is to be consistant. Get into the gym 4 days a week, when choosing meals make sure that protien is the first choice. Majorly limit the amount of carbs I take in and eat lots of fruits and veggies.

Do start small

I am not over working or pushing myself. I do as much as I can until I am able to push myself harder.

Do write it down

This is my page, my notebook where I am writing all my goals and plans down. I also have a note book that have started writing little notes on through out the day on the front page then on the back I sum it up everything for that day.

Do be specific

I will work on becoming a runner, that is my main goal. So I focus more using the treadmill at the gym but I do cross train. I also use the elliptical, stationary bike and the wave. Two days a week I do strength training.
My meals will mainly consist of protien and veggies. The mornings is were I will have buiscuts ( 3 ) for my carbs. For my snacks I usually eat an Apple, protien bar or protien shake.

Do leave room for failure

I expect to have difficult days, I may hurt myself while exercising but I will allow it to heal then get right back up and go again... I expect to have days where I will find it hard to choose the healthiest meal but on those day I will limit the amount that I eat and get right back as soon as I can with the healthy meals.

Do track your progress

Everyday I exercise I keep track of everything, my HR, calories burned, total time exercise. I write down my feelings, thoughts about what is going on and how I am doing. How I did with my runs and work to make them stronger and faster.

Do reward your success

I will reward myself when I succeed, my rewards will be in the form of something that I can use to keep me going such as new music or new tools that will help me stay motivated.

Do find a support system

I have a great friend that I keep in daily contact with in some way or other wether it be by blog or chat room. She really helps to keep me going!

Do make a commitment

I am making a commitment to myself! I am working on a new me! I may not ever be or have the perfect measurments or be that top model but I will be happy and try to enjoy everyday of my life.

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Member Since: 2/22/2007

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199 **achieved 4/10/2014
189 **achieved 05/22/2014

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My name is Susan, I am an American living in Italy now, been here for 8 years.

I am married to a wounderful man and have two beautiful children ages 7 and 5.

I dont work but have started giving some english lessons at home.

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I have been a member of SparkPeople for a few years. I had great success then my attention was taken else where, where I lost track of me.

My main motivation for getting healthy is my children. I need to take care of my self so that I will have the energy that these kids need. If I am not happy with myself then the depression sets in and I am not able to be the mother that my kids need.

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3/6/2012 1:32:04 PM

You still with me girl!! Hope this week is going better than last week!! Keep on truckin!!

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3/2/2012 6:28:07 PM

Hi Susan-this 'side of the world' is hanging in there-I've had my 'ups & downs' with consistency, but on an 'up' side right now...
So, what kind of work are you looking for? Sounds daughter actually does better when she has to schedule things in-I do, too, I guess

cold here again-tornadoes have wreaked havoc on the midwest again, but other than hail, we've been OK in STL

Glad you're fitting in the gym time-keep me posted!!! emoticon

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2/11/2012 10:07:01 AM

Susan, distract yourself & lose the 'fat girl'...see the inner you and keep positive...

I'm off to the gym for cardio burst workout-then grading papers/housework-ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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2/9/2012 8:42:10 PM

Thanks so much for stopping by my blogs!

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1/28/2012 9:52:44 AM

Hey girl...wanted to stop by and see how you were doing. How is the C25K program coming along? It's been a rough couple of weeks for me in terms of fitting in fitness. I am hoping to reevaluate my schedule this weekend and try a different routine (maybe exercising in the morning). I hope all is going well with you.


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