My new sundress I got from Old Navy pre-cruise. Super cute!
After 1st day of C25K. I look like I had a chemical peel.
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I'm currently 28 (so wierd seeing that!) years old and am trying to lose weight AGAIN. My entire life, I've fluctuated in weight. When I was in elementary school, I was really thin. I remember praying to God to help me gain weight, but not make me too fat. LOL. God definitely has a sense of humor. In middle school, I gained weight and became somewhat chubby. In my senior year of high school, I lost so much weight on a diet given to my overweight mother that people thought I was anorexic! I ...
I'm currently 28 (so wierd seeing that!) years old and am trying to lose weight AGAIN. My entire life, I've fluctuated in weight. When I was in elementary school, I was really thin. I remember praying to God to help me gain weight, but not make me too fat. LOL. God definitely has a sense of humor. In middle school, I gained weight and became somewhat chubby. In my senior year of high school, I lost so much weight on a diet given to my overweight mother that people thought I was anorexic! I was at my best weight in my freshman year of college. After a huge disappointment in the relationship realm amongst other disappointments, I started losing the motivation and from there have consistently struggled with keeping my weight off. It seems so simple, but for some reason I make it complicated. I know it's definitely more than weight loss that I have to conquer. It's more like the emotional eating and using food as a way to cope with the things I don't know how to handle. Life on life's terms.
I'm ready now to begin a new life. A life being DONE with emotional eating. DONE being the victim. And best yet DONE being the proverbial fat girl (Sorry, still don't feel good calling myself FAT lol!!!) For the next couple of months, I will be updating you on my journey to lose 20 lbs and KEEP IT OFF. I will be blogging about mistakes with food, but also about my progress with food and how I deal with life on life's terms. Period.
I weighed myself on June 6, 2010:
What I Need to Remind Myself Of Everyday:
A person's looks does not define who they are as a person. When a person gains or loses weight, it does not make that person better. Ask a woman who's reached her goal weight and still feels like crap.
WHAT I WANT AND DON'T WANT:
I want to feel good, but not because of how I look. Just because my mind and heart are reconciled with my body and it shows.
I don't want to feel like a tourniquet is tied around my stomach while wearing my work pants.
I want to be able to fit in my jeans without having to buy a bigger size.
I don't want to berate myself for having rolls or for not looking like the Shape cover model because that is just living with the mentality that my looks define who I am.
I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I'm slowly getting there. One day at a time.
| current weight: 170.0
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Member Since: 2/24/2010
Fitness Minutes: 2,262
July Fitness Goals
30 minutes of cardio at least 3 x a week
Track Fitness Minutes at least 3x a week
Finish C25K Week 5
Do the Done Girl Dance for 15 minutes daily
LONG TERM GOAL:
Fit into my size 9 jeans
Size 10 Jeans: Full Body Massage
Size 9 jeans - Facial
Size 7 jeans - Appt with personal shopper/fashion guru (got the idea from PSSN4FITNESS)
Size 5 jeans - Cruise
I try to take at least one long walk a day and also meditate on a daily basis to retain serenity.
I eat whatever I want to.
I stop eating when I'm full.
I eat only when I'm hungry.
I try to excercise for the peace of mind, not to look like a fitness model.
I'm from Miami, Florida. I'm currently in a long term relationship. We just reached 3 years in March! =) He is the love of my life and I am grateful to have him in my life!
I'm also a recovering alcoholic and have been sober for 3 years and 5 months so far (sobriety date: January 22, 2007). I have done this through Alcoholics Anonymous and the 12 steps and of course God who I thank every day that I'm sober. I truly am blessed.
I work full time in an investment management firm where I escape by being on the Internet (so..I guess I'm not perfect!) and on the side I run a party planning business that caters to women. I dream of one day being able to have an occupassion (as someone wrote in her blog) as opposed to an occupation. For now, though, I consider myself lucky for everything I have. I am very very very very blessed!!