I'm currently 28 (so wierd seeing that!) years old and am trying to lose weight AGAIN. My entire life, I've fluctuated in weight. When I was in elementary school, I was really thin. I remember praying to God to help me gain weight, but not make me too fat. LOL. God definitely has a sense of humor. In middle school, I gained weight and became somewhat chubby. In my senior year of high school, I lost so much weight on a diet given to my overweight mother that people thought I was anorexic! I ...

I'm currently 28 (so wierd seeing that!) years old and am trying to lose weight AGAIN. My entire life, I've fluctuated in weight. When I was in elementary school, I was really thin. I remember praying to God to help me gain weight, but not make me too fat. LOL. God definitely has a sense of humor. In middle school, I gained weight and became somewhat chubby. In my senior year of high school, I lost so much weight on a diet given to my overweight mother that people thought I was anorexic! I was at my best weight in my freshman year of college. After a huge disappointment in the relationship realm amongst other disappointments, I started losing the motivation and from there have consistently struggled with keeping my weight off. It seems so simple, but for some reason I make it complicated. I know it's definitely more than weight loss that I have to conquer. It's more like the emotional eating and using food as a way to cope with the things I don't know how to handle. Life on life's terms.
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I'm ready now to begin a new life. A life being DONE with emotional eating. DONE being the victim. And best yet DONE being the proverbial fat girl (Sorry, still don't feel good calling myself FAT lol!!!) For the next couple of months, I will be updating you on my journey to lose 20 lbs and KEEP IT OFF. I will be blogging about mistakes with food, but also about my progress with food and how I deal with life on life's terms. Period.

I weighed myself on June 6, 2010:


What I Need to Remind Myself Of Everyday:

A person's looks does not define who they are as a person. When a person gains or loses weight, it does not make that person better. Ask a woman who's reached her goal weight and still feels like crap.

WHAT I WANT AND DON'T WANT:

I want to feel good, but not because of how I look. Just because my mind and heart are reconciled with my body and it shows.
I don't want to feel like a tourniquet is tied around my stomach while wearing my work pants.
I want to be able to fit in my jeans without having to buy a bigger size.
I don't want to berate myself for having rolls or for not looking like the Shape cover model because that is just living with the mentality that my looks define who I am.
I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I'm slowly getting there. One day at a time.

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