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Don't EVER Let ANYONE Tell You Who You Can Be

At my highest weight, I was 330 pounds. This process has consisted of a lot of trial and error. I have been as low of a weight as 238, and back up as high as 278 (currently picking myself back up from that regain). I have been overweight since I was about 14 years old. I knew I was getting bigger. At the same time I felt it didn't matter because I was able to hide it with my height of 5'10". I knew that being even over 200 pounds is unhealthy for my height. Still, I just ignored it because I ...
At my highest weight, I was 330 pounds. This process has consisted of a lot of trial and error. I have been as low of a weight as 238, and back up as high as 278 (currently picking myself back up from that regain). I have been overweight since I was about 14 years old. I knew I was getting bigger. At the same time I felt it didn't matter because I was able to hide it with my height of 5'10". I knew that being even over 200 pounds is unhealthy for my height. Still, I just ignored it because I still didn't feel like I 'looked that bad'. I learned that this isn't about hating yourself until you are at a healthy weight. It's about loving yourself enough to even begin the process. It's about overcoming (in my case) addiction to processed foods. It's about feeling my feelings rather than eating them.

I am currently a Senior at Western Oregon University. I am sociology major and I am actually writing a senior thesis about the sociology-economic components of obesity and big agribusiness. I am also in the process of applying to law school. I am hoping to get in in the fall of 2014.


Here's my 'beginning story' if you're interested in reading it.

It was Valentine's day 2009. I was out to dinner with my now fiancee. The hostess sat us at a table that had arm rests at their sides. As I went to sit, I realized with horror that my butt wouldn't comfortably fit within the confines of the chair. I was mortified. I was almost crying. My fiancee asked me if I wanted to leave, but I told him it was fine. The place was really crowded and it would have been more embarrassing if we had just left. I sat there ignoring my wake up call as I ordered salmon Alfredo (with my sweet wonderful fiancee not saying a word).

I will never forget that night. I later sat down and really thought about my situation. I was 22 years old and my size 26 stretchy jeans from Lane Bryant (and we all know that those sizes run bigger than other stores like what you'd find at Target or Wal-Mart) were starting to feel tighter and were leaving a button imprint on my upper stomach. I was 330 pounds, and the way things were headed, I was continuing to continuing to 'grow'. I couldn't afford to buy solely from torrid or lane bryant.

Aside from cute clothes and physical appearance, I was realizing that even walking short distances, I was winded. We lived in a second story apartment at that time and I was winded going up them every time. It was particularly difficult when there were groceries to bring up. Life just seemed overall difficult.

On top of that, I felt 'old'. The fact that I couldn't move around as well just made me feel so old. I shouldn't have trouble putting shoes on (I would get winded tying my shoes) at 22.

I started actually trying April 2009. I started really slow. there was a gym at the complex, so I would use a stationary bike for just 30 minutes 5-6 days a week. I was in pain. Over the course of a couple months, I had lost about 30 pounds. Then then I'd gain the weight back. It went that way for about a year and a half before I finally got really serious with my efforts. I had to take care of another aspect. The relationship I had with food.
I started seeing a counselor in December 2010, and that's when the weight really started coming off.

I kind of used the majority of 2012 to just enjoy the fact that I had lost so much weight-FINALLY, and kept it off. I also wanted to make sure I even had the ability to maintain a weight loss for a period of time, and now that I've proven to myself I am capable (and now that I'm in control of my living situation again) I can definitely get the rest of this weight off.





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Member Since: 1/27/2008

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My Goals:
Weight loss related goals:

*To reach my goal weight steadily through 2013 and 2014.

*To maintain the weight loss for the rest of my life

Fitness goals:

*To try snowboarding sometime! (Accomplished in April 2013)

*To be able to jog 10 miles non-stop by the end of 2013
(Achieved in October, 2013!!)

*To run a marathon sometime in my 30's

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I have never had any problems with exercising. In fact, even at my highest weight, I was been able to walk long distances without much discomfort. In fact, I enjoy exercising.

That is the one thing that i have been consistent with throughout this whole process.

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I grew up in Keizer Oregon. I graduated from McNary High School in 2004. I graduated from Chemeketa Community College in the fall of 2011, and am currently attending Western Oregon University with a major in Sociology and a minor in Spanish.

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SHAKENMA
12/11/2013 11:28:08 AM

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Frees us of all the weight and pain of life:
That word is love.

SOPHOCLES, Oedipus at Colonus

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I see you are a Virgo, so as a Virgo, you tend to be very self-critical. Learn to answer back to those critical thoughts that come into your head. Virgo makes a wonderful health professional (Dr. Phil is one) as Virgo loves to show others how to live right. Virgo can have a problem with weight, since Virgo hides her emotions and she can turn to food. She makes a great teacher. Since Virgo hates to be criticized, she needs to be organized and not "caught with her pants down". She needs to plan daily and stay with her plan. Virgo gets along well with Capricorn, Pisces, Taurus, sometimes Scorpio, and Cancer. Virgo should make time for "alone" time. The Virgo child is born to a mother who isn't happy with the money the father makes. She becomes critical of the child and worried about the child being "dirty." This makes the child very self-conscious. The father is a nice man, but rather passive. the Virgo child is shy because of this and can find comfort in food.



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