New House! OUR HOUSE in NEW ORLEANS!
8-7-08 with the new puppy Bordeaux!
Kylee and Keke in their School Uniforms
Shared Fitness Tracker
OK- right now, I'm back at my prebaby weight, 155 lbs, after loosing like 100 lbs!
I have put on about 30 lbs of pure fat, and have been on a 6 month long binging streak.
I feel horrible, mentally and physically, and the other areas of my life are suffering.
I am recommitting myself to healthy eating, regular exercise, and logging into spark! I will end this binge and return to my happier days of clean eating and exercising!
I hate what my body looks like right now, and I know I have the strength and determination to change it.
I just need a little help with the patience!
UPDATE MARCH 11, 2009
I'm back-I hope for good this time.
After weeks of non stop binging, and failing at the master cleanse, last night I pulled up my shirt in the mirror and was horrified at what I saw. My stomach was bloated out and I look about months pregnant. It was a realization of the effect of months of binging and its outcome.
I stepped on the scale to see 147! I haven't been 147 in my entire life-3 years ago, in fact my prebaby weight was 156.
After loosing 105 lbs of baby weight plus last year I was feeling my best. In control and not binging. Exercising and eating right. But I've hit rock bottom and I proceeded to cry the entire night.
Last night I confided in my mother in law and sister in law my binging, and after the scale episode, I texted Keith that I need help, that I was back into my old ways and I hate it.
He is so supportive of me and told me to throw away all the junk in the house, I told him I felt bad doing it, becuase I felt that I was taking that away from him and keke by tossing out the sweets, and he told me-he could care less and that Keke loves strawberries and goldfish so I was taking nothing away from them by tossing out the trash and not even buying it in the first place.
So I'm starting over, with a goal of 125 I will wear my summer clothes from last year.
I've hit rock bottom and spark is my intervention.
I have to start logging all my food intake and exercises so I can see what I am doing. I need to seek support, I am going to try to find an OA meeting in this area as I need to root out my reasons for binging and overeating.
I've done this once, I've lost an unbelievable amount of weight so 20 lbs shouldn't be a problem. I can do it if i focus myself on this. its 20lbs of fat....pure fat.
I must get rid of it, for my mental health.
UPDATE JANUARY 3, 2009
Here we go again!
Since moving to NOLA in May I have gained about 20 lbs of pure fat. I can still see the definition of the muscle I created, however, the lack of cardio and the fact that I'm working from home, have done nothing for me to maintain my 115 lbs that I was before we moved.
So, new year, restart....and because we are in NOLA, I've GOT TO GET BACK INTO MY SHORTS AND BIKINI!
I will wear a bikini again this year, and that shall be my goal, again. I'd also like to put on my clothes from last summer, and actually fit in them!
Keith is talking about marriage in late April....So I'm giving myself till April 15 to get back into the shape that I loved!
UPDATE OCTOBER 10, 2008
Ok, I'm back sparking, recording all my food intake and exercise. To be perfectly honest, after our move to New Orleans in May, I totally lost my spark, I binged, didn't exercises and because of that gained a good 20lbs in about 4 months!
So after digging out my skinny winter clothes to see if they'd still fit this winter, and not being able to get half the stuff up over my butt, I realized "what are you doing to yourself, Meghan?" I had destroyed all my hard work!
So here I am back on Spark. Today is my 4th day, binge free and I've got a week of good exercising under my belt and I'm already seeing my body tone back up and the fat disappearing. I can get my Juniors size 3 up over my hips and buttoned, so next in line is my size 25 Seven Jeans that I love to death, that I need in my life!
I started my Master's degree online and I've also starting attending mass again. I want my son to know God and I want to be a part of a community.
I bought myself a beautiful Chloe mini paddington bag as a reward for doing this again, and I'm recommiting myself to 120lbs by Keke's 2nd birthday, November 21!
My son is doing AMAZING! For all of you that want to know, he is not even 2, counting to 15, with some help, abc'ing and talking his butt off! He is also a defiant little bad ass, and thinks he is older than he actually is! I think thats the only child thing, and I'm on Keith for another baby, BUT AFTER I EXPERIENCE MY FIRST MARDI GRAS! Oh, and his school moved him from the 1 and 2 year old room to the 2 and 3year old room-- he is already starting to use the potty at school with the other kids!
I am so proud of him, so proud of Keith, that he was able to come back to his home and not go backwards, and I'm proud of myself. For being a full time worker, full time house wife, full time mother, part time grad student, I'm an aunt, sister in law, daughter in law and I totally love my life. God has blessed me with so much to be thankful for.
So for all of you that remember me, I'm back for motivation and support FROM you all, and FOR you all!
Looking to loose my last little bit by the end of this year.
I started Sparking in May of this year trying to loose my baby weight-ran into a bad experience and quit. But I find that I am not working out and not eating as good as I once was and I am missing Spark in general.
GUESS ITS TIME FOR AN UPDATE:
Ok so I lost all my baby weight, plus 25 lbs. I am now the thinnest I've ever been in my adult life. Spark is great, and i'm trying to get to 115 of pure muscle. I do cardio, weight lifting and/or abs everyday. My next goal is 12% body fat and to wear a bikini this summer for the first time in my life!
As of today I am currently 18 days binge free and it feels great!
Ok another UPDATE:
I am currently down to 114 lbs and 13% body fat. I have succeeded my 2nd goal weight and have 1 more % of body fat to get to 12%...which is what i am currently striving for.
I bought 2 BIKINI'S the other day....Tried them on, and do have to admit, I look pretty damn good in them. If only I hadn't lost my boobs, but oh well, boobs dont make the woman right?
I did about 15 days of a NO BINGE streak before falling victim to a binge this weekend. But a fresh start, and i'm on DAY 2 NO BINGE.
I'm still focusing on cardio and abs and upper body weight lifting. This is what has proven to be the most successful. Still a tad unsure of the excess hanging, saggy skin around my lower tummy. I am trying Clarins Super Restorative Firming Creme for Abdomen and Waist. Seems to be doing the trick-i've been using it about 5 weeks now.
I am just getting back to myself after feeling horrible, both mentally and physically after the binge this weekend. My longest no binge streak was 22 days....I want to beat that SO BAD.
Here it goes again!
18 DAYS BINGE FREE! I am at 12% body fat and currently I'm a size 0 in most every store I go in to get clothes!
I am at 109lbs, and I have changed my weight loss ticker to reflect my total loss since having Keke in Nov. 06! 111lbs lost! WHOO HOO! i feel beautiful and comfortable more and more with my body and eating everyday, and I am making positive steps toward BED recovery!
We are in the process of relocating to New Orleans! I am staying on with my current employer and will be working remotely full time from the comfort of my home in New Orleans! Life is so GOLD for me right now.
I want to continue making the best choices for myself and my family, I feel that everyday, just gets better and better. i know my dad is watching me, but I'd just LOVE MORE THAN ANYTHING to see his face and his reaction on my looks, my son, and my career. I hope I am making him more and more proud everyday that he raised a beautiful, smart, nuturing woman!
I love you Daddy, RIP 11-15-06.
-Not to binge! -ALWAYS WORKING ON THIS ONE!
-Wake up and ride the bike in the AM. -GETTING BACK INTO THIS ONE
-Eat more fruits and veggies. -CHECK!
-Wear a bikini for the first time for Summer '08!- ACCOMPLISHED! AND I LOOKED GREAT!
-New Goals 12/28/09-
-GET BACK INTO MY SKINNY JEANS!
-GET BACK INTO WORKOUT ROUTINE!
-WEAR A BIKINI IN 2009!
-GOAL WEIGHT 125!
I do cardio (biking, jogging) at least 20 minutes a day, plus upper body weight lifting and an ab workout everyday.
I was always the chubby girl, even tho I was super active and played sports up until college. When I enter college, my first year I gained 20 lbs bringing me to 200lbs! I decided to start working out and lost about 50 lbs in a year. When I graduated and the couple years after I maintained 150lbs. Then I got pregnant in Feburary 06, I was 156 at my first weigh in at the baby doctor. When I gave birth in November I was 220lbs! (Hey I was on the "I'm pregnant I can eat what I want diet"!) Anyway, in May 07 I was still hanging around 180 despite nursing. I found spark and exercise again and have lost over 40lbs! I am smaller now than before i had my son-and I'm loving it!
| current weight: 144.0