The last eighteen months have been long and grueling, filled with meds that caused weight gain as well as a serious lack of motivation. It's time for all of that to change. I'm starting my life over, and this time I am going to STICK WITH IT.
Throughout most of my childhood, I was overweight. I got tormented on a daily basis at school, and suffered from extremely low self-esteem, and insecurity. I envied every pretty, skinny girl and felt completely unworthy. I felt ashamed to call myself a girl. When I turned 12, I was 5'5 and up to 160 pounds. I knew if I wanted to enjoy my life, I had to lose weight. I was dedicated to working out on a daily basis, and dropped about 50 pounds by the time I was 14.
My teenage years were dedicated to working out, and looking good. I had suddenly become this "hot" girl and go so much attention from guys, and I loved it. My lowest weight was 118, and the majority of my adolescence, I weighed between 120-130.
For three years of college, I maintained my weight of 125. My senior year, however, I somehow packed on about 15-20 pounds. I was taking Zoloft for two years, and I knew weight gain was a side effect. I can't put the blame entirely on the meds, though -- I lived with my best friends who LOVE to eat more than anything else in the world, and although I was able to stay committed to eating healthy for three years, I finally gave in and was constantly eating garbage. Before I knew it, my clothes started getting tighter and tighter, and here I am with fifty disgusting, unwanted pounds gained.
Enough is enough. I miss being the confident person I once was. I am tired of living in sweatpants. I am tired of being ashamed of how I look. I am tired of avoiding photographs. I am ready to embark on a life-changing journey of healthy eating and exercise. I don't ever want to have to feel this disgusting, insecure and uncomfortable ever again.
I am ready to become ME again!
- lose a total of 50 pounds
*10 lbs by 4/15
*20 lbs by 5/15
*30 lbs by 6/15
*40 lbs by 7/15
*50 lbs by 8/15
-at least 20 mins of cardio 5x a week
-at least 20 mins of yoga 4x a week
-track food everyday while staying on track
- GET MY CONFIDENCE BACK!
*10 pounds lost -- Sally Hansen nail stickies & Katy Perry/OPI black crackle polish
*20 pounds lost - New pocketbook (Betsey?)
*30 pounds lost - Nike dunks
*40 pounds lost - Yoga class membership
*50 pounds lost - NEW WARDROBE!
| current weight: 167.0