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I am happily married of going on 15 years this August. We have two beautiful happy and healthy children (boy, age 10 & girl, age 9). We moved back home (California) 3 1/2 years ago; from being stuck in Vegas for 9 years. Being SO miserable there, each year getting harder and harder, I packed on 88 pounds total (the last 3 1/2 years there were the worst and I gained 58 of the 88 in those 3 1/2 years). When we moved back to our home state (December, 3 1/2 years ago), I was happy to report that, by not even really trying much, I'd lost 13 pounds almost immediately. I believe, not only was I walking more and controlling portion sizes ... I was also a lot happier being back home. Closer to Family and Friends. I believe emotional state has a lot to do with weight control as well. It showed. Anyhow. Slowly, family and friends got strange towards me when I'd share how excited I was to be back home near all of them. How I was also happy to get back to my old self ..... and how I was trying to eat better and get in shape for my health and all. Then, when asked, I shared how much weight I had lost already at that point. No one seemed to care for me or my achievement. No one cheered me on, no on congratulated me. They'd pretend they were concerned & ask how it was going but then laugh in my face if I had a bad week or if I gained some back. They'd tell me to quit trying because I'll never lose weight. They'd shove food in my face trying to get me to go off my plan. Heck, they'd talk to each other about working out together & being each others accountability partners, right in front of me, but no one even offered to workout with me or let me join in on their support group. Nothing. These are supposed to be my family, people who care about me & my health. I still don't know why they are so mean to only me. I don't get it. Ever since we were kids. Don't know why I always think one day they'll be nice. Anyway. Having that "no support" or "no love for me" shoved in my face frequently, I slowly got discouraged ... wondering why they would want me to fail and be so unhealthy. I got down when they would only be happy when I'd fail at trying to reach my weight loss goals. Eventually, the 13 lbs I had lost when I first moved back came back. Not only that, but ... I had gained 17 more (I believe that's a total, now, of 100 lbs overweight on this small 5'2" body 😧). I was/am so disappointed in myself. So, it's still tough with that negativity constantly in my face. The past year so far, I haven't really talked to anyone of them. Now, I'm down because it's lonely, & so hard with no support. But, I want to ... no ... NEED to succeed at my goals for me and my health. I've been getting serious over the last week about getting in shape. Especially since I have a beautiful dress I want to fit back into for my 15 year wedding anniversary coming up soon. We want to renew our vows. I want to look and feel good again, especially on that day, in that dress. I am ready to get more serious & hopefully get real close to my goals by my wedding anniversary. Also, I want to feel comfortable in my own skin once again. I also want to prove that even through all the crap I've been put through by people who are supposed to love me, that they are wrong. I can do this, with or without their support. I need to, for myself & my health. I'd actually like supportive people in my life (physically here with me), for a change. But, I'll take virtual support too. Any encouragements, workout buddies, support, tips, etc. is very much appreciated. I'm in the Lake Elsinore/Perris, CA area if you'd like a workout/support buddy too. Thank you! Blessings! Lily

Member Since: 7/7/2013

Fitness Minutes: 7,385

My Goals:
- Track each day
- Drink all my water
- Portion control
- Healthier food choices
- Cardio/ST Daily

My Program:
I plan to lift weights, walk/jog, and do my dance/sports games and dance dvds. I like to mix it up so I don't get bored.

On eating:
I plan to eat (HEALTHY) small portions every few hours in hopes to speed up my metabolism (Dr. orders).
I will also drink lots of water and some tea [Green tea (not so much coffee anymore)].

Personal Information:
I was born and raised in California. I never struggled with weight issues, UNTIL ..... my husbands job moved us to vegas 9 years ago, that's when I couldn't understand how and why I gained so much (the past 3 1/2 years being the worst) so fast. I will never blame it on my kids either. I had healthy pregnancies both times and gained and lost the amount I should have in a healthy time frame. Never a problem there.
It wasn't until my daughter was 3 - 3 1/2 that I packed A LOT of it on. So, I know it's not due to my kids. I believe I was healthier than ever with both pregnancies. ha ha ha

This past mid December is when my husbands job moved us back to California. I've already noticed a change in my emotional state, for the better, as well as my weight. That's very motivating.

So, now I want to get serious about it and finally reach my goal, for good, of getting back to my healthy weight and my happy funny self.

Other Information:
I live in southern California and would like a workout buddy/group.

Though I have hated running since 5th grade, I would like to FINALLY say I ran a 5k (been planning to do that for like 8 years, now. It's time I should finally attack/reach that goal). So, training with someone would be great.

I don't have a gym membership and don't really plan to get one. I like my "home/neighborhood gym." :)

TOOLS: I have a weight bench set, workout DVD's/Games, dance/sports games, stability ball, ankle weights, and a resistant band ..... well, and of course my neighborhood park. LOL

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  • v TRENDA155
    I appreciate that you are able to share from the heart. This journey will have disappointments, but staying on track will help you build confidence in the right way. May you find blessings and peace today.
    69 days ago
    Lily.. If you need someone to talk to or to vent to I am always available. I was married for 10 years with him for 15. Two children, they are 14 and 11 (girl&boy). I was devastated when divorce came up. I can give some ideas of coping. Let me know.
    69 days ago
    As well so feel free to add me back if you would like.
    77 days ago
    I too have no support from family and I have no friends. The people I live with constantly try to sabotage me and don't care if I succeed or fail. Anyways I live in Arcadia, CA and am miserable in the situation I'm in. I could use some support
    77 days ago
    Try to find someone to talk to; don't be isolated. Life goes on regardless of outcome. You can't force things to happen. In God's hand. You are a beautiful person. Life is waiting for you. Break out from depression. If he wants out, let it be.
    78 days ago
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