Me at the start of my journey...
Me now-- July 2009
Goal-- June 2010
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Hi! My name is Shannon... I live in Fort Worth, Texas and am miserable with myself!! I am 230 lbs (give or take-- don't even know for sure anymore as I don't have a scale in the house!!) and am only a 31 yr old mother of two. DO NOT read past this point if you are easily bummed. I am not yet able to motivate others. Right now I'm just trying to pick myself up off the proverbial ground.
I'm too young to be in the sitch that I'm in-- I think I'm in a huge depression (I've yo-yo'ed with seasonal affective disorder since my teen years, am on NO medication for it, and am tired of never having taken control of my life.). And now being obese has just worsened my self-esteem. I don't even like for people I know to see me-- I hate to go out of my house... or do ANYTHING, for that matter. Very sad, considering I used to be a sun-worshipper, I love being active (but am never motivated anymore), playing games/sports (HATE marathons, though), and being social in general. I have an extraordinary man who inexplicably loves me and has stuck with me through my depression, anger, and disgusting weight gain. However... he is very visibly being worn down (not by the way I look, but with the way my whole personality has changed for the worse). I now have my wedding date scheduled with a church for June 19th, 2010. I am 5'8, with medium bone structure-- I am content with being a size 8 (ultimately just want to be TONED and IN SHAPE!!), but really want to be a size 6 for my wedding day-- size 8 afterwards is fine-- just don't want any flacid muscle!! I have less than a year to make MIRACLES HAPPEN!!! I want to be in better shape than I was in college, conquer my inner demons (depression and this weird anger-thing that has consumed me since the pregnancy of my 2nd child, now 2.5 yrs old), get a JOB (I've been a stay-at-home mom since 2nd child-- which used to be fine, but now our quality of life has changed drastically AND I have to get OUT and get ACTIVE). Unfortunately, I never completed university and got a degree... not even an associates. I have taken a world of talent and promise, squashed it, and become an underbelly statistic. Yes-- I know that all of this is a real bummer-- but it is my truth. And this seems to be the only place where I feel I can let this all out and scream "HEEEEEELLLLLLPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
On a more positive note, my children are beautiful, funny, genius, and AWESOME, my significant other is a GEM, and I know that God has not given up on having a relationship with me and loves me more than I can even wrap my mind around.... These are my reasons for living-- literally.
I must find a way to successfully create a real life for myself-- must find my beautiful self--inner and outer-- again... She's been missing for a long time. If I don't, the price will be more than mine to pay-- and I can't let that happen.
It TRULY IS now or Never.
I am open to suggestions and encouragement-- no false praise, though, please, as I make my journey. Gotta keep it real to make it real. Thanks!
To be a faithful servant to God, to be a loving, patient, and fun partner and mother, to really love myself, and to be a DROP-DEAD GORGEOUS BRIDE who weighs 130lbs or less by June 2010!!! My lifelong goal simply embodies aforementioned goals- just as a lifestyle!!
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
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| current weight: 220.0
By the way,
You can and do motivate others, your determination has already motivated me.
2562 days ago
I am laughing,
no way I lost that much since June, now that would be scary, it would indicate either I have a terrible disease or that I have a spit personality that smokes a lot of funny stuff. lolol
I joined Sp when I still had at least 30 more pounds to lose,( that is in my profile, but maybe I should redo it and put it closer to the top) and I was at a serious plateau for about 7 months.
I had already lost 60lbs, in about 10 months. Just counting cals, not working out. I have had multiple foot surgeries this year both feet, and was sedentary the wt. lost ahd come to a standstill--oh yuck-I was sorta sedentary before the feet.lol
I have lost 5lbs Since joining SP that I can confirm since my last weigh in and suspect I have lost a total of 10, but I don't weigh until July 31st. I have OSD, my blog tells you what that is. I know I should weigh more, like once a week, but my OSD kicks in and the scale becomes a huge bug I want to squash..
Thanks for the Goodie, and for making me laugh.
2562 days ago
Thank you for the post on my spark page. Your words are inspiring and gave me a smile. Let's keep on keeping on.
2562 days ago
HI Thanks for the add.
I see you are in June 7-13 team, so am I.
so how is it going so far, it's been 6 weels and they went so fast.
Wishing you much success. Keep me posted.
2562 days ago