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ShayBrew Begins a Journey of Accountability and Action!!

Hi! My name is Shannon... I live in Fort Worth, Texas and am miserable with myself!! I am 230 lbs (give or take-- don't even know for sure anymore as I don't have a scale in the house!!) and am only a 31 yr old mother of two. DO NOT read past this point if you are easily bummed. I am not yet able to motivate others. Right now I'm just trying to pick myself up off the proverbial ground.
I'm too young to be in the sitch that I'm in-- I think I'm in a huge depression (I've yo-yo'ed with ...
Hi! My name is Shannon... I live in Fort Worth, Texas and am miserable with myself!! I am 230 lbs (give or take-- don't even know for sure anymore as I don't have a scale in the house!!) and am only a 31 yr old mother of two. DO NOT read past this point if you are easily bummed. I am not yet able to motivate others. Right now I'm just trying to pick myself up off the proverbial ground.
I'm too young to be in the sitch that I'm in-- I think I'm in a huge depression (I've yo-yo'ed with seasonal affective disorder since my teen years, am on NO medication for it, and am tired of never having taken control of my life.). And now being obese has just worsened my self-esteem. I don't even like for people I know to see me-- I hate to go out of my house... or do ANYTHING, for that matter. Very sad, considering I used to be a sun-worshipper, I love being active (but am never motivated anymore), playing games/sports (HATE marathons, though), and being social in general. I have an extraordinary man who inexplicably loves me and has stuck with me through my depression, anger, and disgusting weight gain. However... he is very visibly being worn down (not by the way I look, but with the way my whole personality has changed for the worse). I now have my wedding date scheduled with a church for June 19th, 2010. I am 5'8, with medium bone structure-- I am content with being a size 8 (ultimately just want to be TONED and IN SHAPE!!), but really want to be a size 6 for my wedding day-- size 8 afterwards is fine-- just don't want any flacid muscle!! I have less than a year to make MIRACLES HAPPEN!!! I want to be in better shape than I was in college, conquer my inner demons (depression and this weird anger-thing that has consumed me since the pregnancy of my 2nd child, now 2.5 yrs old), get a JOB (I've been a stay-at-home mom since 2nd child-- which used to be fine, but now our quality of life has changed drastically AND I have to get OUT and get ACTIVE). Unfortunately, I never completed university and got a degree... not even an associates. I have taken a world of talent and promise, squashed it, and become an underbelly statistic. Yes-- I know that all of this is a real bummer-- but it is my truth. And this seems to be the only place where I feel I can let this all out and scream "HEEEEEELLLLLLPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
On a more positive note, my children are beautiful, funny, genius, and AWESOME, my significant other is a GEM, and I know that God has not given up on having a relationship with me and loves me more than I can even wrap my mind around.... These are my reasons for living-- literally.
I must find a way to successfully create a real life for myself-- must find my beautiful self--inner and outer-- again... She's been missing for a long time. If I don't, the price will be more than mine to pay-- and I can't let that happen.
It TRULY IS now or Never.
I am open to suggestions and encouragement-- no false praise, though, please, as I make my journey. Gotta keep it real to make it real. Thanks!
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Member Since: 6/9/2009

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Fitness Minutes: 433

My Goals:
To be a faithful servant to God, to be a loving, patient, and fun partner and mother, to really love myself, and to be a DROP-DEAD GORGEOUS BRIDE who weighs 130lbs or less by June 2010!!! My lifelong goal simply embodies aforementioned goals- just as a lifestyle!!

My Program:
Desiderata:
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr

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KIM-YO
8/26/2009 12:35:18 PM

Hi Shannon. I saw your post on the BLC Week One Challenge thread about how to track your steps. I use a pedometer that tracks all of my steps during the day. I put it on first thing & take it off before I go to bed; when I sit down to log my steps. I think it is what a lot of people use to track. If you don't have one, 10,000 steps, for the average person's stride, is about 5 miles or 2,000 steps per mile. So, if you know how far you are walking, you can figure it that way. Having the pedometer really helps because it calculates all the other steps you are taking in addition to your exercise. You can get them in a price range starting around $5 (Walmart) to much more expensive. Whichever route you choose I hope this helps! Have a great day & good luck with the BLC!

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BEAUTIFLDZSTR
8/14/2009 12:18:29 AM

Welcome to the White Lightning team. I am Marcy the team captain. Hollar if you need anything emoticon



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8/12/2009 10:58:38 PM

Woohoo! Lets go team!
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NEWHOPETX
8/3/2009 1:12:28 AM

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Hello there..Nice to always meet a fellow Texan working on creating a healthier lifestyle and a happiness seen within...Congrats on the 5lb loss..This is like way harder than I ever imagined but well worth it..As far as the smoking I am setting a date for this week along with my stop smoking buddy..I know I can do it this time..

Have an awesome day
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CHERKYLE
7/23/2009 3:01:20 PM

Alright on getting on the scale!! I almost did today but lost my nerve!

I was put on blood pressure med several months ago, but the last few days have been felling bad (dizzy, no energy) I took my blood pressure at home(don't know if it was right ) but it was real low so I quit taking the med 2 days ago, took my blood pressure today at the infirmary and it was perfect! While I was there I was going to weigh, but I didn't see a scale, and I didn't ask!

Good for you though! You are getting stronger every day!!



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