Don and I at the pumpkin patch!
The boys on NYE 2009-2010
Kayla, our doggie on NYE 2009-2010
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My name is Shana. I am a 37 year old stay at home mother to two fabulous boys. Jacob, 7.5 years old and Matthew, 4.5 years old.
They definately keep me busy.
I have been married to Don since 09-22-01 and currently live about 60 miles south of Sacramento.
I was born and raised in Maryland. I moved to CA when I was 19 years old. I went to school and got an AA in pharmacology and works as a pharmacy technician for about 9 years before becoming the domesticated goddess that you see and read about today! (*giggle giggle)
As far as my weight struggles, we all have them. For me, it started when I was 9 years old. I have been battling ever since. I find that I am happiest when I am thinner. I feel as though, my happiness is based on what the scale says. Not good. I lost weight thru Weight Watchers recently. In September of 2007, I started WW (for the 13th time) and by March of 2008, I had lost 42 pounds! I had never felt better in my life. April of 2009, I had gain every pound back except for 1.8 pounds. The good thing is that I didn't surpass the orginal weight. Gotta look at the bright side, ya know?!
I wanted to find my happiness without the scale. I want to be proud of who I am no matter what the scale says. I do want to lose weight, that is a given but at the same time, I want to base my happiness on how healthy I am, how my boys' laughter is all is need to cheer me up, and finally, I want to love myself as much as my husband loves me, which is unconditionally.
I think what drives me is that I want to see my boys grown up. My mother passed away when I was 4 years old (cerebral hemmorrage due to a fall at the age of 34!) and I don't remember her. If I couldn't live on this earth, it scares me to think my boys wouldn't remember me. And what's even more sad, if it is something that I can prevent, such as obesity and all the complications that go along with that. Enough of the sad crap...On to the good crap!
I am here to be inspired, to be inspiring, and to just be here. I want to success and this weight loss. I want to play a game of HIDE-N-SEEK with my fat and have it never find me! I want to grow old with my husband. I don't want to take 25 minutes to get ready in the morning due to the fact I can't find anything that fits me. I don't want to be out of breath just taking my clothes off, ya know?! I don't want my sons' friends to make fun of "their fat mom". Okay, that is my short list of wants! Soon to be updated later......
So, that's me in a nutshell! I hope to "meet" many of you soon!
Well, I am excited and bummed at the same time, if that is possible. I finished the 1/2 marathon on 10/04/09 and I haven't exerices since. I have gain back most of the weight that I lost training to do the marathon. I want to lose this weight for good and keep it off. I am not getting any younger and that what makes me mad the most. I have wasted some of my time gaining the weight back, instead of keeping it off and being healthy for me and my family.
I am come to the conclusion that I am addicted to food the same way a person is addicted to drugs. I will have to keep myself busy, eat every 2-3 hours and not let myself give in to temptation.
So, okay party people! Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Will update on 02-05-10!
11-12-2010: Update....Well, not the update that I wanted to share but nonetheless....I am heavier than I have ever been, 248 pounds but things are about to change for me and I can feel it. Starting tomorrow 11-13, I am joining WW. I am also starting to go to counseling to find out why I am who I am then see what the real reason is that I am 248 pounds. I want to start to learn to love me for me.
I am back to Spark People after an almost 3 years absence. I feel determined and feeling good. I want to lose 110 pounds by
12-31-2013! I can do this!
My goals are simple...I want to be able to play with my grandchildrens' children!
Fall down 7 times.....
Stand up 8 times~
| current weight: 243.0