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The Reinvention of me.....
I have been doing alot of soul searching, for the most part I am happy. I have a wonderful husband and children whome I adore. My family is truly my world. I have a great career and I actually really like the people I work with...love the company too...
So why am I still unhappy? People tell me I am pretty or I have a nice smile all the time....but I am still unhappy. I am not the me I want to be. I don't ever like to look in a full length mirror, hate to go shopping for ...
I have been doing alot of soul searching, for the most part I am happy. I have a wonderful husband and children whome I adore. My family is truly my world. I have a great career and I actually really like the people I work with...love the company too...
So why am I still unhappy? People tell me I am pretty or I have a nice smile all the time....but I am still unhappy. I am not the me I want to be. I don't ever like to look in a full length mirror, hate to go shopping for myself....I live on an island and hate the thought of a bathing suite....
I want to enjoy my life I want to free myself of the burdens, negative thoughts and worries....the wonders of what other people think of me...especially after my hubby lost 88 lbs....and is looking great. It's amazing what carrying extra weight cando to ones self esteem....I recently hit my rock bottom when a friend ( or someone I thought was a friend) said to hubby after having dinner "You look great I mean WOW!" and in the same breath turn to me and say "You really need to catch up to him honey")
She probably did not realise how hurtful that was.....I cried that night and turned to food as my comfort and gave up......BUT today I realised I did this to me...I became sedatary for one reason or another, I skipped breakfast, and at times lunch and dinner, I resorted to fast foods.....and just like I did all those things. I can UNDO them and I will.....
So....this is the reinvention of me....
In addition to losing some unwanted weight, there are some other goals of equal importance. Like I have never been able to run or jog I now want to run a 5k.....and one day I want to run the Disney half Marathon - its MY favorite place on earth and what better way to celebrate my truimph....
I have never had a stong core (abs) I now want to strength train and make my body stronger......
I want to break the cycle of diabetes, high cholestorol, and high blood pressure which have long running and deep roots on both sides of my family tree....
I want to be free....I want to be me....The NEW ME....
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Member Since: 7/23/2009
SparkPoints: 634
Fitness Minutes: 396
My Goals:
I want to get to a healthy weight and BMI.
My short term goal is to lose 50 lbs by Christmas.
Run a 5K before christmas
Long term goal to lose a total of 65 lbs....when my body says its time...
Build strong lean muscles and 4 pack abs by my birthday 2011
Increase my energy levels
BE Happy and not Depressed
Regain my confidance and self love
Instill healthy eating habits in my families daily routine
Inspire myself and others to meet there goals
My Program:
Drink Water....Lots of water.
Cut out coffee - replace with tea
Eat breakfast
Stay away from JUNK FOOD!!! ( my biggest battle)
Learn how to make healthy meals...
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I can guarantee you that this journey won't be easy, but with a lot of hard-work and dedication it could lead you on the road to success in no time. 
Don't be a stranger.......K.I.T. 
