at my brothers wedding, I am farthest on left
My sister and I at my wedding <3
Everytime I workout, I ask myself, Why am I punishing myself? The workout is so intense and the pain in my body feels like torture. But that's not the punishment I'm talking about. I'm talking about when I stuff a cookie (or three) in my mouth, when I eat 3 donuts at work, when I scarf down brownies or some other delicious square. Why am I punishing myself eating all these unhealthy foods when I know in the end, they make me feel worse?
I remember being called many names growing up; tub-o-lard, wide load, fat ass, queen of tubby tubby land, I could go on.. I remember so many comments and hurtful things said to me that made me go home and cry until I couldn't cry anymore. Nobody should ever have to cry that much. I remember getting looks when I walk into a "skinny" clothing store from the sales rep, as if to say, " What are you doing here?? You know you will never fit into our largest size...cow."
I am so done. Done being called names, done crying at night over all the hurtful things said to me, done getting looks from the snobby witches, done telling myself "this time is different", because this is the time. This is my time.
I'm ready to shine. I'm ready to lose weight and feel confident about myself for the first time in my life! I will not punish myself by eating unhealthy. I am never going to stop trying. I'm ready to start living life to its fullest. I'm ready to be who I was meant to be.
250- Feb. 2012
199- ( I cant remember the last time i was out of 200's)
I am eating healthy and working out! lol. Well, i eat as many fruits and veggies as i can, along with alot of low fat protein and i try to eat as little carbs as possible. I workout with a friend on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays right now, and i try to do extra cardio 2 times weekly by myself.
Well, I am 21 years old, from a small town in Alberta, Canada. I have a great family who all love me very much, an amazing husband who supports me in every way, and we are hoping to have a child soon.
I am currently weighing in at 250 pounds (YIKES!) and I am going to reach 170 pounds. At my heaviest I was 265 pounds. I want to get fit and healthy before I start a family :)
| current weight: 243.2
How have you been doing?
I haven't heard from you in a while. I hope you're doing well!
1380 days ago
Hi. I just added you as Spark friend. My starting weight was higher than yours (288). I wish you all the best on this path. It's a tough one, but worth every ounce you put into it.
1648 days ago
No, you are not alone 100 days left hope today went well for you.
1692 days ago
Definitely no quitting.
It's inspiring to see that you're going to keep going even with the stress you're under
1706 days ago
Hey there, Just wanted to see how you're doing.
1709 days ago