I am a 30something pill pusher and I have reached that point, I think, where it is time to stop whatever it is I am doing wrong with this life and fix it. I realize that my husband believes I am beautiful just as I am, however, I don't believe that. And, as important as it is to know that he believes it, I think it is also very important for me to believe it as well, if I am ever going to feel confident or good about myself.
I have been trying to figure out just what I am DONE with and I am so DONE with the following:
I am DONE with:
*Never feeling good about myself
*Always been tired
*Wearing loose clothing because I want to hide
*Looking in the mirror and only seeing ugly looking back
*Putting everyone before me
*Worrying about what everyone thinks about me all the time
*Not taking care of myself
*Not being able to do things because of my weight
***I started this journey back in March of 09. At that time, I lost about 35 - 40 lbs. I don't know what happened, but somehow I lost my balance on that horse and fell out of the saddle. I've maintained about an overall loss of 20 lbs or so, but I want to lose more. I have a goal of 60 lbs by November. That's about 40 or so weeks from now. That's only 1.5 lbs per week. Surely, that's possible, right?
My ultimate goal is to lose 120 - 150 lbs. My first goal, however, is to get back to the weight I was when I got married. I lost 30 - 40 lbs that year when I realized I couldn't fit into my dress (OH NO!), but since then I have gained that PLUS another 40 lbs or so.
Since I started this yesterday, I have been thinking about what I want to do. I want to increase my water, but I don't want to lose out on the other drinks that I like. Funnily enough, since my decision to do this yesterday, coke is tasting too sweet. Dunno what that is all about, but I am going to use it to my advantage. :)
I am ultimately from Arkansas, born there and lived there very briefly, but for the last 29 or so years, I have been here in Texas, the most beautiful place on earth. I am married to a gorgeous Viking from Norway and wonder every day what it is he sees when he looks at me.
I love history and I love to read. I also love things that most people would consider morbid. Cemetaries hold a particular interest for me. There is so much history there.
I love Harry Potter, Twilight, Buffy, Charmed, Bones, Criminal Minds, my family (should have put that earlier, huh? lol), and many, many other things.
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