Martin & I at our sweetheart table
Before I started my Spark Journey, probably over 300 pounds. (6/10)
Time to break the cycle!
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Ever heard that quote by Einstein about insanity - "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." I think it's time to break the cycle, don't you?
I've tried the shaming and guilt ridden beating my self up approach over and over... I've "played" at being kind, but my internal voice was still telling me that I wasn't worth it and wouldn't succeed. I'm in this for the long haul, and for the first time EVER I seriously am not focused AT ALL on my weight. I'm not weighing myself right now at all - am I curious? Yeah, sorta! But really, every time I see an unexpected number I spiral. I have to get my mind right before I step on a scale again (even know the last number I saw is flashing in my head over and over)!
For the first time, this seriously feels different. It's not the excitement of starting something over, it's not the self-cheerleading that I do so well for a really short period of time... it's just different. I feel calmer and less focused on the physical. I feel stronger and confident that what I am choosing to do is correct for my body and making me healthier. I am finally trying to connect and listen with my intuition. Truthfully? I'm becoming a person that I might have gently mocked in the past or been annoyed with. A person who just seems...well... hippy dippy? Haha - but I'm still me. I still bubble with energy, I'm just finding the center too. I'm not forcing balance for the first time ever, but I think I'm finally discovering it! What. A. Blessing!
Be present in the moment.
Listen to my intuition and body more.
Celebrate that I am happy, healthy, wealthy, and loved!
Focus on giving.
Enjoy the journey!
Currently I am enjoying adding resistance gloves and ankle weights into my AquaZumba workouts, Dancing in all formats, PiYo when the mood strikes, and Shrink Sessions with a burning passion! Incorporating mantras in with my movement is changing my mind, self-acceptance, and self-belief in beautiful ways! I am strong now and I have all that I need for success!
I believe in myself and know I will reach my goals, but it is not a race!
I'm Linnea, and I plan on finding some balance this year!
My husband and I (married 11/26/11) live in the UP of Michigan (Hubbell) in a sweet house (bought on 5/26/11), with two sweet (and sometimes evil) cats.
These days the hubs is finishing up his PhD at Michigan Tech, while I am enjoying my position in RADS (Technical Services) at the MTU library. Once he finishes up, we plan on finding a post-doc in Europe (preferably Germany), so that M can spend a few more years in his homeland, and I can practice my every increasing German language skills while working on my MLIS!
We know that there is something preventing us from having children (biologically) and are committed to living out life in love rather than fear/perpetual disappointment. I'm using this time before children to really work on me, and I feel certain that we will welcome children in to our homes when the time is right!
I'm a genuine bibliophile! I love to read, but when I am stressed out, I become a TV freak.
We try to live our lives locally sourced the majority of the time, and enjoy cooking and trying new recipes together.
In 2013 I discovered I have a sensitivity to gluten, and always welcome new recipes!
| Pounds lost: 34.0