Summit of Big Deer Mtn Groton, Vermont Fall 2008


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Fostering Mindfulness: A Journal


I did it ! I went to the big, unfamiliar mall and walked, walked, walked. I walked so fast I could feel my body wanting to cross over into a run...and I am NOT a runner!
Here's the proud list for today, and remember...I usually worry BIG time about what people are thinking of me:

1.) Did a warm-up and a cool-down loop...and I feel really visable when I go slow.
2.) I kept my head up the entire time and made some eye contact. (Discovered that some people had seen me doing laps and were!)
3.) Did 5 miles in 1 hour, 16 minutes
4.) Pace got so quick that I could feel my body wanting to break into a run (and I am NOT a runner!)
5.) Got really brave and did a running sprint in one of the less traveled exit hallways. Did it two other times! And yes, normally I would have worried about the cameras even seeing me.
6.) Wore the heart rate monitor and burned 786 calories!
7.) Went for broke and even the mall!
8.) Asked customer service the mileage (hard for me to even ask) and walked the food court (harder to be seen near food...what will people say?!) as it was part of the measured loop.

HUGE Snoopy Happy Dance... Join me!
Like I said, it's great when my inner-voice can be quiet and helps me to do things I normally aren't brave enough to do.


I'm a few pounds shy of a 40 pound loss since weighing 290 on January 1st of 2008. I'm still trying to get my head around the fact that I'll will be over 1/3 of the way toward my (flexible) goal weight of 180... all while feeling so excited and amazed at the new opportunities I'm experiencing with the lifestyle changes I continue to make. I've become less frustrated and more hopeful as I've learned more about how my body loses weight. A lot of that came from daily weigh-ins, charting and graphing.


Part of becoming healthier is learning how to establish boundaries and letting go of things you aren't meant to own. I was able to identify something I need to let go of today.


Packed my MP3 just in case my walking buddies didn't show, and actually looked forward to the chance to push myself physically (walk 15 minute miles) and emotionally (look at people as I pass them, and not their shoes!). Got the chance to do it as the buddies canceled, and really enjoyed it! Starting to feel proud while walking out in public. Especially when I pass the same folks sitting on the same bench for an hour. Before I would have thought, "Oh man, I have to walk past them again. They must see just how fat I am." Today I thought, "I'm here putting my plan into action. What have you done for your health today?" I can't believe this emotional change is starting to take place. Wow.


It is warm and sunny here this morning in Vermont. A rare, and wonderful combination to experience in early February! My first thought was, "Oh, how I want to go snowshoeing!" Quite the contrast to usually celebrating excitement through food automatically. My efforts to enter this lifestyle is opening additional doors of opportunities that I would have otherwise ignored.


I had to park farther away from my eye doctor's building today, due to the Special Olympics Penguin Plunge. I needed to walk about a 1/2 mile downhill towards the waterfront to where my optometrist is, and then turn around to go UPHILL. And yes, it's quite the amazing incline. As I was headed back, a walker in front of me stepped to the side after a few blocks. I must have looked shocked, because she smiled while gasping for breath. I aplogized (even though I promise I wasn't "tailgating"!), smiled, and thanked her....and noticed that *I* wasn't gasping. I had been enjoying the walk, and wasn't thinking if it was difficult or not! Today was a moment of fitness which is becoming embedded in my daily lifestyle. And today was also a moment of progress. Two years ago I would have been the person to step aside.

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  • v GREG32572

    Hello and welcome to 30 Somethings w/ 100+ Lbs to Lose!

    If you have any questions you can always email a team leader like myself or one of the others if you prefer :) We are glad you are here and look forward to taking the journey to better health together


    2972 days ago
    Great job on the mall walk! What an accomplishment. Much better spending calories than money at the mall emoticon
    3279 days ago
    I've already warned him that he needs to keep a closer eye on his hoodies. Although I think I already have my favorite of his here emoticon . The next thing he'll have to keep an eye on are his boxers. Once I can fit into those comfortably they'll be going in my pj drawer.
    3285 days ago
    Thanks for stopping by and commenting. I think I am going to skip making the peanut butter bars, not so much because of the recall (my peanut butter is safe... so far), but because the others have fewer calories per serving and sound absolutely delicious.

    Have a great day!
    3299 days ago
  • v MEMERE2*2
    Congratulations on your huge achievement yesterday! That's fantastic. I'd love to share this post with you that I came across here on Spark the other day. It was written by a woman named Pam from Australia and I think it's a wonderful idea. I've passed it on to my White Hawks team in the 100 Pounds Plus team and now many Sparkers are using this great tool!
    Here you go!---Denise

    "Early last year, I was having sessions with a psychologist for depression. No medication, just the one hour weekly sessions with Nicole. With her guidance, I began keeping a *Success Journal* which was simply an ordinary 8"X 6" notebook, which was to be kept entirely private.
    There was the stipulation that ONLY MY SUCCESSES were allowed to be written up in that journal. And there was to be no grading here. No small successes, no huge successes, all were to be equal. If I had a bad day, I was not to write that in, but if I were having a bad day and I beat it, then that WOULD go in.

    Example entry: "I was feeling very down today, so I went out for a walk, and I feel much better."
    THAT was a success.

    I've been doing the same with my fitness routines.
    "Did 20 minutes resistance training today".
    "Walked for 40 minutes today"
    "Had an apple and a banana for afternoon tea---instead of that Black Forest Cake that I wanted".

    And don't kid yourself, there WILL have been a success of some kind in your day, even if you did fall off the wagon and have a cookie! And you do not put the cookie thing in your journal. You are supposed to remind yourself constantly of success. It's amazing how this works. Read back over your week, and all those successes make you feel so you don't need those comfort foods.

    Works for me!!


    3300 days ago
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