SANDIK9806
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This is so difficult to update...I have been putting it off for quite some time...you see, so much has happened since I was on here religiously.

My intro used to be about how great life was, how wonderful my husband was and how things were just all around amazing - I just needed to get healthy.

Who knew I would long for the days when my biggest challenge was weight loss. I lost 60lbs using this site and I was a Rockstar. I was really happy. Then, life happened...

I haven't gained all 60lbs back, I've gained 25lbs back after having knee surgery in March of 2014 and having my world flipped upside down.

On my page previously I raved about how I had this amazing love that would weather anything and how I loved my husband all the time...and I did...

About 3 and a half years ago my Mother in Law was diagnosed with Lung Cancer (she had never smoked a day in her life, but a lot of people around her did - and there could have been radon issues - who knows). There were surgeries and Chemo and Radiation and she subsequently dies 2.5 years ago. My husband did not handle it well. I believe he went in to depression and really succumbed to alcoholism. After fighting and fighting and fighting for us and for him to get help to no avail, something switched in me and I was done. I didn't know this man, this man who would hurt me emotionally by being so distant and mean and upset and angry and seemed to have no desire to get help...he was gone...we were gone.

I do not blame this all on him...although I know I tried everything I could think of, including things that I wouldn't ever think I'd try, it was simply too much. When he figured this out he started to change and eventually has changed for himself, but what we had is gone...and I'm still angry about it! He was my one, I believed that with every cell in my body...and that was taken from me.

I digress...this was huge in my life and the stress of trying to still raise three amazing children (even the 2 teenagers are amazing) without messing up their entire world is so bad. It's all learning moments as it is when parenting but then add in separated parents who realize we need to be friends (and are really doing well most of the time but when it's bad because this is so strange, it's really bad - btw...NEVER was anything physically bad, EVER!)...it's SO stressful. He and I actually talk more now than we have in years but the situation is tough when it's not what it used to be.

My knee is never going to be 100% bendable but it wasn't before either...now it's WAY better and working out is so much safer and easier so I will take that! I've had it with the scale, and really the biggest thing for me is the dress sizes, going up instead of down. I want the feelings back I used to have where I liked to clothes shop, no longer felt self conscience when I walked into a room and really loved how I felt in my own body.

One more factor to add in...I'm now almost 40...39 and a half almost exactly and weight doesn't come off like it used too damn it!!

It's time...it's time for a lot of things in my life and some I feel in control of...this getting healthy thing I do not...it's time to change that.

I'm leaving the pictures because I have no regrets...I may even put up our 8 year vow renewal pictures because that dress tho! But it is time to grow and move on...move forward...live, not just exist...so here we go!


Member Since: 2/14/2009

Fitness Minutes: 39,707

My Goals:
My goals...my goals...

*Be happy
*Laugh way more than I cry
*Get my FEISTY back - I miss my feisty! (even if it is inappropriate at times :) )
*Make it back to size 8 - actual size 8, not squeeze in to 8s
*Weight Loss goal - I will make them, but if I hit an 8 without hitting these numbers then I'm ok with that too...means I'm fit and strong and that's what I want:
06.01.2016 - 168lbs (if I stay what I am now)
07.01.2016 - 165lbs
08.01.2016 - 162lbs
09.01.2016 - 159lbs (150s!! YAY)
10.01.2016 - 156lbs
11.01.2016 - 153lbs
12.01.2016 - 150lbs (I will be 40 on December 3rd!)
01.01.2017 - 147lbs
02.01.2017 - 143lbs GOAL!! This is where my body wants to be!!
I want to be between 140 and 143 or MOST IMPORTANT a strong and fit size 8


My Program:
This is where I struggle! I can put in all my nutrition and make my goals and not lose anything...its probably because of what I like to eat. I don't, and never have, completely deprived myself of anything, but I really love Pepsi (yes I KNOW how horrible that is) and cake! I'm working on it.

I guess my program is to stay in my nutritional range and make my goals for fitness and adjust if no results are happening!



Personal Information:
Name is Sandi and I'm from Omaha, Ne. I love sports...the Cubs and the Steelers are my teams!! I have 3 amazing kids! There is never a dull moment around our house! I have the most awesome 17 year old girl who is totally sure of what she wants to do with her life and is lining things up to make that happen (which includes me sending her to the East Coast for college!), a 14 year old who boy who has a heart of gold for everyone (except his younger brother...so normal) and an 8 year old I'm sure was born a 30 year old who is too smart for his own good (and obsessed with rubiks cubes!)...they make me a better person each day (and some days make me want to eat really bad things for stress relief! :)

I'm figuring out how to get the parts back of me that I've let stress take away. I want my inappropriateness back, my feisty back, my truly enjoying my life back. I own that and I am starting to really own that! I can and WILL do it!


Other Information:
I am a boy band freak!! I love the Backstreet Boys and NKOTB...it's sad I know :) I think Nick Carter and Donnie Wahlberg are 2 of the sexiest men alive...I am also a country girl...as in country music...I don't want to live in the country...but I do enjoy visiting my in laws who live in the quiet country...I just need to know that I have a 24 hour Wal-Mart near by if I should ever need it! :)

I love baseball (GO CUBS!!) and Football (GO HUSKERS & BRONCOS!). I'm a color guard, ROTC (coming soon!) and baseball mom and sometimes I love that...ok almost all the time but 2 hour baseball practices can get a little yawn worthy when you are just waiting to take your kiddo home...but seeing him love playing makes it SO worth it!

I have a handful of amazing friends I trust with my life...they are family and I'm SO blessed to have them. I also have an amazing Sister and Brother in Law (BIL) and Brother as well as nieces who are gifts I treasure!

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