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Hi, I have been struggling with my weight and my body image since adolescence. I am determined to be the weight I want to be and more importantly, I want to look at myself in the mirror and be truly happy with what I see.....

I started my journey in April 2011. I had been commuting 3 hours a day for a year and was constantly exhausted and ate without even thinking about it and had gained about 35lbs in that time. I weighed 186 and I was so unhappy with myself. The difference in my self-confidence from the previous April when I had just returned from 6 months of travelling and was tanned and happy was almost unrecognisable. I decided it was time to change my life for good because I couldn't continue to get fatter and fatter and more and more miserable. If I hadn't made a major change, continued weight gain was almost inevitable.

On 26 April 2011 I moved to London and cut my commute by more than half. I immediately felt like I had my energy back again! I also had control of the food in my fridge again. I have no will power - if there is food in the house I'll eat it - so it's really important I control what is available!!

I didn't immediately join the gym. I think I was embarrassed that I had let myself get to the weight I was and wanted to be thinner before I subjected myself to other peoples opinion at the gym. In hindsight this was silly - who cares what other people think!

By October 2011 I was ready to get serious about exercise and food tracking and joined sparkpeople and weighed in at 161. I am so glad I did, because although I have plateaued recently it is so important to record and recognise your achievements. It is so much harder to slip backwards when you can look at how far you've come and how much you don't want to end up back there.

From October 2011 to February 2012 I built up my exercise routine and stamina and carried on being careful to track what I ate. By the beginning of March I was at 149 and much happier.

I started dating again after not feeling like I could put myself out there previously (I hated my body, how could I expect someone else to love it or me?). I met someone and got wrapped up in him and stopped tracking what I ate.... I regret that, but my exercise has never suffered, I'm proud that that is something that I have continued with without fail. Even when my relationship ended recently and I was sad, I kept on turning up at the gym 3-5 times a week.

I'm certain that this continued exercise is responsible for me not gaining weight despite being fairly blas� about what I ate for about 6 months. I think I would've been distraught if I had taken steps backwards in my fight against flab.

So here we go again - still 149 - I'm going to push myself again and get off this plateau. I'm going to reach my goal weight and get toned so that I don't have to worry about the angle that a picture is being taken from when I'm out with my friends and stuff like that. Basically I just want to be completely comfortable in my own skin!!!

26 Apr 11 ~ 186 - Starting weight
11 Oct 11 ~ 161 - Joined SP
3 Mar 12 ~ 149
1 Jan 13 ~ 149 starting again!
12 Jan 13 ~ 147
19 Jan 13 ~ 146

Update: 12 Oct 2013
So, here I am again. I fell off the wagon massively. I started dating again, had a few short relationships over the last 10 months and once again other things seemed more important than looking after my body. Only unlike last time I wasn't as consistent with my exercise and so I think I've crept up with the weight again. I haven't weighed myself yet - working up the nerve. But it starts again here and now. I'm going to get myself back on track.

20 Oct 2013 ~ 159
27 Oct 2013 ~ 155

whoops! Christmas and the party season got in the way! Once again didn't track what I ate. But I've been making really good choices with my food and exercising well since the new year. I have a goal in place and the motivation to get there! Here we go again!

18 Jan 2014 ~ 152
26 Jan 2014 ~ 151
1 Feb 2014 ~ 149
9 Feb 2014 ~ 148
16 Feb 2014 ~ 147
30 Apr 2014 ~ 146

Update 18.02.2015
Grrr - I've done it again haven't I?! I was doing so well in May, things were fine up until about August when I was a Bridesmaid for a lovely friend. Then I started eating badly again. Once again due to meeting a boy and not taking care of my diet (seems to be a theme here!). We broke up after a few months and then the Christmas period was upon me with loads of parties and boozing and I simply didn't stop consuming from about October until New Years Eve. So annoyed with myself. Here I am back again, going to try and make it stick this time. I am going to South America for 3 weeks in April so want to look good for all the holiday snaps. Also am going to run a Half Marathon towards the end of March as a goal to push myself towards. I dread to think what I weighed at the start of the year. I didn't weigh myself as I knew it would be terrible. But I started putting in the hours on the treadmill for my half marathon and have recently started eating right again so I know I'm in a better place than I was at the start of the year (there were a few pairs of trousers that I had to keep undoing when I sat down - they fit much better now), but I still gave myself a shock when I weighed myself a few days ago - back to where I started when I joined sparkpeople - 161. Here we go again

15 February 2015 ~ 161
22 February 2015 ~ 160
28 February 2015 ~ 159
7 March 2015 ~ 157
14 March 2015 ~ 156

Member Since: 10/11/2011

Fitness Minutes: 11,974

My Goals:
Weigh in at 125lbs by my next birthday

1000 fitness minutes every month (at least)

Perfect attendance in March


Run 5k in under 30 mins by mid Feb 2014

The Bupa 1o,000 - 25 May 2014

The London Moonwalk -walking marathon on 10 May 2014

Swim 1 mile in 35 mins by 1 March 2014

26 Apr 11 ~ 186
11 Oct 11 ~ 161 - Joined SP
3 Mar 12 ~ 149
1 Jan 13 ~ 149 starting again!
12 Jan 13 ~147
19 Jan 13 ~ 146
20 Oct 13 ~ 159 starting again (again!)
27 Oct 13 ~ 155
18 Jan 14 ~ 152 starting again (and again!)
26 Jan 14 ~ 151
1 Feb 14 ~ 149
9 Feb 14 ~ 148
16 Feb 14 ~ 147
27 April ~ 146
15 Feb 15 ~ 161 Starting again (again....)
22 Feb 15 ~ 160
28 Feb 15 ~ 159
7 Mar 15 ~ 157
14 Mar 15 ~ 156

My Program:
Half Marathon ~ 22 March 2015 ~ Aiming for 2 hours 10 mins max

1500 March 2015 minutes

5K in 25 minutes by 1 April 2015

London Bupa 10K 2015 ~ 25 May ~ Beat last years time of 58mins

1000 January 2014 minutes ~ completed
1500 February 2014 minutes ~ completed

Perfect Attendance in February ~ completed

5K completed in 28.5 minutes on 10 Feb
27.5 on 14 Feb
7K in 40 mins on 18 Feb
10K in 58 mins on 10 April
10K in 55 mins on 30 April

15 April ~ outside running for the first time

1 mile swim completed in 33 minutes on 12 Feb

The London Moonwalk completed 10 May 2014

Half marathon 22 March 2015 ~ completed in 2hrs 3minutes

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