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That's me on the left in 2007. Boy have I changed. I'm hoping to get back to that some day . . .





Long ago (2007) I was thin and fit and it felt so good.Hope seeing this helps me get back in shape.








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I woke up one morning and I was fat!!!! How could that have happened? It was terrifying. I was Twice the weight that I'm supposed to be!!! Almost equally awful was realizing that I was so completely without a clue. Scary.

It's so embarrassing. I was in such incredibly great shape 3 years ago, but as my mother's health went down, my weight went up.

I am married to a wonderful man - we've been together for 29 years. We still are crazy in love with one another. ...
I woke up one morning and I was fat!!!! How could that have happened? It was terrifying. I was Twice the weight that I'm supposed to be!!! Almost equally awful was realizing that I was so completely without a clue. Scary.

It's so embarrassing. I was in such incredibly great shape 3 years ago, but as my mother's health went down, my weight went up.

I am married to a wonderful man - we've been together for 29 years. We still are crazy in love with one another. We couldn't have kids, but we've had a lot of cats. Right now we just have one who was about 8 years old when she moved in. We're still in the bonding stage and getting closer every day.

In 2009 my mother died in terrible pain. It was the most horrific experience of my life. My sister and I could tell that the medical establishment just didn't want to try to help her because she was old in their opinion. She was 89 and more vital and alive than anyone else I've ever known. She was not ready to sure and could have ben helped. I miss my mother and my father and feel that a huge part of me is gone for good now. But the way my mother died, and our inability to help her haunts me. I've had some wonderful therapy inthe form of EMDR. I urge anyone suffering from PTSD to get EMDR Many therapists are qualified now because it is so successful with returning vets. Also Sparkpeople has helped me come back to feeling that I have a reason to go on. I've been amazed by how much support this site gives.

My husband and I moved from California to Illinois to live in my parents' house for a while as we sift through the many wonderful things they left for my sister and me. They were very rare, creative, and productive people. I feel close to them here. I learn from them ever day. I am so lucky to have so many reminders of thm: philosophical cartoons/paintings by my father (he told me one that he did one every day as a form of meditation), letters, research, books and collections. It's a lot of work to go through these things. We take our time.

I know that grief caused my huge and sudden weight gain.

I am so very lucky. I am surrounded with love. I want to get in touch with my happiness my true self as I journey to my true weight.
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Just saw this quote by Gabourey "Gabby" Sidibe, the star of Precious (2009) and I'd like to feel this way about myself:

"I learned to love myself, because I sleep with myself every night and I wake up with myself every morning, and if I don't like myself, there's no reason to even live the life. I love the way I look. I'm fine with it. And if my body changes, I'll be fine with that."

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MORTICIAADDAMS
7/27/2014 9:12:58 PM

I'm on a diet developed by a M.D. I eat lots leafy greens and almost any vegetable, fruit, seed, or nuts except for certain ones I can't have like mushrooms and tomatoes or ones I don't like such as parsnips. I am not allowed highly processed foods so I would not be allowed to eat a third of the foods you eat, like the breads and pasta. The only grains I'm allowed are minimally processed ones like quinoa and I can't eat them very often. I can have legumes.

I thought the video was very interesting but Rip Esselsty has a limited understanding of cholesterol and it's importance in the body. Most of the cholesterol in your body is manufactured by it. Only 10-15% comes from food. The important numbers on your lipid profile are your RATIO of LDL to HDL and your triglycerides. They determine your risk for heart disease as well as other indicators like C-reactive protein. For instance my total cholesterol is elevated because my good cholesterol is very high. My triglycerides are low. My bad cholesterol is low. So my ratio is also low and I have a very low risk of heart disease.



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MORTICIAADDAMS
7/27/2014 8:17:48 PM

Thanks for the videos. I will try to check them out if my internet will allow. Have a wonderful week!!!

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7/27/2014 3:43:56 PM

thanks for commenting



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MORTICIAADDAMS
7/26/2014 10:08:32 PM

Where do you find the right information on them? I love fruits and vegetables but can't eat a lot of starches as they are high on the glycemic load. The page I went to had pasta on it and it's one of the worst triggers for my blood sugar. I can't eat bread either and have celiac disease so I can't eat barley, rye, wheat. I can have legumes on my diet in addition to almost all fruits and veggies.



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MORTICIAADDAMS
7/25/2014 9:15:30 PM

I really couldn't fine out much about their programs. When I googled them both I went to pages where they were selling treatments and processed foods. I try to avoid processed foods. I don't consider them healthy.



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