From Mon 04-23-12 Approximate Weight is 212.6 based on last Wed weigh in
THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO LOOK LIKE
WadeMe Kayak Day about 200 lbs
Back to Cal Counting, sticking with Goals below..
My Main Goals are:
1) Quite beating myself up EVERY day about what I did wrong and let that flow into the next day and the next until that magical "I''ll start fresh next week", and all the while, be allowing myself to eat and drink to excess, because: I''m starting fresh next week.
2) To get to a point where I can eat of all the food groups in appropriate portions and to appropriate satiety and not gain weight, actually lose and then maintain.
The End results being:
3) I want to feel attractive, healthy, flexible and STRONG!!!
Updated 03-21-12: I had a REALLY REALLY great talk with my husband this morning.. about all my issues and what I''m trying to do, and what my next steps are..he is 100% on board with me doing this my way (he''s been AMAZING from day one in always being willing to try anything (food etc) that I want..basically anything to help me, so that''s never been a problem), and he does not think that I''m giving myself permission when it comes to the weekends, he realizes as I have that I have to work within this mindset that I have of all or nothing, and make adjustments so that it does not continue. I need to be able to allow myself to have some flexibility and as long as I continue to try and make the best choices as often as possible, that along with my working to stay within my daily pp during the workweek, I will still have success. I definitely struggled every day/week when I was on it before, staying within my points, and I still lost 40 lbs.. so I''m basically just going to do what I do, try my best, give myself some leeway (mentally and emotionally) when I don''t make the best choice, so that I don''t self sabotage and say " **** it, I''ll start fresh next week".
Updated 08-16-11- Madonna''a Birthday!!! Okay, back to it AGAIN..I feel like I start and stop this process so many times.. but hey, at least I keep trying right?? I''m back and I''m determined to make this a lifestyle change..I keep looking for answers and direction and its becoming more and more clear to me, that only I can provide the answers and only I can point myself in the right direction. My goal is to really just feel strong/sexy/healthy and capable.. so while my goal to lose is 45 lbs..I''m going to try REALLY hard to not let the number on the scale dictate my emotions or work ethic each day. This is a journey, and a process and it will take time..I have to be okay with that, and I HAVE to change my habits and my lifestyle..I am great about being on a program, losing some weight, then going back to previous habits..that is NOT making a change..that is a quick fix/band aid, and it NEVER works out for me in the end..so I HAVE to make the change..its going to be a long arduous process, and there WILL be ups and downs..but it will be worth it if I can finally live free of the ups and down and the starting fresh next week..I KNOW I will ALWAYS have weight "issues" in that I will ALWAYS have to be aware of food and fitness and ensuring I''m going strong with both.. but I refuse to make it the bane of my existence..its going to the be the FOUNDATION of my existence in the most positive way possible.
Back on Track, doing what needs to be done..LIVING a Healthy Lifestyle..NEVER Dieting again!!
I am just now really getting back to working out.. (I lost 100+ lbs in 2003-2004 and was working out hardcore, but did it with low carb, so I''ve slowly gained 80 back)..I''m now working on the 80, AND changing my perspective on this whole process. I want this to be about feeling good about myself, feeling sexy, feeling strong and capable. Not being ON a diet, then OFF a diet..I want to live a healthy lifestyle. too would love to "train" for a goal activity like a 5k..
As of this last Wed, I have officially lost 40.4lbs of the 80 I''m trying to lose, and I''m feeling great.
Original: I''m a married (recently) 33 year old woman who has always felt like I was heavier than everyone else, although looking back now, I''d be thrilled to be where I was in my early 20ys when I thought i was fat. Thats why this time, I''m not going backwards, I''m moving forward, taking baby steps, and leaps as I get stronger, and once I''m at my goal, I''m not going to take it for granted, but look at myself and admire myself for every step that it took to achieve this!!! The pics on this page are for motivation. The top one in (me in the red tank) is me when I was at my smallest, summer of 2004. I cant believe how good I looked. I can remember thinking then that I still have more to do..Thats what SUCKS!!! The 2nd one is me at the beach for my 1st wedding anniversary just last summer (2007), I was about 190..and wanted to lose then, but did I?? NOOOO.. I just kept going up.. The 3rd pic on the bottom is me on my husbands raft, summer of 2005, I had gained a little from where I was at my smallest..but looking back on that now...I looked pretty darn good. I''d be SO happy to be back to that!!!
I want to live a Healthy Lifestyle, not ever be on a DIET again. I want to be strong, feel strong, feel great about me. Be able to say to myself in the mirror..Damn, you look good in that.
I want my husband to think I'm sexy and hot, and I want to feel that way.
Updated for 30 Day Mini Goals Starting 04-23-12:
I want to lose weight, 5 pounds at a time and KEEP IT OFF.
I want to be able to not be hate the body I see in the mirror.
I want to be my own hero.--I'm constantly amazing myself.
Exercise,work up a good sweat. --Min of 5 min of some kind of activity each day, working up to a min of 20-30 min EVERY day..
Drink lots of water. = Always
Start *gulp* therapy. =
Updated 03-21-12: Back on WW. Doing it MY way.. not going to self sabatoge if I go over on PP because of my all or nothing attitude.. I WILL suceed!!!
Updated 08-16-11: Been doing calorie counting since April 2011, lost about 8 lbs..sticking with Calorie Counting..but changing from MyFitnessPal, back to SparkPeople..you wanna know why? SparkPeople encourages you in ALL ways (diet/fitness AND Information)..other sites do not continue to provide you with helpful news/articles/lates
| current weight: 204.2