Me and Pegi right after she was diagnosed, graduating from medical college
Someone drew this picture of me. This is how I still see myself. I never realized what I had become.
This is the most recent, and certainly the largest picture of me. Watch me lose!
My name is Robin, and I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I remember being called fat as early as kindergarten. I had a tumultious and chaotic childhood and soon became an emotional eater, a late night eater, and I used food as a way to reward myself. My highest weight was this month, I'm now officially morbidly obese. I spent five months being primary caregiver for my best friend who died of brain cancer on July 5th. She was on large doses of steroids which caused her to eat constantly, and she was also an emotional eater who struggled with her weight throughout her life. She gained 80 pounds in 5 months and it destroyed her skin, and her self esteem. I gained right along with her, when I didnt eat what she ate, it made her feel bad, so I used that as an exscuse to become very unhealthy, knowing all along that I was already battling high blood pressure, high cholesterol, thyroid disease, Sleep Apnea, diabetes, and a breakdown of the veins in my legs, as well as an enlarged heart. I knew all of this, and still I ate. I ate to fill a hole that could never be filled. After experiencing her illness and later her death, I never realized how much I want to live! I have my first grandchild coming next month and I realize that I cant run, play, or hike with my kids. I want to change my life to become a good example for my family. I want to learn good nutritional habits that will last a lifetime. I want to eat to survive, not to feel better. Join me, in my journey. I need all the help and support I can get.
I would like to lose 177 lbs by 7/22/09. It might seem like a lofty goal, but it could very well save my life.
I am starting slow, trying to make better choices overall, and cutting out fast food and late night eating. Those are hard ones for me!
I live in Vancouver, Washington and I'm a photographer, journalist, and owner of a music magazine. You can check out my myspace at www.myspace.com/darkangel1111
I have a choice!
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| Pounds lost: 73.0