HEYY! SO, you left a wallpost on my profile sooo long ago, and I feel so rude for never responding - but better late than never, right? Haha. I should have kept up with sparkpeople but school became the focus of my every minute, essentially.. but no more! I'm back to stay.
Anyway, I have definitely struggled as a feminist to reconcile my desire to lose weight with the whole idea that society wants women to be skinny and demure.. BUT I definitely think that, first and foremost, we have to be happy with ourselves - and as long as you focus on the fact that you want to be the healthiest you you can be, it shouldn't be a problem. Once I stop comparing myself to other women and start focusing on how my body feels and strengthens when I eat right and exercise, that's what makes it worth it for me, and I don't think that's anti-feminist at all.. And the confidence that comes with it will inevitably spread into other areas of my life, which makes it even more worthwhile.
And you didn't have to apologize for opening up, I wish more people did :)