Wow you have come a long way. Wanted to thank you for your comment on my blog. Yes I guess I was beating myself up. Decided today to focus all the negative energy on doing everything positive today. I did 52 min. of fitness today and stayed on track with my nutrition. I also spent an hour and 15 min. on grooming my 3 horses. I don't even have to tie them, they love to be groomed. Spoiled babies! I absolutely love to spend time with my horses. They all have such different personalities. My mare I have had the longest (the one my boyfriend got me for my B'day 6 yrs. ago) is my fave. She has one heck of a personality. I think she thinks she is part human. She is very very social and I think she would hop up in the truck with me if she could fit. I have plenty of friends who are terrified to ride. I can understand it though. They are big and unpredictable but I think spending lots of time with them makes them soooo much better. It is my "let it all go" hobby. Who needs a psychiatrist if they have a horse to ride? To me it is my time to chill (well, when my horse is not being adamant about having her way) and reflect on things that don't seem as bad as we make them. Thank you again and YES I do have what it takes and am determined to prove it to myself and anyone else. I just have to keep that train of thought. Have a great eve. and take care.