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I really don't like being overweight because it is not natural. I feel like I am abusing what I've been given... we did not evolve having access to the quantity of, and types of, foods that we do today, and I want to live in greater respect of my own nature.
Beyond the philosophical, I really want to wear whatever I want and feel comfortable and confident! Every single day I choose to put on clothes that DON'T reflect my personality, because I am too big to look cute in those that ...
I really don't like being overweight because it is not natural. I feel like I am abusing what I've been given... we did not evolve having access to the quantity of, and types of, foods that we do today, and I want to live in greater respect of my own nature.
Beyond the philosophical, I really want to wear whatever I want and feel comfortable and confident! Every single day I choose to put on clothes that DON'T reflect my personality, because I am too big to look cute in those that do. I am sick of not showing who I am.
Another reason I want to lose is that I think I look, and definitely FEEL younger when I'm thinner... I want to feel like I can get out and do anything because I'm fit; I want to take advantage of being young (I'm 36).
If there's a sudden trip to the mountains, or to the marsh, I want to be able to go and hike and not fall behind.
I am so excited because I recently (Sum 2012) bought a treadmill used off Craigslist, and my goal is to use it 6 days a week for 30-45min. So far, so good. We'll see how my feet hold up...
I have friends who have started running, marathons even... but I don't think I can do that. I tried Couch to 5k a few months ago, but had surgery and couldn't run for a couple weeks, so I just quit.
I'm trying again with working up to a 5k and am just trying to stay encouraged... it took a lot to work myself up to being willing to jump on this train again.
A year ago my then-fiance bought a sportscar, shaved his head, started acting like a real pompous ass and then left me for a cheerleader/stripper. We had just bought a house together.
My dreams of having a family and a home were trashed. I waited all these years and resisted ever getting pregnant because I wanted it to be with the right partner, the best partner, and I thought that's what I had finally found.
So, it has been really hard for me to be motivated to do ANYthing this last year. I don't really see the point... I feel like I work so hard but have nothing to show for it. But, I guess I have nothing better to do...
ABOUT MY DIETING AND FITNESS:
I have understood since I was a teenager about the proper things to eat and how much exercise to get... I read Fit or Fat when I was 15 and transformed myself from a little chubby to extremely fit at a 114 lbs.
I have been a vegetarian since I was 10, but there are plenty of fattening things that are vegetarian (jalapeno poppers, anyone?)!
I have gone up and down and up and down... you see I struggle with major depression and lose the will for -anything- for long periods of time.
When I find it again, I wonder, 'how did I let myself get like that? Why was I ok with that?' only to do it again after a few months or years. As part of my depression I drink too much, which REALLY doesn't help with the weight.
So, at 36 I do not want to be facing 40 alone and blubbery and with an unfit heart.
I want to feel free.
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Member Since: 7/24/2012
SparkPoints: 2,780
Fitness Minutes: 3,852
My Goals:
~Lose 20 lbs to be around 130 (I am not quite 5'4")
~Work up to jogging for 30 minutes without walking by the end of 2012
~Improve intake of calcium and iron
~FEEL LIKE AN ATHLETE
~fit into my cute clothes!!
Starting 8/15/12:
CURRENT GOALS:
Jog 3 miles in 40 minutes -- DONE 8/17/12! 39:54
Jog 3 miles in 39 minutes -- Blew past it!
Jog 3 miles in 38 minutes -- Blew past it!
Jog 3 miles in 37 minutes -- I DID IT! 8/19/12 36:58
I've decided to do 2 miles 5 times a week instead. Including a 3 minute walking warm up I finish 2 miles in 24 minutes.
New goals:
2 miles in 23 minutes
2 miles in 22 minutes
2 miles in 21 minutes
1 mile in 10 minutes
My Program:
~Track food and workouts here.
~Don't drink as much.
~Use my treadmill!! a half hour, 5 days a week
~Walk/jog the dog more when the weather cools
~Ride my bike
Personal Information:
Single, no kids, from New Orleans, LA
Being left by my fiance for a cheerleader/stripper dealt a major blow to my self-esteem this last year, and currently loneliness is a big, crummy part of my life.
I'm trying to get up and make changes in my behavior to hopefully reap changes in my life as a whole.
Other Information:
I love festivals, camping, music, dogs, antiques and geology.
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