to SP! I know you will just love it here! People are so warm and friendly and very, very supportive! I know you can do this! I have a thyroid disorder which also makes it extremely difficult to lose weight so I can so identify with your struggles. If you need anything I am around lots and would love to help you in any way I can! Looking forward to getting to know you!
ALso you may be interested in this group, it is super great and extremely supportive. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_ individual.asp?gid=9674 (and by the way. . .you are drop dead gorgeous!)
Welcome to SP Olivia! You are so right: diets are stooopid. This isn't a diet, this is a change your life kinda thing. It can sound daunting but for me this has been so much easier than dieting. Try to take this baby steps. One thing at a time. That way you won't overwhelm yourself and also it becomes much more a part of who you are when you have patience and do it slowly. I've only been here three months and this community has changed my life!
I look forward to getting to know you better, and cheering you on! You can do it!!!