I have struggled with my weight my entire adult life.

I wish I was one of those people who ate to live, would "forget" meals because they weren't important, and had the self discipline to eat well - all the time.

I wish I loved to exercise. I wish I enjoyed running on a daily basis, and was involved in 101 activities - constantly on the go.

I wish I was thin and pretty and fit.

But, I am not one of those people.

I love food. I ...

I have struggled with my weight my entire adult life.

I wish I was one of those people who ate to live, would "forget" meals because they weren't important, and had the self discipline to eat well - all the time.

I wish I loved to exercise. I wish I enjoyed running on a daily basis, and was involved in 101 activities - constantly on the go.

I wish I was thin and pretty and fit.

But, I am not one of those people.

I love food. I love the taste of food. Food makes me happy and is a source of comfort and joy. I love feeding people - bringing them joy. I love being surrounded by loved ones at a dinner table, laughing, enjoying a well prepared meal, and making memories.

I dislike exercise. I have to talk myself into running every time I go. It becomes a guilt/self-loathing cycle. I tell myself I'm going to go for a run. I plan for it. I pack a bag. When it comes time to go, I end up talking myself out of it. Then I beat myself up the entire time for not going - for being lazy and pathetic. I feel guilty. I loathe myself.

When I do go, I feel so proud of myself and so good. But that "high" doesn't always carry me through to the next work out, and eventually the guilt/self-loathing cycle plays again.

I want to enjoy going for a run, and NOT feel guilty if I don't go. I want to do something active without feeling like it's a chore, without feeling like it's exercise.

I've tried various diet changes: weight watchers, South Beach, 17 Day Diet, counting calories, etc.

I am sure they would have all worked if I had been able to stick with them. But, I was unable to stick to the plans. I was unable to make them part of my lifestyle.

So, as a last resort - I went to a medical weight loss clinic. I am working with a doctor and a nutritionist. And I am seeing results. People are noticing. And I am determined to make this my lifestyle.

I may not ever lose my love of food or the joy it brings to my life. I may not ever find a physical activity that I enjoy that doesn't feel like exercise. But, I have got to keep trying. I have to find something that I can do. And I have to do it. And keep at it.

And eventually...it will work. It will click. And I will reach my goals.

Until then, I am taking it one day at a time.

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