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One Day At A Time...

I have struggled with my weight my entire adult life.

I wish I was one of those people who ate to live, would "forget" meals because they weren't important, and had the self discipline to eat well - all the time.

I wish I loved to exercise. I wish I enjoyed running on a daily basis, and was involved in 101 activities - constantly on the go.

I wish I was thin and pretty and fit.

But, I am not one of those people.

I love food. I ...
I have struggled with my weight my entire adult life.

I wish I was one of those people who ate to live, would "forget" meals because they weren't important, and had the self discipline to eat well - all the time.

I wish I loved to exercise. I wish I enjoyed running on a daily basis, and was involved in 101 activities - constantly on the go.

I wish I was thin and pretty and fit.

But, I am not one of those people.

I love food. I love the taste of food. Food makes me happy and is a source of comfort and joy. I love feeding people - bringing them joy. I love being surrounded by loved ones at a dinner table, laughing, enjoying a well prepared meal, and making memories.

I dislike exercise. I have to talk myself into running every time I go. It becomes a guilt/self-loathing cycle. I tell myself I'm going to go for a run. I plan for it. I pack a bag. When it comes time to go, I end up talking myself out of it. Then I beat myself up the entire time for not going - for being lazy and pathetic. I feel guilty. I loathe myself.

When I do go, I feel so proud of myself and so good. But that "high" doesn't always carry me through to the next work out, and eventually the guilt/self-loathing cycle plays again.

I want to enjoy going for a run, and NOT feel guilty if I don't go. I want to do something active without feeling like it's a chore, without feeling like it's exercise.

I've tried various diet changes: weight watchers, South Beach, 17 Day Diet, counting calories, etc.

I am sure they would have all worked if I had been able to stick with them. But, I was unable to stick to the plans. I was unable to make them part of my lifestyle.

So, as a last resort - I went to a medical weight loss clinic. I am working with a doctor and a nutritionist. And I am seeing results. People are noticing. And I am determined to make this my lifestyle.

I may not ever lose my love of food or the joy it brings to my life. I may not ever find a physical activity that I enjoy that doesn't feel like exercise. But, I have got to keep trying. I have to find something that I can do. And I have to do it. And keep at it.

And eventually...it will work. It will click. And I will reach my goals.

Until then, I am taking it one day at a time.
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Member Since: 10/12/2006

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My Goals:
2014 GOALS
1. First Goal Weight: 150
2. Second Goal Weight: 140
3. Third Goal Weight: 130 (ULTIMATE GOAL)

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2013 GOALS
1. First weight = 180 (Achieved!)
2. Second weight = 170 (Achieved!)
3. Third weight = 160 (out of the "obese" BMI range finally! - Achieved!)
**NOTE - as of 04.12.13 I have officially lost over 10% of my body weight (since 02.25.13) and have finally gotten below 160 lbs!**
4. Fourth weight = 150 (Achieved June, 2013; Maintained until December, 2013)
5. Fifth weight = 140
6. Sixth weight = 130 (out of the "overweight" BMI range!!!)
7. Walk/run for 20 minutes at least 5 days/week; Increase to goal of 60 minutes of fitness/day (5x/wk)
8. Beat my PRs for 5Ks, 10Ks (achieved - September & October, 2013), and half marathons (achieved - Oct, 2013).
9. Work on consistently loving myself.

My Program:
Nutrition:
Cals: 800-1200
Carbs: Less than 100
Protein: 100+

Exercise:
Run 3x/week (at least 2 miles)
Walk 2x/week (at least 2 miles)
ST 2-3x/week (at least 10 mins)

Personal Information:
I love coffee, naps, skiing, reading, rain, and the crisp morning air as the sun is just beginning to rise in the morning.

Other Information:
I want to be a better person. I want to be less critical, less judgmental, and less negative. I want to be more positive, loving, and accepting. I want to see the gray in the world instead of strictly black or white. I want self-improvement.

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN
4/9/2013 12:45:06 PM

Check out IOWL Team.

Inside Out Weight Loss (IOWL) is based around overcoming those "internal" issues that stop us from achieving our goals (weight loss or otherwise!!)

Links to free podcasts by Renee Stephens are there.

It has been a great help for me - although I have been listening for years and making incremental changes...for whatever reason, this year is THE year that it seems to all be "falling into place" so to speak!!

Go figure! I'm glad I did not give up!!

Remember:

“Change takes time. It takes time for the seeds to begin growing within, time to understand the process, time for the growth to mature, and time for the old self to die and fall away.” -Bryant McGill

Take care and be well!

-Michelle

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DIANEDOESSMILES
1/23/2013 2:54:40 AM

HI Hon !! At the Start of the SUD week 1,, PLEASE Contact Moni,,, let her know (Ruffit) you'd like help with weight loss. We are working VERY HARD to help those who are serious on doing so. I've read ur page,,,and we CAN HELP YOU !! WOOHOOOO !! We have MANY TRICKS UP OUR SLEEVES !!! ALSO keep us (MaryAnn and myself) up on what's going on if you are NOT losing after the first 2 weeks,,,, and we'll jump on in to HELP YOU and MOni out.

OH YEAH !! THIS IS CLEARLY YOUR TIME !!!! Diane



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DIANEDOESSMILES
1/23/2013 2:54:40 AM

HI Hon !! At the Start of the SUD week 1,, PLEASE Contact Moni,,, let her know (Ruffit) you'd like help with weight loss. We are working VERY HARD to help those who are serious on doing so. I've read ur page,,,and we CAN HELP YOU !! WOOHOOOO !! We have MANY TRICKS UP OUR SLEEVES !!! ALSO keep us (MaryAnn and myself) up on what's going on if you are NOT losing after the first 2 weeks,,,, and we'll jump on in to HELP YOU and MOni out.

OH YEAH !! THIS IS CLEARLY YOUR TIME !!!! Diane



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HAPPYKITTYNZ
1/21/2013 10:09:17 PM

Congrats on your 10,000 fitness minutes!! way to rock it :D
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RYDERB
10/24/2012 10:23:49 PM

emoticon emoticon Jenn! That's FABULOUS news! Having a wedding to plan should make goal setting easier! emoticon
Hope the FFF Challenge portion of your week is just as well.
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