I saw your message board post and I just had to visit your page.
DO NOT GIVE UP!
I want you to succeed! It will take time to undo a lifetime of habits, but it is possible. Don't think that your scales measure your success at that. Your scale can't tell if you read your food labels today. Your scale can't tell if you walked 5% faster this week than last week. Scales can't tell anything about your cholesterol, resting heart rate, blood pressure, etc.
Make sure you have goals that have nothing to do with the scales and make sure you don't rely on your scales as a measure of success.
A healthy weight is the by-product of a healthy lifestyle. Change the lifestyle and the weight will change on it's own.
Hi, welcome to Sparkpeople. I try to send this message to help folks with the website because I found it a bit difficult in the beginning. I am not anyone special, just someone trying to gain control of my health, just like you. I hope you enjoy this website as much as I do. I have gotten so much out of it. I have met some wonderful folks on this website. The website can feel a bit overwhelming at first, but don't give up.(All the advertising can feel distracting, but it keeps the website free for all of us. Just ignore it if you want.) Explore a little at a time. Scroll through other member pages, if you see anyone you would like to have as a spark friend, just click the little button at the top and that will add them to your friend list. If you are confused, ask questions on the Messages Boards, under the Get Help section. You might want to join a few teams that interest you and check their message boards daily. Scroll through other Sparkpeople’s pages to see what teams they joined. You can always withdraw from the team if you find it really doesn't interest you. Under the Message Boards tab, check out Sparkpeople Café and the Sparkpeople Game Room. There are a lot of fun running posts on these message boards. Check your Sparkpoint page and see where you can earn more points. ( I really have fun with this.) It’s fun to use the points to buy and give the ‘goodies’ to yourself or to other sparkpeople. Be kind to yourself. Take it one day at a time. Expect set backs and just ride them out. Don't compare yourself to others, you are unique and an individual. Don’t ever give up, instead, reach out. That is what we are all here for. It gets better, one day at a time. I think of daily food control like the pages of a book. One page (day) is not very thick, hardly seems worth the effort, but when you close the book the thickness of all the pages (days) together really have an impact. It is up to you to decide if the story is a good one. You are going to fly. Just spread those wings and set sail!