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Day 1- 150 by 50




With the help of Almighty God, I can make it to the finish line. 150...here I come!


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I reject my body and my body rejects me. That's my current situation. I had a number of weight loss successes in the past. But, that's the past. Right now, I'm 4 pounds shy of 300 and I feel and look disgusting. I'm sorry if this intro. is a downer. But, I need to face the reality of my situation. And, I am very down right now. My kids have agreed to monitor my page and help me with support. But, that's not their job. They shouldn't be worried about me. They have their lives to live. If I could crawl in a hole some where, I would. My daughter graduates from high school in 6 weeks and the things on my mind are what will I ever wear, will I be able to walk to the venue and will the seat hold me. I feel like such a failure as a mother. I got really sick and I was bed-ridden for a long time. And, I was taking steroids for inflammation. The combination of those things and my food addiction and lack of discipline makes for a very fat Marilyn. A lot of the pain has ceased, but I have really bad leg cramps at night. I just lack the motivation and pushing past the pain is NO JOKE! I want to do it. I really do. Or, at least I think that I do. If I wanted it that bad, wouldn't I do it? Well, anyway, I'm back on spark people. I've gotten a lot of help from this community. I don't want the rest of my life to be like this.

I want to be healthy.

I want to have self-control.

I want to be able to walk and enjoy my kids.

I want my skin/flesh to stop bursting at the seams and weeping.

I want to be able to pull myself up from a sitting position.

I want to be able to go to sleep without fearing pain/cramping.

I want to wake up and not feel like a waste or a great big disappointment to God, myself and every single person in my life.



Member Since: 6/8/2007

Fitness Minutes: 4,290

My Goals:
My goal weight is 150 pounds. I am 5'2" tall.

Goal: May 2015- Daughter's Graduation

-Be able to walk without getting tired
-Have on an outfit and undergarments that fit
-Have my hair, nails and makeup on point


My Program:
I am striving to eat clean and exercise more. No more...no less. Plain and simple.



Personal Information:
I love cardinal birds. I love cherry blossom trees in the Springtime. I love my children. And, I love my God.


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Music moves me, profoundly.




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  • v SOOKIE
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    MONDAY MOTIVATION:
    "Goals ARE NOT a January 1st thing.
    Set them WEEKLY, Set them MONTHLY.
    Set them so that you are MOVING FORWARD.
    And ALWAYS TRYING to PROGRESS!" ~unknown

    Have a fantastic week!


    314 days ago
  • v SOOKIE
    "Don't stop because it's the weekend … wake up and workout!"
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    emoticon Have a FITtastic healthy Memorial Day weekend!

    372 days ago
  • v GLORYTOGLORY
    Hello my SP friend! How is it going? My husband and I started a SP team and your invited. So many of our teams went inactive. We want a team that will stay very active and encourage others. We decided SP and all our Sp friends have given us so much its time to give back and encourage others! Its called Beastmode the icon is on my page. You can read my blog if you want to hear our heart for the team.
    411 days ago
  • v WONDERGALE
    Hi,. thanks for commenting on my page. It may seem like a long road ahead, but you will get there. And after you get there, it will feel like a walk in the park. emoticon emoticon
    425 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/31/2015 11:32:47 AM
  • v LASVEGASLES
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    425 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/30/2015 3:16:35 PM
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