This is me with my best friend and my youngest son standing at the foot of a glacier in Alaska
This is me with my husband about 30 pounds ago for me
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I can't believe I joined Spark People a year ago with such high hopes of being a completely new, thinner me by this time. Instead, I am 20 pounds heavier than I was a year ago.
ENOUGH. . . Enough excuses, enough reasons why I can't, enough selfishness, enough not caring enough to do something about it, enough not making my health a priority. I am only getting older and more and more out of shape and it is time to get my act together once and for all. I have a new strategy this time. Instead of thinking I can do it by myself (which I obviously can't), I'm giving it to God. I know he can deliver me from my addiction if I would just let him and and take if from me.
The trick will be to remember to turn to him, instead of my old pal food, in times of mindless eating
I know I'm not going to lose 100 pounds in a year but I'm aiming for a very doable goal of 50 pounds off by Christmas of 2010. That's 1 pound per week, very reasonable.
My goal is to not give up when hitting a bump in the road. I need to forgive myself for mistakes and for not being perfect and do what's right for me and my health.
My focos right now is on cutting out night time eating. It is my downfall. I'm also focusing on keeping a food journal and getting some type of exericse at least 4 days a week.
I live in Beaverton, Oregon. I have three boys, 15, 14 and 12. It seems like I live most of my life reactively and am looking forward to living life proactively including making my health a priority. I need to be ok about making time for myself.
I love reading (when I have the time), movies, crafting, Starbucks with friends and traveling. The reality is I spend most of my time at some sporting event cheering on my boys.
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| current weight: 282.3
my latest news update.... I went to the the surgeon and he is referring me to, and sending me to a hemotologist at the oncology center to have a work up before he does hernia surgery, he said some red flags came up on my last cat scan that could be the start of non hodgkins lymphoma and he wants to make sure he doesnt need to get any biopsies while he has me opened up. I have an enlarged liver and spleen. It is always something isnt it ...... whats new with you.... hopefullybetter news than me, my back is doing fine though :)
Love ya !
2112 days ago
Well I have been diagnosed with Gastroparesis and was put on Reglan, that made me sick so I have been having my chiropractor do auriculotherapy on me and it is getting better without medication. I met a back surgeon Monday and I have my back surgery nexy Thursday so I am excited to get that done. The huge bulge ( hernia, seperated muscle, or whatever it is in my belly) is getting checked by my plastic surgeon next tuesday. I sure hope they can fix it soon, it is larger than a grapefruit and the pain is almost unbearable.... it is always something isnt it.
I bought myself an awesome pair of walking shoes a couple weeks ago, they are Avia Iburns and they are so awesome,I really feel a difference and my legs look great just from shopping ect (LOL)
Does that mean your Dad is doing better ?? enjoy them these last 4 weeks, may be crowded, but enjoy :)
Hope you enjoy your last bit of summer, write when ya can :)
Love and hugs girlfriend !!
2130 days ago
LOL.... funny I was just reading what I wrote , since I had wrote this I had spent another week in the hospital, I rushed myself in the middle of the night while my family was sleeping and ended up with a major liver infection...they did all sorts of tests and procedures on me, I still havent recovered from that yet. I have a follow up tomorrow and its possible I have a hernia at the incision site in my abdomen....hurts like a sob. At this rate I am going to look like a roadmap of scars (lmao)
I am so glad your Dad is doing good I think of him and all of you everyday !!! I grew up without a Dad so I can only imagine how special one must be .... send him and your Mom my Love and well wishes, just know I am always here for you sweetie and if I dont write you back right away that means I must be having some issue again (lol) I think this is my year for hospital stays...
A month in Alaska sounds Awesome !!! and dont worry about your weight sweetie...this has been a really hard stressfull year for you... at least you didnt gain ..... right ??? (((((HUG'S ))))))
Love You Friend !!!
2144 days ago
guess what....know how I have been complaining the past year of how sick I have been feeling and I thought it was because I quit smoking ?? well it wasnt that , my gall bladder had quit working, I have it explained more on my page, I almost died from bile poisioning, it was filling my body to the point that my feet were twice the size, my husband finally rushed me to the er when I could quit throwing up green bile and blood :( Thats where I have been... I spent 8 days in the hospital and I am not done yet , I have two more surgeons to see, a cashier at walmart hurt my back right at the fusion and I am going to have to have surgery sometime soon and the list goes on...... how are you and your family holding up ??Hows your Dad ? Your Mom ??? You ???
Love you sweetie !!!
2162 days ago
Stopping by from Dare to Soar to say hi and checking up with you. How are you doing? Stop by the team or shoot me a message and let me know. Hope to see you soon!
2279 days ago