Mother / Daughter / Forever
2012 Marathon Time 3:29:25 / Weight =132 pounds Feeling Happy and Healthy
Yes! This is me back in 1999. Weight 227 pounds.
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NETTYBREAD is a SparkPeople Motivator!
Hi! I'm Netty. I'm happily married with 4 wonderful kids: Two step-sons 26 and 21, a daughter 20, and a son 16. I've come a long way. I've lost over 80 pounds and would like to Enjoy, Live, and Love my life... Slowly and Steadily... One~Day~At~A~Time
Enjoy... I have found that I do not let myself just be happy. I am trying to enjoy the people, world, pleasures all around me. To appreciate each and every day I am here on this planet. That when things are "out of my control" I meditate, put my fingers together and hmmmmmm... there's nothing I can do about it so just let it go.
Live... start living life! I am trying not to be ashamed of who I really am. If I stick my foot in my mouth then so be it, if I step on someone's toe (accidentally of course) then I'm sorry, but I will not beat myself up over it.
Love... start allowing myself to be loved. I push people away. Why? I just didn't love myself. Well... I love me... all of me... and therefore, I can now let others love me too.
A little about my weight loss journey...
I was a competitive swimmer as a child and as a teen. I ate A LOT, but I guess as active as I was... It didn't matter. I was always a little "bigger" but just thought it was muscle/athletic 150-160 in high school. But... my junior year of high school I QUIT swimming, and I quickly gained 20 pounds. I felt horrible my senior year. Then... right after high school, I got pregnant. After baby #1... I stayed around 190-200. Then after baby #2, I gained and never lost the weight. I stayed between 215-230.
Anyway... my mom offered to pay for me to go to WW. I seriously laughed and said, “Don’t get mad if I don’t lose weight.” But...it worked immediately. I quickly lost 60 pounds. I learned how to binge on 1 point foods with high fiber, and I stayed about 170 for 2-3 years.
Then... I got divorced, and I motivated myself somehow by saying "if he ever sees me again, I am going to look so good he'll wish he'd kept me lol". I really started exercising and that's when I did my first triathlon. I just decided I wanted to get in shape and do a triathlon, and I picked one, got a Personal Trainer at the gym to help me, and I did it. I actually won the first tri that I competed in. It was INSANE. I was on the GREATEST "HIGH".
But... the high didn't last. I broke my toe in 2003, got injured and actually did a 1/2 marathon just way too soon after that and that's when my knee injury began.
Then... I got remarried that year to an amazing man, but I started seeing my weight go up. I got up to 180, and I just started panicking. That's when the CRAZY eating began... Binge-ing and Purge-ing. So NOT PROUD. Embarassed, Ashamed, Disgusted... It was terrible. I found myself with the greatest life and not being able to enjoy it, because I was so obsessed with food. FOOD! Freakn’ FOOD! I was ruled and governed by it. Depressed feeling gross and ugly but knowing I had a great life. WHY??? Why??? Couldn't I enjoy it.
I tried off and on to get back in shape. Often times just burning out. I actually was getting in shape last summer, and I pulled a muscle in my calf GOLFING. LOL! Who knew you could get a serious calf injury golfing.
SO... this time... my aunt called me back in January. I was in complete DEPRESSION mode, and hadn’t exercised in months, but she asked me to be on her relay team for the Wasatch Back Relay in June. My uncle died very tragically last year, and she has been a mess. So... I just said SURE. I started training. But... I really convinced myself to train moderately. Do what felt good. I told her I might run 10 minute miles or slower. She didn’t care, so I felt no pressure at all. I really have enjoyed running this past 6 months. My eating has been mostly “in control” the last 4 months.
It's now July and since March 2008...I’ve lost about 30 pounds the healthy way. I now weigh 143 and I haven't weighed that since 8th grade. I’m so excited. But...I also know that it can be short lived and that I can easily slip back into my ED if I don’t make this a daily effort. That’s why my mantra is O~DAT. One Day At A Time... I can eat healthy meals, exercise, spend quality time with my kids / husband, and thank God for each moment I am healthy and Enjoying, Living, and Loving LIFE!!!
I first wrote the above "bio" when I started Spark~People in July of 2008. It is now...
November 23, 2008 After 4 months using SparkPeople some things have changed and some things have not. I have continued exercising daily, which is a HUGE accomplishment. I am looking forward to January 2009 when I can say 1 year of consistent exercise!
My eating is not so good. I am still having frequent binges and purges that are off set by the large amount of exercise I have been doing. I have maintained a weight of about 150. Fluctuating from 140-160. I would like to be able to say I'm in control of my eating and eating moderately and healthy, but I'm not. So, I'll just pick myself up, set new goals and keep on reaching for the stars.
***Update*** May 3, 2010
I haven't been using Spark~People lately and... I desperately miss it! There are so many positive, happy, wonderful people here. My goal is to continue staying positive and reaching out to others for advice and motivation. I think we all lose motivation at times, and we ALL need support systems. Spark ~ People is a GREAT support system.
With that said... I am proud to have been consistently exercising the past 2 1/2 years. I still struggle trying to eat healthy, but I actually feel like I am on the right path to food moderation. I love the book "Intuitive Eating" that has helped a lot too.
I did NOT achieve my fitness goal to compete in my first Ironman, but I've been thinking of all the great people who at first failed and continued to strive for success. I will NOT give up. IRON~MAN Cozumel, November 28, 2010!!!
I DID achieve my goal of Iron~Man Cozumel 2010. It was absolutely INCREDIBLE. A very, very hard event but SO worth it! I was eating pretty healthy and feeling great.
But, I have again relapsed and not conquered my eating disorder demon. It scares me each and every day. It has actually gotten worse. I have been bingeing and purging every day multiple, multiple times a day for the past 6 months. I feel overwhelmed and held hostage by it. I hope and pray that one of my greatest accomplishments in this earthly life will be to overcome this crazy addiction. I feel very strongly that I must FAST and PRAY daily and ask for forgiveness as often as possible. I MUST get out of the bondage of.... Self and really believe in God and turn things over to him. Remind myself of the Atonement each day. I don't feel like I am an over-the-top religious person, but I do believe in MIRACLES and the power of God.
Coming soon... so soon... just busy but will tell you about the last 2 years... quite interesting. Stay tuned
Starting Weight = 227
Current Weight = 149
Goal Weight = 137
#1 Stay Positive... Life is short and precious.
#2 Healthy Relationship with food.
#3 Learn to love MYSELF...Inside and Out
#4 Moderate Exercise
Live in Thanksgiving Daily
Be Self Forgiving... Just like I'd forgive a friend.
Love and Be Loved... Serve and Be Served
Spark Nutrition Tracker
1600-1800 Calories Daily.
Daily 30 -45 Cardio
Light Strength Training
3 to 4 times / week
Trying to Pray and Repent Daily
LOVE thy neighbor as thyself
Be Kind To EVERYONE *HUGS*
I am overcoming Bulimia
triggered after my
Smile, Live, Love, Learn, Forgive, over and over and over and over...
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Thanks for the friend add. I added you also. We live in very different worlds with different demons but one thing we share in common is a desire to beat the demons and become healthier happier women. Have a great day.
723 days ago
Thanks for your kind thoughts and well wishes as I continue to recover from injury. I appreciate you.
Happy to hear you are feeling great!
746 days ago
Thanks for the goodie..
750 days ago
thanks for posting on my SOS post! It really helped me through.
752 days ago
Thanks for visiting my page and leaving a comment.
You are awesome!
752 days ago