Kelly Brook showing off my ideal body.
My exercise motivation - thank you, XKANDI2005X!
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"The difference between try and triumph is a little umph!"
Let me start off by divulging something: I am never happy with having to write intoduction texts about myself, and as a result I am always rewriting them.
So, with that out of the way, please allow me to have a go at this. After all, I do want to make a good first impression and I dislike profiles with nothing on them, and I am not allowed to be a hypocrite.
Like so many other Sparkers I have been overweight, or considered myself to be overweight, ever since things like that started to matter, and, perhaps like you, tried a wide variety of diet pills and fad diets. Well, the diet pills never worked and the fad diets only brought on dizziness and binging - oddly, it took me five years or so before breaking that cycle. I swear, I am not usually that dense!
I am sociophobic, triggered by eating and moving (especially at the same time) in front of others. Unfortunately, I was not diagnosed before I was well out of school, meaning I had to force myself through Physical Education and come to hate, hate, hate exercise of all kinds. Add the fact that I was incredibly lonely and my only comfort was food...you can see where I am going with this. I started exercising at the university gym in 2005, and for that reason managed to keep my weight reasonably in check (at about 80 kg/176 Ibs); however, my mental health had started spiralling and eventually I stopped going, for some reason. In January 2009 I reached my all-time high at a whooping 90 kg/198 Ibs. That is when I decided to lose weight.
I came to SparkPeople in July 2010. By that time I had managed to lose quite a bit of weight but had completely lost control; I see now that I was well on my way of developing an eating disorder. I had spent summer of 2009 as an in-patient at a phychiatric ward, and I had promised myself that I would do my absolute best never having to go back there again, for whatever reason. SparkPeople has been an incredible tool and I can happily report that my ED tendencies have lessened dramatically.
What, then, am I still doing here? Because I know I need to lose a little weight but I want to keep those ED thoughts well at bay. I hate feeling isolated in my efforts of toning up and slimming down, and at the same time I want to keep this little project to myself. Virtual friends are therefore ideal!
So yes. That would be me.
Oh! I forgot to add - I have a fetish for cupcakes, butterflies, stationary and non-black tea. Just in case you wanted to know something non-diet related.
Helzie and Nedyfay's C25K Sparkgoodie system:
Week 1 - Flower week:
Tuesday: Carnation (!)
Thursday: Orchid (!)
Saturday: Rose (!)
Week 2 - Fruit and vegetable week:
Tuesday: Peppers (!)
Thursday: Bananas (!)
Saturday: Blueberries (!)
Week 3 - Handy stuff week:
Tuesday: Measuring cups (!)
Thursday: Tupperware (!)
Saturday: Food scale (!)
Week 4 - Fitness week:
Tuesday: Jump rope
Thursday: Yoga mat
Saturday: Roller skates
Week 5 - Random week:
Saturday/race day: ???
1. Be happy.
2. Tone up.
3. Have a healthy lifestyle.
1. Healthy eating during the week, but a bit more relaxed during the weekend.
2. Working out between three and five times a week.
3. For every five pounds lost, I get to treat myself to something special (that has nothing to do with food).
Lives: With her boyfriend, the west coast of Norway.
Phone number: Yeah, sure.
"It's just an ordinary day, and it'll all your state of mind."
| current weight: 157.0