March 2011 - 279
Father's Day 2011
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If what you are doing isn't working for you - try something else, right? Well, I have tried a million "something elses" and none of them work. Why? Faulty diet? Bad personal trainer? Maybe green tea doesn't really help you lose weight. Or maybe I'm just not meant to be thin. WRONG WRONG WRONG. It's not the diet. It's not the exercise. It's not all the little "get skinny quick" schemes. It's me. Plain and simple. I have to want it bad enough to keep going and do it for me, for my husband, for my ...
If what you are doing isn't working for you - try something else, right? Well, I have tried a million "something elses" and none of them work. Why? Faulty diet? Bad personal trainer? Maybe green tea doesn't really help you lose weight. Or maybe I'm just not meant to be thin. WRONG WRONG WRONG. It's not the diet. It's not the exercise. It's not all the little "get skinny quick" schemes. It's me. Plain and simple. I have to want it bad enough to keep going and do it for me, for my husband, for my children. I give up on myself every time. And look where it's gotten me. Nowhere. I have been dieting since 7th grade. 17 years is a long time to diet and not get any thinner or healthier. I have only gotten fatter. The only way to reverse this is to change. And if I want to change who I have become then I need to do something different. As Zig Ziglar said, "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got." That makes sense to me. So, in light of my revelation -
I AM DONE.
DONE WITH PLUS SIZE CLOTHES.
DONE FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF.
DONE WITH EXCUSES.
DONE WITH EMOTIONAL EATING.
DONE WITH DEPRESSION.
DONE SEEING EVERY MEAL OR SNACK AS A LITTLE PARTY OR MINI- CULINARY MASTERPIECE INSTEAD OF FUEL FOR MY BODY.
DONE WORRYING IF I CAN FIT INTO RESTAURANT BOOTHS.
DONE SEEING MYSELF AS LESS OF A PERSON THAN EVERYONE ELSE.
DONE BEING AN EMBARRASSMENT TO MY HUSBAND IN SOCIAL SETTINGS.
DONE WATCHING MY KIDS PLAY AND WISHING I COULD JOIN THEM.
DONE BEING JEALOUS OF PEOPLE WHO ARE RUNNERS. I AM GONNA DO IT!!!
DONE WISHING THAT A REGULAR SIZED BATH TOWEL WOULD FIT AROUND MY BODY.
DONE NOT BUYING AWESOME HEELS JUST CUZ MY ANKLES CAN'T HOLD UP MY BODY IN THEM.
DONE GETTING OUT OF BREATH TO TIE MY TENNIS SHOES.
DONE STRUGGLING TO PAINT MY TOENAILS.
DONE WISHING I COULD FIND MY COLLAR BONE.
DONE ENVYING THOSE GIRLS WHO RUN ALONG THE LAKEFRONT LOOKING LIKE THEY REALLY ENJOY IT.
DONE WISHING I COULD LOOK DECENT IN A DRESS.
DONE BEING THE FATTEST PERSON AT FAMILY FUNCTIONS.
DONE AVOIDING WATERPARKS LIKE THE PLAGUE.
DONE "TAKING A RAINCHECK" ON SLEDDING HILLS BECAUSE IT'S TOO HARD TO CLIMB BACK UP THE HILL.
DONE BEING THE FAT FRIEND.
DONE SURROUNDING MYSELF WITH FAT PEOPLE SO I FEEL BETTER.
DONE HOPING THAT SOME DAY PEOPLE WON'T SEE ME AS THE FAT GIRL WITH THE PRETTY FACE.
DONE HAVING A DOUBLE CHIN AND FAT NECK.
DONE WITH THE WHOLE "MUFFIN TOP" LOOK.
DONE AVOIDING PEOPLE FROM MY PAST WHO'VE NEVER SEEN ME FAT.
DONE HAVING A LAZY ATTITUDE.
DONE WISHING MY HUSBAND WAS ATTRACTED TO ME.
DONE BEING THE EXAMPLE OF "WHAT NOT TO DO" FOR MY CHILDREN.
DONE LIVING TO EAT - NOT EATING TO LIVE.
DONE, DONE, DONE.
I AM SOOOOOO DONE BEING THE FAT GIRL.
WORDS THAT INSPIRE ME:
"FEAR HOLDS ALL OF US BACK BY KEEPING OUR FAILURES CLOSE AND OUR DREAMS DISTANT." - Chantel Hobbs
"To the world you may be just somebody, but to somebody you may be the world" - unknown
"Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently"
- Henry Ford
"Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson
HIGHEST WEIGHT - 302
(Recap - lost 45 pounds from March 2009 to August 2009. Got
pregnant, gained all the weight back plus some and gained a beautiful baby boy - he was worth it :) Now I am finally getting my head in the right place. 2012 is the year I finish what I started.)
1/6 - 301
been working hard but not checking in at SP
4/24 - 282
| current weight: 290.0
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Member Since: 8/22/2007
Fitness Minutes: 8,308
My goal is to get down to 150. If I think I need to lose more after than, then I will.
Under 250 - no longer morbidly obese
Under 212 - no longer obese
Under 150 - no longer overweight
Eventually want to be able to run a 5K and complete a triathlon.
Goal Rewards from hubby - -After completing week 4 of Couch to 5k - new Fossil watch
- After completing week 9 of Couch to 5k - remote starter for my SUV (it's cold here in WI!!)
Exercise and eating healthy. Eat when I am HUNGRY (real hunger, not just a desire to eat) and focus on full, but not overfull. Exercise - Couch to 5k program 3x a week, strength training 2x a week, bootcamp class at our gym 1x a week.
My name is Sarah. I am from Milwaukee and I am 34 years old. Mom to three children, married for 13 years. I have been overweight since 7th grade and have never known what it is like to be a normal sized adult, so this should be interesting!
Things I like:
*Study herbs and natural remedies
*Making natural soap and other bath & body products
*Researching medical topics on the internet (I'm such a nerd!)
*Lots of types of music