My sis-in-law & I at a Dodgers game. June 2013
My friend Sarai & I before a Lady A concert. I thought I was big then, but I'm heavier now. Sigh.
It's been a crazy few years! And I'm just over being at the weight I am now. I don't feel good. Especially when I'm laying down to get into a pair of jeans, or squeezing into a chair, or sometimes even looking in the mirror.
I feel like my personal life is taking a back seat, because I don't think anyone would love me the way I look now. And I want a husband, and some babies, and a long life with my family & friends.
So today is the day. Today is the day I get my life back! I wiped my goals clean on SparkPeople, and set some new ones, so today is the first day of my new life!
I want to look in the mirror & like what I see. I want to really know, & believe that "This is what beautiful looks like"
I want to feel like I am worthy of someone else's love.
I am going to eat better, count my calories, drink at least 16 glasses of water a day, walk more...a lot more. I'm in control of what goes into my mouth, so I am going to control it.
My name is Rebekah, and I'm from Springfield, Missouri. I've lived in MO all my life, and I love it here. Unfortunately, I'm far away from my brothers & sister-in-laws, and my nieces & nephew, but it is very close to mom & dad & grandparents, so that makes up for it!
I love spending time with my parents & my brothers, my sisters (in-law), and my two amazing nieces, and my fantastic little nephew. Without them I would be nothing. My mom is my best friend, and a wonderful support system. I have some incredibly amazing friends, and I love spending as much time with them as possible. I love to go to the movies or watch a film at home. I'm a big sports fan...I love going to baseball games!!! I'm a HUGE fan of The Office, I'm completely addicted! I'm also a reality junkie...so there's that!
Ah... It's so much easier doing this with someone ... than without someone. I'm glad you're my "someone"!! I love you, best friend... and I believe you are beautiful inside and out... no matter your weight. You do deserve love... NOW all you have to do is believe it yourself... and all the rest will come. If losing weight will help you to know how beautiful you are... then let's beat this thing! WE can do this... we did it before... we can do it again.
In control of what you eat.. in control of your life... that's fast becoming my motto... And I really need to get in control of my life.
I love you most.
836 days ago
Hey girl! I've been trying to get on here and keep my food listed, but by the time I get through lunch...I don't even want to add dinner! Ugh! I was good today thought and ate a whole serving of sugar peas...almost killed me I think!
1514 days ago
Hellooooooo! I'm not on SP a whole lot lately, but I am working toward a better me :) I started working out at work during downtime (shhh! it's a secret!), I'm trying to make conscious eating decisions, and I'm trying to get people to lose with me! I've even convinced your brother (who has gotten quite the "hank" if you know what I mean) to start making an effort. So far my efforts have led to me gainin about 1lb, but I'm hoping that's all muscle! The newest research says that to lose weight, weight lifting is actually more effective than aerobic exercise. I'm hoping that works for me, because quite frankly I like lifting weights more than I like walking laps or running on the treadmill!
1529 days ago
So, here we are... Back to where we started and where we did the best. I'm going to weigh tomorrow and start logging my food. I also made a date with Mel to start walking twice a week beginning next week. THAT should be fun considering how I hate exercise.
I love you... Just in case you hadn't heard me say that lately! :)
1668 days ago
ON THE WEIGHT CHART GOING DOWN BEKAH!!
1683 days ago