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I Re-Found My Focus!

My former page title was "Has Anyone Seen my Focus?". I am grateful and relieved to say that I am back on track again, with my focal point as the Spark Coaching program.

Here's my story:

If you take a look in my photos, you will see that I accomplished a lot with weight loss and fitness. I felt like I had the maintenance thing by the horns.

Then life sent me for a tumble and I did a positively crummy job of responding to and bouncing back from it. ...
My former page title was "Has Anyone Seen my Focus?". I am grateful and relieved to say that I am back on track again, with my focal point as the Spark Coaching program.

Here's my story:

If you take a look in my photos, you will see that I accomplished a lot with weight loss and fitness. I felt like I had the maintenance thing by the horns.

Then life sent me for a tumble and I did a positively crummy job of responding to and bouncing back from it.

In 2012 a lot of very difficult things happened within about a 6 month period. I mean, mind-numbingly bad stuff that left me reeling. I won't go into specifics, but trust me: The junk that happened was serious business.

But of all the crap that went on that year, there is one specific event that left my whole family wounded. I am not at liberty to talk about publicly (nothing illegal, no worries there!). Therein lies my issue: This very inability to "talk it out" is what, I believe, ultimately led me on my downhill slide.

See, I've always been an emotional eater. And one of my strategies in losing weight a few years ago was to communicate freely about what was eating me. No pretenses. Completely transparent. It seemed to not only help me, but help others in similar situations. Kinda a win-win.

To suddenly be required to be guarded about something that was eating me up inside was simply NOT good for my weight-maintenance mojo. Or my emotional state, for that matter. Being secretive has never been in my nature. I feel like a phoney when I can't be up-front about the big issues in my life.

Thank goodness the whole time I struggled with this I continued to work out. But although it was good for me, exercise wasn't filling in the hole in my soul the way that spilling my guts does.

I tried going to a counselor. Two, actually. One seemed to not know what to do with the fact that I couldn't stop crying when I talked about what had been going on, and the other kept telling me how great I look in a creepy kind of way. Not cool.

So I walked away from the counseling strategy feeling even worse than before I started.

I also tried talking to friends, but after a while they stopped asking how I was and moved on with their lives. It's natural. I don't want to be Negative Nancy, crying all the time, so I stopped bringing it up.

So I sucked it up.

And chewed it up.

And swallowed it.

And in the process I managed to eat my way though the pain, gaining about half of the weight I worked so hard to get off back. It took two years to gain it back, but there is no denying that I'm fatter than I should be!

And there I was, trying to figure out how to get my mojo back.

None of the stuff that motivated me to lose fat before seemed to motivate me again. My whole life perspective had changed based on what happened back in 2012. I was really struggling.

Because I gained this weight back I feel like a hypocrite proclaiming that I am a Personal Trainer and Health Coach, both of which I hold certifications for. I've even pulled back from training people because of it.

I was really stuck.

And still really sad.

So I started praying, being very honest with God, telling Him all of my concerns and worries and about how I was feeling like I was outside of His will for me in not taking care of this body that He entrusted me with. I asked His forgiveness for the state I had got myself in. I also asked Him to give me a way to get my focus back that would be inexpensive and keep me accountable on a daily basis.

Just a few days later I saw somewhere here on Spark People about the Spark Coaching program. I looked into it and thought it might be the answer to my prayers. And it was.

It has been exactly the little daily "push" I need. The challenges aren't hard, but sometimes bring me a tad outside of my comfort zone in a good way. The accountability is just what I needed. And, most importantly, it has helped me to turn my stinkin' thinkin' into positive self talk.

Additionally, several Spark Members who saw my Spark Page explaining how hard life had become wrote me encouraging private messages. In that private forum I was able to tell them my story. Being able to share my story to unbiased 3rd parties helped me so much! I received some sage advice that I will always appreciate. The outreaching of these kind people, who knew me not at all, went a great way towards helping me turn my head around and gaining enough strength to help myself.

If you take a look at my weight tracker below, you will see I am not at goal yet. But now I know I am going to make it to size 6 again. I feel a lot better about myself.

I have God, kind Sparkers, and the Spark Coaching program to thank for it.
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Member Since: 6/1/2007

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My Goals:
My overall goal is to take care of this body God has entrusted me with.

Most motivating goal: Keep my family history of diabetes and heart disease at bay. My best chance to be around for kids & grand-kids is to be as lean as possible.

At 5'9", get consistently into a size 6 while putting on oodles of leg muscle!

Keep the reactive hypoglycemia I have when I am heavier at bay.

If God does decide to take me early, have my organs in excellent shape so they can save/extend the lives of others. What better way to leave than helping someone else stay?

My Program:
Current program:
As of 07/29/2014 I am doing the Weight Watchers program (again). And secretly, I'm wishing some very experienced Health Coach would come up beside me and volunteer to take me under their wing. But isn't that what we all want?

For workouts I have a coach here locally who makes my programs. We're not so focused on big muscle gains as we are safely progressing. I had several injuries earlier this year that I am just starting to move past. We don't want to aggravate them.

I stretch thoroughly after every workout- Have for years. It's an important part of fitness!

Personal Information:
I am certified as both a Personal Trainer and a Health Coach through the American Council on Exercise (ACE).

I live in Wichita Falls, Texas, but am originally from the SF Bay Area. In my adult life I have lived in Illinois, Southern California, Hampton Roads Virginia, Panama City Florida, Louisville Kentucky, Marion Ohio, and here in Texas.

We have a total of seven kids, four of which emerged from my body and three from the body of my ex-wife-in-law. :-) Only one lives at home full time still. We also have two beautiful grandchildren.

I enjoy all sorts of boring domestic stuff, but I also have a bit of a daredevil streak in me and like to try new things.

Other Information:
These have become my own original catch-phrases:
- "The shame is not in falling down. The shame is in not getting back up."
- "Any exercise is better than no exercise."
- "Do the Right thing, even when it's not easy."
- "Do what scares you! "
- "You can't know what you don't know"
- "If you do positive things to your body, your body can't help but respond positively."
- "An obstacle isn't a road block- it's simply something to either be climbed over or navigated around."

Favorite quote NOT by me:
- "You gotta put your behind in the past." (Pumba to Timon in The Lion King)

Favorite Bible Verse:
- "There is no temptation you are faced with that others haven't also faced. But God, who is faithful, will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can stand and will give you a way to escape the temptation so that you will be able to handle it." 1st Corinthians 10:13 NNAV [New Nancy Anne Version ;-)]

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8/16/2014 5:54:27 PM

Thnk you for the spa goodie : )!

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HDHAWK
8/16/2014 12:16:02 PM

Yes, he was born last Friday afternoon at 1:29 p.m. They went home Sunday. I'm so glad they live close. I'll see him tomorrow. His name is Braxton James. Pictures on my spark page. So much fun!



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OPTIMIST1948
8/12/2014 10:21:52 AM

I hope he doesnt find the cake also, and I appreciate the sentiment - but DANG, ask first! And dont serve me a slice the size of my head!



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