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Just another anonymous fat girl...

I am morbidly obese. I have struggled with body image all my life and have always thought I was fat. Even when I was thin, I hated my body. I always thought I was too fat and every photo has been a "before" photo. "I can look better, I can be thinner, I hate the way I look." My constant internal dialog. I am tired of feeling like a second class citizen because of my obesity. I need to heal my sense of self worth. I am more than my body. Fat is not who I am. Fat is not my mind, my sense of ...
I am morbidly obese. I have struggled with body image all my life and have always thought I was fat. Even when I was thin, I hated my body. I always thought I was too fat and every photo has been a "before" photo. "I can look better, I can be thinner, I hate the way I look." My constant internal dialog. I am tired of feeling like a second class citizen because of my obesity. I need to heal my sense of self worth. I am more than my body. Fat is not who I am. Fat is not my mind, my sense of humor, my intelligence, my kindness. Fat doesn't define me. I need to lose my self hatred before I can lose weight.




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Member Since: 9/25/2012

My Goals:
Fit comfortably in my clothes. Fit in a plane seat.

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South Beach Diet

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CRISSA1669
10/13/2012 1:18:36 PM

HI!! Thank you so much for leaving me your thoughts on my page regarding my thoughts on your page(lol). Sometimes I read and comment on blogs and never hear a thought back...whether good or bad; so it's nice to know that you read my "book". I am so glad you are gonna give consistent tracking a try...I have to say..it really was the tracking that started everything for me....I had myself food with my healthy diet...and while I still eat the same foods from back then, I just watch those portions like a hawk. Also thank you for the comment on my running pix with two of my sons...I love that picture also.........of course my son Anthony was the master mind and staged it like they were all worn out...BUT NOW if they were to go on a run with me for 8 or 9 miles..............they FOR SURE wouldn't need to fake the pose!! hahaha I love it. I have to say..and I am sure you already know........but this is HARD work!!! BUT I can not even begin to tell you the difference it has made in my life, in every aspect of my life...........I guess ultimately I can say......I NOW HAVE A LIFE...where I am not constantly uncomfortable in my own skin, where I can go anywhere and buy a piece of clothing(love thrift stores)...where I can be held by my husband and NOT feel unfeminine from being obese.....oh man, it's been amazing...but it's been work, with no excuses...I'm nobody special, I have no magic potion or system..I ate healthy, real food, less of it, and moved my rear A LOT...and I'm still doing it day in and day out!! I'm rooting for you...don't overwhelm yourself...just start like you said with tracking...tracking gave me the power to choose whether I wanted the yummy cookie or not...If i choose to go over my calorie or fat ranges for the day, it was my choice...I have nothing off limits except for the things that I do not eat or drink....one day at a time, one choice at a time! YOu really can do it!! I keep my food tracker public(I doubt anybody ever looks at it) but it's open none the less :) I'm exciting for you for this new outlook and new step!! :) :) Clarissa ( I apologize I wrote you a book but you made my day with your comment on my page)



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GREASE31
10/8/2012 10:18:05 AM

Hi MYSTERYFATGIRL,

I've just found/read your sparkpage, i like it it looks good, i've just looked at your photograph 2, i like it it looks good 2, i wud like you to be my sparkfriend, if you dont mind. emoticon emoticon emoticon



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9/26/2012 8:08:25 AM

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Found this poem while searching for some motivation, hope you enjoy it as much as I did!

Anything is Possible
By Unknown

If there was ever a time to dare, to make a difference, to embark on something worth doing, IT IS NOW.
Not for any grand cause, necessarily...
but for something that tugs at your heart, something that's your inspiration, something that's your dream.
You owe it to yourself to make your days here count.
HAVE FUN.
DIG DEEP.
STRETCH.
DREAM BIG.

Know, though, that things worth doing seldom come easy.
There will be good days.
And there will be bad days.
There will be times when you want to turn around, pack it up, and call it quits.
Those times tell you that you are pushing yourself, that you are not afraid to learn by trying.

PERSIST.
Because with an idea, determination, and the right tools, you can do great things.
Let your instincts, your intellect, and your heart, guide you.

TRUST.
Believe in the incredible power of the human mind.
Of doing something that makes a difference.
Of working hard.
Of laughing and hoping.
Of lazy afternoons.
Of lasting friends.
Of all the things that will cross your path this year.
The start of something new brings the hope of something great, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.

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.•*´`•.¸ .•*´`•.¸ .•*´Show Your•*´`•.¸ .•*´•.¸ .•*´`•.¸
.•*´`•.¸Determination & Accountability•.¸ .•*´`•.¸
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