I have struggled with weight my entire life and never really saw it as a real issue but only a cosmetic one. As I have matured and raised 3 kids I have realized that how you feel about yourself inside is so much related to how you look and are feeling about your appearance on the outside .That concept always seemed very shallow to me ,but I am finally at age 42 realizing that my happiness (consistant happiness) depends 50 % on my weight and physical well being and the other 50 %is myl spiritual and emotional health. Thats it.You would think I would have seen this earlier in my life being in a healthcare related field.But until I was one of those patients with their very livelyhood and life at risk did I realize the magnatude of my physical problem ,nor the impact that my weight had on my emotional health. I have a new attitude lately and am very aware of the truth now.Not the truth as it relates to how much I feel like doing today, but the truth that .....this is my life now .......everyday.Day in and day out ,this must be my priority.Staying alive and enjoying the world I live in,not hiding from it or comfort eating so I don't miss it or think about it .......... but actually living it .I can't keep putting this lifestyle change off until I feel more motivated .My life is half over and I would like the second half to be ,fun and long .I am not ready to check out or settle in I am ready to bust out and start living . Let people realize what was under all that that they did not see.Finally meet me again and see who that girl is now.I have not know that young girl for about 10 yrs now,That doesn't sound long ,but its a lot of wasted time.Considering how good just one night at an event wearing something beautiful feels,or one day at the beach or in nature actually enjoying the fun with your friends and family.Being ready at a moments notice to go and do anything... wearing anything ....without inhibitions or insecurities .I realize lately how blessed I am .I am surrounded by love and family ,but have been too lazy to get mysef to place to enjoy them; when so many others need friends and a family and love.I feel ashamed and mad at myself .But I moving forward with a new attitude and realize this is not going to ever fix itself , ...no fairy dust for a better metabolism .I have to do this myself ,"If it is to be .....it is up to me"No husband can fix me ,no sister can motivate me ,no body can move my big butt off that couch but me,I am excited and dreading it all at the same time ,I am afraid will not do this and die this way. When I tell you getting started this time ,started with just wearing my sport shoes more often, and reading other peoples web sites . I started walking to the street sign and now lifting 25 pounds for reps instead of 2 lbs.I am making progress just writing this .Yeah.. I am happy to have found this site and all the inspiring, and neat people here.Thanks for reading ...peace out...
My first goal is to lay off carbohydrates.I am a sugar addict .That usually gives me the energy to start moving .My next goal is start circut weight training like the biggest loser contestants.More muscle with al that protein should bring results.
Totally letting go of the carbs for now.Only some fruit.No bread .potatoes or sugarrrrrrrrr.
Mother of three 18 yr old daugher and adorable twin boys 12. Living inNorth Georgia
I love being outside,near water,reality TV,scrapbooking digital video cliping,taking girl trips ,going to the club somtimes to party,listening to IPOD podcasts,yardwork,the pool,the beach,the lake,the river...espec the river rafting,love the mountains of north georgia for cabin outings,love Hotlanta at night ,fourwheeling,mudding,loves my rap music,like my country ..I am a country girl at heart raised in the old southern city of Atlanta.Georgia Peaches Rock.... I love Journey,Areosmith,Will Smith,Maroon Five ,anything that has a beat.Love my music, and dancing for sure .What goes on at Girls night out stays with the night .
| current weight: 259.0