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Sparkmember ** Debby's Journey **

I 'm a soul searching to be happy with myself. In 2001 due to a severe gluten allergy my lupus out of remission, severe arthritis symptoms; then a new diagnosis of fibromyalgia, I was given 6 months to live. OMG not again....

My first thought oh no not again, as I've had cancer, nearly hemmoraged to death, a heart attack, and nearly died in 3 car accidents, then nearly died when I fell into a campfire while on a backpacking trip alone.

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I 'm a soul searching to be happy with myself. In 2001 due to a severe gluten allergy my lupus out of remission, severe arthritis symptoms; then a new diagnosis of fibromyalgia, I was given 6 months to live. OMG not again....

My first thought oh no not again, as I've had cancer, nearly hemmoraged to death, a heart attack, and nearly died in 3 car accidents, then nearly died when I fell into a campfire while on a backpacking trip alone.

Everyday, I live & strive each day to live life in the moment especially on the good & bad days. I remind myself daily; life is like the ocean ever changing in ebb & flow. I believe I am just a little ripple in God's pond. I just have to keep afloat, just keep swimming. Be the leaf traveling in the creek.

I battle depression daily trying to find a reason to live, back in 2001 I lost 125 lbs while coping with far too many losses in my life, on top of dealing with my own health challenges. I'm so very tired of loosing family, friends, loved ones & love in my life.

I believe God wants me to become a happier healthy person. I can only achieve success one day at a time sometimes one moment at a time, one step at a time, with prayer & hope I can achieve and succeed, making positive choices.

I've learned instead of looking outwardly to have someone else be my happiness I must create my own happiness. I accept that a scale nor the lack of money doesn't determine my self-worth! Since joining sparkpeople 7 years ago I've put on 80lbs. Once again, OOps I'm going the wrong direction.

I am not my bodies ailments I am not "that lable". I am a soul searching to live inside this body to learn life lessons while here on this earthly plane. However I know I am ready to cross over from this life. Yet it's not up to me, only God know's my expiration day.

I'm proud that 6 years ago I healed from serious burns from falling into a camp fire, to my hands & arms & leg, dealing with constant pain daily, my nerve endings have healed as much as they can I now live with the nerve pain & scars on the new formed skin.

Within the year of healing I became dependent on pain relievers, when I ran out of money for medication due to living on a limited income, I over medicated with Alcohol trying to numb the pain. Instead I became dependent on the alcohol until the money ran out each month, then I still had to deal with the pain. So then I stopped going outside, except when absolutely necessary. I stopped living a normal life.

I am a schooled massage therapist, to have my hands so badly burned hurt me to my core. I had no one left, so I self destructed myself. I allowed myself to crawl into a lonely self destructive pit.

Then I joined Sparkpeople hoping that I could find a way to help pull me out of my downward spirial. Due to medications & drinking I didn't loose weight.

I learned to measure, control food portions, choose healthy food choices when I would eat. It got to the point I stopped eating; I allowed my eating disorder to once again surface. Then I was afraid to eat anything.

Finally I stopped taking all medications December 3rd 2007. Everyday is still a test in dealing with the pain when using my hands & arms & leg. I've cut way down on the wine.

For the entire 1st year being on Sparkpeople I searched for new friends, a new hiking/walking/exercise buddy. I'm still searching. A new friend would be a gift from God. Now I long to walk & hike so I will go out alone again, leaving it to God for wherever I am God is and all will be well in Divine Order.

I believe in myself I don't want to end up dead at an early age as some of my family and friends have, due to health problems from carrying around too much fat and weight on my body or due to alcohol poisioning.

I still hold out hope & anticipate the changes to occur in my body due to making my Sparkpeople pledge; I hope to make new strides in my life one step & one day at a time.

I hope & pray each person that finds the Sparkpeople site they can achieve their own personal best in this life. Each of us DESERVE to be Our Best, Saying what you need to say with love each day, living and letting go, allowing openings for God's help.

I am a survivor, I've survived cancer, 3 car accidents, dire medical diagnosis's a heart attack, 3 nervous breakdowns, a fire accident, alcohol poisioning, self destruction, & lonelyness and now the loss of my first born child, she died of a massive heart attack 6/9/09 I miss her so very much my life will never ever be the same again I've lost part of my soul . I still believe God still has a plan for me I hope & pray each day, one moment one day at a time. My faith will get me through this too.

Thank you for getting to know me.


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My Goals:
Each new day turn it over; pray, healing emotionally, release depression & obsessive thoughts. Embrace lupus, fybromyalgia arthritis symptoms; love them to death.

Let go of some of the fear I feel. A little each day. Make it measurable

Give myself realistic daily, weekly, monthly goals for my weight, begin walking & hiking even if I have to do it alone. Let Go Let God.

I want to be helpful by being an inspiration to others.

God gives us people to care for in our life, for a moment, a week, a year, a lifetime.

Embrace the love in your life for the precious gift it is; Family & Friends are a gift from God.

My Program:
I will Change my words, change my life, accept all Gods blessings meant for me with joyous grace.

Each day is a New Beginning, a New Day God has given me, do what I can, let go of what I can't do alone.

My past shaped me, now I learn from it becoming a better me Right here Right Now, Be easy on myself.

Live my own healthy lifestyle; letting go of excess weight. Let go of obsessing doing things perfectly. Don't try just do.

Personal Information:
As a child I lived in El Paso TX, so my body likes the desert weather. My birthday 10/13/ I'm 5'10" blonde hair, blue eyes, living in the beautiful Verde Valley in the high desert of Central Arizona.

My first born daughter died in 2009 leaving a husband & two children, he is now remarried his new wife & new life wants nothing to do with his first family so I've lost those two grandchildren. After the memorial my second daughter chose to leave our family & take her two children away. This loss is the worst of all.

I will forever cherish my 4 grandchildren two girls, two boys ranging in age from 18 to 15. Tho I don't see them I will love them; unconditionally. I pray some day I will see these precious grandchildren of mine,

So my 3 furry cat children Prince, Kasey, Baxter are my children & companions now.

Being a Mom is My Best Loved Position in all my life. I was a good Mom.



Other Information:
"When we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe." - John Muir

What a man thinks of himself, that it is which determines, or rather indicates, his fate. Walden

Some of my other favorite quotes during my life are from President John F Kennedy and Robert Kennedy.

Things do not happen, Things are made to happen.

Those who dare to fail miserably can achieve greatly.

We should not let our fears hold us back from pursuing our hopes.

Robert Kennedy--

Some men see things ans ask why, I dream things that never were and say Why Not?

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FLORIDASUN
7/24/2014 10:20:02 AM

Thanks sweet friend for stopping by my latest blog. I always SO appreciate your thoughts and support!

Wow...and I thought FL was hot! I don't know if I could tolerate what you are going through right now.

I'll be praying that the rain comes your way and soon! I liked it better when we lived on the East Coast of FL for the weather...you seemed to get better cross breezes off the Atlantic Ocean...but the people and the congestion were much worse.

We are on the West side and the Gulf of Mexico doesn't send us much in the way of cross breezes but the sand is white and fine and the people seem to be much nicer....for the most part...ha ha!

I wish it would be nice in Iowa but the month of August is their hottest month also...so that won't be much of a change for us. Hopefully on our leg back we might catch a little cool in N. Carolina.

I wish you weren't so far away...I'd love to swing by your neck of the woods but you are on the opposite end of the spectrum from where we are traveling...boooooo!

I'm hoping all stays silent on the house situation while we are gone..I hate to be so far away if something would come up...but DH's mom must be seen...or she goes into a melt down. I can understand in some ways...I just wish she weren't so whiney and sniveling and always complaining.

Gosh...that's NO life! In some ways I worry because I can see some of those tendencies showing in DH....it's got to be because he has to endure her carryings on every single Sunday...let's hope that negativity genes aren't inherited...ughhh! emoticon

I'm going to do my VERY best to be as nice as I possibly can...I really have to feel sorry for her rather than angry...of course this is MUCH harder to do than to say...especially a few hours in on the whining! emoticon

I've never understood women that control through guilt...never!

The biggest problem is that we have only one vehicle because his stinking sister won't drive HER car...so that means that if I don't go along I'm stuck at our friends house and feel like I'm infringing...or I have to be dropped off at the mall and hang around til DH picks me up. Not such a BAD thing...I can go to Barnes and Noble and be perfectly happy for HOURS...or I can go to a movie or just walk and get my exercise in.

It's just the idea that they don't make ANY sacrifices and we are the one's spending all of the money to wine and dine them and they complain through the whole process.

Geeze....oh PETE! Every year I say maybe this year it will be different...so maybe this year....not holding my breathe though! emoticon

All I can hope is that DH is stuck with them more on his own without me as a buffer...he will decide that the money we spend isn't really worth it and go on an ACTUAL vacation....here's hoping! emoticon



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FLORIDASUN
7/22/2014 7:49:24 AM

Hello my dear friend! Thanks SO very much for your wise and wonderful comments on my last blog. We all have our challenges don't we? There isn't much I can't figure out in this life...but these two are beyond my grasp of reality. I guess bitter and negative just don't register on my scale...to be around it is just exhausting and seems such a big fat waste of time.

Don't worry we'll find some enjoyable things to do also. And I will try to be reflective and look at these two bitter mean jealous individuals with more pity than anger. I just don't like the constant manipulation of DH...but it's his family and his choice...I can't live his reality for him.

Hugs to you and I'm so happy that you took the time out of your busy schedule to be so helpful...you always are and I love that about you SO much! emoticon



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DEBBEV
7/21/2014 3:10:16 PM

Debby,
Thanks for the Spark goodie.I wish I had met you 3 month ago also. Maybe next time you are passing through Olive Branch we can do lunch or something. Have I ever met your sister? Looking forward to meeting one or both of you.


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NOSNACKER-57
7/19/2014 8:36:07 AM

Hi sorry it took me so long to reach out to you, I have been missing in action. But was thinking of my low GI lifestyle and just this morning I was thinking I would love to go without meat and dairy. My friend gave up dairy and feels so much better, not more stomach issues. My niece is vegan totally and loves it, said it takes a bit to get used to but doable. I'll have to check out that movie on netflix...



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EDWARDS1411
7/13/2014 4:20:54 PM

emoticon Debby and emoticon to the Glycemic Index - Low GI Lifestyle team!! We're glad to have another join us on our healthy lifestyle journey because we're doing this together!!! So please stop by often & let us know how you're doing.

Val :)
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