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I had to pop in and leave a message and let you know that I added you as a friend. I left a message on your blog today and wanted to welcome you back as a whole new person with many new difficulties to over come. I was paralyzed falling from a fire engine 19 years age. I was 37years old with a very active lifestyle and in one instant that all changed. I had to literally grieve the loss of a huge part of who I was and struggle to find some new passions in my life that were things you can do totally confined, unable to use your legs, butt, abdomen... No more Firm Videos that I did 5 days a week. I could hardly stand to see others(and that was everyone) using their legs to walk and not using them to their best ability and appreciating what they could do for them. It was a thousand things that hit me and I had to grieve and let go of of each and every thing I could no longer do. But I did find other ways to feel great about and to make life worth fighting to live it healthy, and as active as I possibly can.
You can do this and I would love to help in any way I can. From reading your page a little it looks like you have lost a loved one as well. So you know the stages of grief, it sounds like you need some support as what you are going through now is like losing a huge part of who you are and you need to grieve that loss. It was a long process for me as I put on the smiles and the charm, to be the same great active, social, physical, leader, be there for you any time around the clock friend. Now I was limited from all of those things, I tried to be everything, but I did it at the expernse of not addressing what I needed and not letting my family and friends know what I needed. When I finally realized I had to work on me and take care of me first was when my girls were off to college and my hubby worked long hours. If I wanted a life I had to make a new one for myself with the best parts of who I am inside. I am getting there and losing the weight that is so easy to gain when you are confined to a wheelchair, but I am going to get there.
It can be done and you will be stronger for it, I know it is hard to see from where you are now....but trust me there is a wonderful life still waiting for you even with your disability. Start with looking in the mirror and telling yourself that face you see is the same person you have always been, you just have to fight harder than anyone without disabilities to get yourself back. You can do it! I will be there to help you! I will stay on this journey and take it you with me!! Your new SP friend!!
1943 days ago
Comment edited on: 2/5/2011 1:07:58 AM
Kristie, in the previous months, I have noticed a steady increase in the heartfelt losses of beloved ones. Not only within our wonderful group, but also in the other groups I'm a member of and from reading lots of blogs and posts written from the members of this website. I may not post ofen, however, I do check in daily while huddling. During my daily service work, I have found that my calling will always be for those that are grieving. My wishes will always be that I can comfort others as they suffer the feelings of emptiness and heartache that we all have experienced. I found a poem that I would like to pass on to the members of Lost A Love One's team. I hope it will give each one of you a sense of inner peace that our beloved ones and us are forever connected with an invisible string running through from their eternal hearts to our earthly hearts.
I'm Gone now, but I'm still very near.
Death can never separate us.
Each time you feel a gentle breeze,
It's my hand caressing your face.
Each time the wind blows,
It carries my voice whispering your name.
When the wind blows your hair ever so slightly,
Think of it as me pushing a few stray hairs back in place.
When you feel a few raindrops fall on your face,
It's me placing soft kisses.
At night look up in the sky and see the stars shining so brightly.
I'm one of those stars and I'm winking at you and smiling with delight.
For never forget you're the apple of my eye.
--- Mary M. Green ---
"Tears are the silent language of grief." Always remember, I am right by your side, embracing you in healing thoughts, comforting hugs and caring friendship. Sending love and hugs from my home to yours. TOGETHER, WE CAN SUSTAIN GRIEF One Day At A Time! It's a wonderful feeling to know that we're never alone throughout our many stages of grief. Have a beautiful and blessed weekend.
~ Monika ~
2083 days ago
Happy Birthday to you Kristie, hope you have a wonderful day.
from the facebook and Disabilities Teams and Kat
2095 days ago
2108 days ago
Kristie it sounds like we've got a lot in common. I had been off SP for a few months due to depression. Got a long, hard road ahead of me too but not as tough as you. I will be praying for you. You can do this!
2109 days ago
Comment edited on: 8/22/2010 2:06:10 PM