Me at my prom (in blue) June '02. I was pushing maybe 110 lbs and my dress was a size 2. *sigh*
June '03 after a year of college. I was about 120 and felt the best about my body than ever before.
Me and my BFF at my bridal shower April '07. We used to be the exact same size (she hasn't changed)
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Hi there. My name is Colleen. I'm recently married and so far enjoying newlywed life. Both my husband and I have made some goals for the new year to start eating better. Let's face it, we're junk food addicts and four years of being in a comfortable relationship has taken its toll on our bodies. We're both big fans of the fast food and we don't cook much at home, but I'm hoping to make a valid effort in changing that. I don't have a huge weight-loss goal in mind, though I wouldn't mind getting down to 120lbs. I'm basically just looking to change some of my bad habits (ie: choosing Subway over McDonalds if the need to eat fast food should arise). I'm always looking for new recipes as I'm a beginner in the whole cooking department.
My background story:
I was always a very thin/skinny kid. I could eat, and eat, and eat, and not gain a pound. And the funny thing? I hated it! Oh how I long to be like that again. I wasn't even very active. I didn't enjoy sports. The only exercise I ever got was walking to/from school, and in the summers I rode my bike a lot. But I hated it. I was short and thin and "flat-chested". I wanted to be curvy and "sexy" with the big boobs and the booty. My best friend was always the same as me (we were always the same size) and we used to try and make ourselves gain weight. I remember one time we were both at 105lbs for the longest time and when I finally went up to 106lbs and told her, she was like, "Damn you!" She's still the same tiny little person.
Then I went to college fall '02. I was introduced to alcohol (and lots of it!). I had a kitchen in all the places I lived at in college (residence, a townhouse, and then a basement apartment) but I didn't like to cook. It was never fun to cook for one person. I also had roommates who were really messy so I tried to just avoid the kitchen at all costs. So what does that mean? Fast food. All the time! I gained a bit of weight my first year of college (I'd say about 10-15 pounds) but the summer in between first and second year, I had a very physical job so I was very fit and muscular. When I returned to school for second year fall of '03, I had so many compliments. My cousin had said to me, "Colleen did you gain weight? You look great!" I mean who actually looks good after putting ON weight?! I was thrilled. Well that all went downhill and fast.
I met my husband my second year of college. He was like me. Didn't like to cook, avoided the kitchen like the plague (he too had messy roommates who destroyed his kitchen). So we ate out a lot. We drank a lot. We snacked on junk food a lot. Four years of this. Before I knew it, I was going on 135lbs and that's when I realized I needed to do something. I tried to diet the beginning of 2006 (for my wedding). That lasted, oh, three months if that. I was beginning to get obsessed with stepping on the scale and eating/not eating. At one point I found myself kneeling in front of the toilet trying to make myself throw up when I realized I needed to stop. As much as I felt I needed to lose weight, that was not the road I wanted to be on. So I gave up the dieting and the looking after myself.
My highest weight was 141lbs, that I know of. I'm sort of afraid of the scale and don't weigh myself very often. That was right around my wedding (spring of '07). Going from a kid/teen who was pretty much skin and bones (and while I hated it then, looking back I wish I could look like that again, I mean look at my prom picture on the left side of this screen!) to being 140lbs (and I'm only about 5'1" or so) and having barely any of my shirts come down far enough to cover my love-handles and gut, I know that things need to change. My metabolism isn't as fast as it was when I was 18 years old. All those many years of eating crap has finally caught up to me, and if I don't start now, when will I? I always said I'll concentrate on losing weight after I have a baby and I'm losing baby-weight. Well after that, I'll probably say "Oh I'll lose the weight when I have a second child." Before I know it I'm well into my 30s and I know the older we get, the harder it wil be. I'm young now. I'm only 24. I need to make changes now so that by the time I'm 30, 40, 50++ I'm healthy and happy and I'm passing on good habits to my future children.
It'll be hard work, and I know it will be. A "routine" isn't exactly part of my life. I work in a hotel and I work a variety of three different shifts during the week. To even get a full three meals is a challenge for me. But 2008 is my year. I am determined to become a healthier version of me.
Basically my goals are to start living a healthier lifestyle. I'd eventually like to drop my weight down to what it was at the beginning of college.
To meet my goals, I'm basically just taking very small baby-steps. Each month I'm going to incorporate a new "habit" into my daily/weekly routine.
I grew up in Mississauga, ON but I'm living in Barrie, ON right now with my husband.
You can find me on facebook by searching Colleen Whale (I'm pretty sure I'm the only one) in the Barrie, ON network. Or on livejournal, my username is georgiancpeach.