At my niece's wedding this August 2006
August 19th, 2014 - needing to focus, to hold focus. Self pity is not an option.
August 17th, 2012 and I am basically starting over!
In 2007 my husband's health went down hill; he's better now but life has changed so much. I have lost my independence. My life revolves around all the hiccups in his life. My response has been self-pity and self indulgence.
It is well past time to get it back together. So here we go again....
I just joined this site on Dec 8th 2006; I didn't know it existed! Over the last 3 years, through proper nutrition, portion control and exercise, I have lost over 100lbs. I still need to lose another 10 - 15. I'm stuck at this point - so close to the goal but still so far. I still see the obese person, not the "new" me.
Jan 28 2007
I was asked by my TOPS group to do a bit of a history; here it is:
Something in my brain went off in November 2003 and I started trying to get my life in order. I was tired! Tired of being tired. It wasn't so much my health as DH's. In the previous years I was taking over most of the physical work of maintaining the yard - summer (lawn moving, raking) and winter. DH was having joint problems and simply could not help me. Walking 3 dogs was a major challenge as well.
I started to look at my food choices ("diet") and made some changes. I dropped a few pounds.
My friend told me that a number of the teachers she worked with were going to Curves. Curves as having an introduction week - 7 days at no charge. We went to see the facility. I signed up for the week -- I weighed 272# by then. As usual I wasn't 100% sure of what to expect. (The starting up went slowly because I had no sooner started than DH's hospitalization for knee replacement went very badly. We were in Edmonton for 3 weeks.) I went 3 to 5 days a week to work the circuit. There was no discussion about nutrition unless you went to the workshops and I didn't - they weren't part of the membership package but were an extra fee. By spring the circle was getting boring. The weekly weigh-ins and measurement takings were an incentive to keep going down.
The morning supervisor had recently received her certification as a personal trainer. So in the spring (2004) with her help I also started a weight routine at Physiques. The exercises at Curves didn't seem to require an awful lot of effort so stacking the two sessions wasn't a hardship. I admit that the end of spring her enthusiam to be a trainer had ended and I was on my own. I watched what other people were doing in the gym and copied what I saw. Basically I was working "blind".
Just a step back -- by the end of May 2004, 6 months after starting my program, I weighed 239 pounds. This was on my home scale.
After the first year, November 2004, I weighed in at 223 pounds. I noticed that the first 6 months I had a greater loss and then the battle was on. My enthusiam waned to say the least. No more wine and cheesie sessions with my neighbour & partner in crime! At least not very often. My husband was good about the food preparation - at least to a point. He wasn't going to change his way of eating but was adapting his cooking methods to be more friendly to my challenge.
I gave up Curves at the end of November 2004; I had been there a year. It just didn't seem to be helping me anymore. It was more of a chore than a positive experience. At this time a local gym was offering a 6 week fitness class; I took part. I worked with my new trainer until she moved to the southin the summer of 2005. I found out what "cardio" exercise was supposed to be -- hustle, get my heart rate up and how to determine by heart rate how hard I should be working among other things.
Another step back -- by the end of May 2005, I weighed 220 pounds. I sure didn't go anywhere fast. I was lolly-gagging. I will say though, my size was changing even if my scale was not saying the pounds were going.
I kept going to the gym. In September I found another trainer. He definitely believed in harder physical workouts; also more and longer cardio sessions. The end of November 2005, two years after starting, I weighed 217. I was asked to provide a "goal". My smart ass spouse said the goal should be to weigh less than him. Early in 2006 I knew my niece was getting married that coming summer. The goal became to get into the same dress I wore to her mother's wedding.
I didn't break the 200 mark until the end of March 2006. My efforts were definitely dragging. End of April 196#, mid May 191# and then I noticed DH was starting to mark his weight on my calender. I put 192, he put 185; I put 191, he put 184; the challenge was on! We kept noting weight; both getting lighter. So in reality at that time DH's challenge became the next motivator. I ended May at 188 & DH 181. June was another nothing month - up, down and around in circles!
A side step - by mid May I was trainer-less yet again. I poked around on the internet and found a web site that offered exercise routines and support. I enrolled for their 30 day trial and then signed on. We had some communication problems in the beginning that we had to sort out. I finally got my trainer and my routine was established. They did provide e-mail support. Questions were answered with 24 hours. What was lacking was accountability. So.... I also found a piece of software called CalorieKing which would track calories, carbs, protein, etc. Again that helped, it brought my attention back to the amount and type of food I was consuming.
I joined TOPS at the end of June and have been gradually gaining ground my battle. I think the big difference is having to stand on that scale every week.
September came and I lost my trainer, again! I couldn't get a response out of her replacement so told the site "manager" goodbye. I still used the exercise routines I had paid for. I was floating again.
December I found sparkpeople.com.
But I still can't get into that dress, which is a size 16; or the wool slacks and long black skirt from 1981. They are marked as size 18. The slacks I purchased after Christmas are marked as size 14, so is the vest. The manufacturers have "re-aligned" again.
There were definite times of the scale not moving. Yet I was having to purchase or make new, smaller, clothes. Then, after diddling around, the scale would show a 3 or 4 pound loss. If the scale didn't go down I didn't care just as long as it didn't go up too much.
Now people that I have known for quite awhile but haven't seen in recent times walk by me without recognizing me. One of DH's drinking buddies wanted to know who DH's new girlfriend was. Again some people ask me if I'm okay.
To achieve a reasonable weight and then maintain it - no backsliding allowed.....
I am working on practicing sensible nutrition and portion control. I need to work at keeping up the exercise; I like to procrastinate.
I like to sew, knit, make earrings, read, walk. Have way too many pets.
Really bummed by winter
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